Speak nothing. Fear everything.

October 25th, 2011 by admin

It is one of those days where words fail me.

I wish I could put into words every minute details of the thoughts I have in me I have these days, but they pass me by so swiftly that I can’t even hold on to them.

Either that, or they are buried intentionally at the back of my head, so I do not have to over-analyse, over-think, because… I simply don’t have the privilege to do so anymore.

We all need a lil space, a lil room to run away to, to hide from the big, bad world, to sort out the real us before it can deal with the real world out there.

That needs plenty of courage… or denial. I don’t have much of the former, so I hold on to the latter with my dear life.

Someday, I might find the honesty that has eluded this space for the longest time, or maybe I have reached the age that social responsibility triumphs it all.

Someday, maybe, someday.

On another note, I might finally get down to write about Shanghai trip. Too eventful to miss.

Or maybe the beautiful V-Lynn’s wedding.

Before I get overwhelmed by the work, endless trips to Changi Airport at obscene hours, or when the next exciting thing comes up, say the leather and lace pole party this weekend. WOOHOOO!

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Anticipating the anticipated

October 17th, 2011 by admin

It was only when I touched down did I realise how much I didn’t want to come back.

The stark reality stared me back in my face, and I wish I could do a U-turn and take another flight to fly somewhere.

Anywhere.

I was too drained to find anything within me, I must have had fallen asleep while listening to A Drop in the Ocean, a song I gotten acquainted with cos someone let me listen to it in Shanghai when I had a bad day, and left me in a world of my own.

I have never quite listened to songs on my phone, but somehow this trip has changed that equation, and well, that’s another story altogether.

The trip was one to be remembered for all the brilliant spontaneous people, the extreme loads of shopping the students did which I did none, aplenty of cultural shock, the rude and nice Chinese men we met, minimal amount of sleep, I was on an eating spree almost everyday cos the guide fed me well and that someone made me cry (knn!) on the bus (murphy’s law says that right at the moment you cry, the teacher would turn to you to ask for a picture together).

I surprised myself how much I enjoyed China. I think it was the history part that charmed me aplenty. They can make do with more handsome men though. China grew on me, and I can’t wait to find out what Beijing gotta offer though I am not going to Beijing anytime soon.

How can I be a people person and such an anti-social person who is afraid of crowd and shy around people at the same time? I contradict myself all the time, but the self-questioning was an all time high this time round, and then on came the iPhone music player, and I wish I was invisible so I could be left alone to deal with all these emotions.

I think I only remember how to be a clown, and forgot how to be myself when I get nervous around crowds.. then again, we put on personas to project the strength we lack, especially when we are working. Then when the real persona slips out, it takes others by surprise and set them panic.

I came home to things I don’t want to deal with. Well, a phone call that came in when I was in Shanghai already prepped me for it, but still, when the humid air greeted me in Singapore, I was glad to see Minibean (and seeing my twitter and facebook load.. though there’s weibo but then no data plan!) but there was so much dread in me that I was wondering when was the next flight I could afford to fly myself out to somewhere.

Anywhere.

It seems like an era had passed when I finally reached home in all the delirium. This is how it feels like when adrenalin wears off, and you can’t find yourself speaking. I don’t feel like speaking, I don’t feel like talking, but just wanna channel all thoughts via social media (can you imagine how tortured I was in Shanghai?!).

I wanted to write a 2-liner, but I end up writing about nothing for very long.

I came home to realise I don’t quite have a home.

I miss the familiarity, but a relative has moved in, and I can’t walk ar0und in the nude when there is no one anymore. Hurhur.

Then, I saw the mess which I had no energy to clean up, and went into my long list of to-dos. Which includes sorting the luggage, which I always do when I touch down, but then a good sleep with my baby pillow triumphed all.

Boss then said longer hours are waiting ahead.

I wanted to walk out of the door with my luggage.. and just flee like I always do. But, I have nowhere to go.

I am not called an escapist for nothing.

I woke up at 7am, my call time for the past week, when I have allowance of couple of hours more sleep and couldn’t get back to sleep.

I have another long day of operations, story telling, and catching up. Then I have commitment I would rather not go so I can catch up with work, and also because I have no more energy within me to keep up with all the play-acting.

I think I have put on this persona for so long that when I quieten down, I may actually come across as rude.

Totally random. I realise my fear for flying is highlighted and magnified when I don’t get to see what’s happening outside the window.

My uneasiness was evident enough for the gorgeous air stewardess to ask me if I was okay when I stepped off the plane cos she noticed how uneasy I felt when taking off and landing.

I am THAT uncool.

Okie. My guide in Shanghai just told me that a student left a Blackberry behind in Shanghai… they all huh! That’s why we do earlier check-outs and what room checks are for, but they were the ones who woke up late and thus the room check was done only after we left.. thankfully, we could probably send it back with the male teacher who had deviated his flight.

Thankfully the hotel quite honest, very awesome right?

Anyway, I am not sure why I am even writing so much redundant stuff. First day return and the calls are coming in already, thankfully I am awake.

And here’s to my longer hours already.

*BIG SAD GRUMPY FACE*

Now if you would excuse me, I need to go lose that chinese accent I had brought back with me.

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Don’t drive me blind

October 8th, 2011 by admin

I think a part of me is starting to conceit to my own incompetency.

I am the last person on this earth who can tell you that I lead a life of balances, it’s either an excess of everything, or nothing. So yah, this post is one of so many elements that it simply doesn’t make sense.

You know that girl who balances family, work (not even a full-time one, dammit!), pole, passion, travelling, sneak in some time for a book, friends, lil indulgences of Gossip Girl, How I met your mother, Modern Family, CSI’s franchises, Mentalist, and upcoming Walking Dead, L4D2, cooking and baking, laundry and the dreadful ironing, and still have the luxury of time to do the shopping and doll up and look pretty and have a great life and then put it on the blog…?

Apologies, that’s not me, and could possibly never be.

And this immense sense of dissatisfaction, may I just clarify that it is not a sad, depressing kinda dissatisfaction, but sadomasochistically a happy kind because things are happening, is constantly gnawing at me that a part of me actually feels like staging a mutiny.

The kind that will take everyone by surprise and just.. happen. It just so that with so much things happening, it just seems like I have to trim some parts out of my life because I find them absolutely unnecessary for myself to move forward.

Frankly, even killing this weed-infested space did cross my mind, but it’s a dear part of me, and I am sentimental that way.

All I need is just a pair of giant steel balls, and it may just work fine.

WORK

I feel like nothing is moving forward yet. And to think that I am actually leaving on Monday… doesn’t even faze me. It feels like I have suddenly numbed to all the mumbo-jumbo, and hey, whatever shit that comes my way, I will pretty it up and pray my darnest best that it can fool others that it was just a chocolate cupcake.

Yes, the marketing instinct gotta kick in.

I am actually very much enjoying what I do. I actually enjoy the people I meet, the lovely new people who always have something new for you to learn about the world, the people. And I have to say that I am incredibly lucky to meet 98% of good people who selflessly taught me so many things, to the point that couple of days, after a particularly bad day, I felt like breaking down and cry over how disappointed I am with myself.

Yah, I know, very funny, meet nice people then I want to cry.

But then.. somehow the uncertainties ahead still loom… and the sustainability of it all, where’s it gonna lead me? I don’t know, but I know I am very much enjoying myself at the moment despite all the apprehension.

That aside, I am still not yet packed. In fact this morning I woke up to realise I have not done any laundry and I have nothing to pack for the trip anyway.

And then, another mad scramble ensued.

MINIBEAN + FAMILY

The redundant and theatrically family gatherings are low on my priority these days, cos maybe a part of me gave up, and to return home everyday and spend time with Minibean in between proposals and putting her to sleep (because she has been MC-ed for so long, her grans are taking care of her while we’re at work, and would send her back after we have reached home from work and she’s dropped off before work), and listening to her gems of wisdom.

For example. There was this night she was sleeping, and she started pinching my cheeks, which was right before her face.

She said that would make them swell and become pinkish.

And then she immediately asked, “So mummy, I pinch my neh neh poh poh, and they will become big big and bigger?!”
I don’t want to know what she has been up to, and her disappointment that it would be my sorry genes than her failure of keeping up with the pinches.

With the Hand-Foot-Mouth-Disease rampage in her school, she was grounded at home after returning to school for a day since her immunity system is still down from the viral infection she hadn’t fully recovered from.

Look who dropped by in the studio to say hi to all the jiejies?

She said she was shy but she refused to leave. But okay lah, I understand how she is shy, just like me!

She watches Chinese documentaries with me about China while I doing researches, and I TRIED very hard to make it interesting to her. Which prompted her to say…

“MUMMY I HAVE BEEN TO CHINA, I CAN HELP YOU TELL THEM ABOUT CHINA!“

Oh really, baby? So what do you know about Shanghai since you’ve been there?

“Uhm… THEY HAVE MANY MANY FLOWERS! I SAW YOU KNOW!“

Like Singapore doesn’t have any?! “Okay.. so what else do you know about Shanghai?”

“*dramatic pause for 2 seconds* I KNOW! MUMMY! I KNOW! CASINO! MUMMY! CASINO!” she was super excited when she thought of casino, and I worry much.

*cough* not *cough* me

Then she very animatedly said she had been there, and she even slot a coin into the slot machine.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I shall question my parents soon.

And then in another very awkward moment. She came to me and said.. “Mummy, next time I naughty you don’t scold me or spank me okay (insert bambi eyes and her puppy looks), you just tie me up can already okay (suddenly breaks into a big, happy grin)?

WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?

Where did she get that from, really?

And after these days at home, she has said she doesn’t want to go back to school anymore. SHOULD I BE REALLY WORRIED NOW?

FRIENDS

This one deserves a post on its own especially after all the gatherings with old friends, and some new ones along the way from work.

But some of the new ones have a way to prove to you that what the cynical you have always knew, some new ones surprise you by staying around and the old ones will throw you bigger surprises that you ever thought possible.

THE BLESSINGS THIS SPACE BROUGHT ME

2 days ago I was so tired that I nearly got into an accident if not the cab had e-braked in time before hitting into my car on a rainy night.

And that was a conclusion to a bad day with lotsa mistakes made, and it was pretty daunting. So daunting that I didn’t even feel much about been nearly hit by a cab and I shrugged it off.

But I got back home with a nice surprise placed nicely right outside my door, and I have honest neighbours who didn’t loot them off!

I think Nestle kinda knew that I need a break… and how oddly coincidental.

As I didn’t know anything beforehand, it came as a very comforting surprise at the end of the day.

Have a break.. have a KIT KAT!

Minibean was adamant it was for her, until I showed her the letter that it has MY name on it.

Nice try darling, but it’s for Mummy!

Instead of the normal KIT KAT bars, it came in such an exquisite packaging!

The thing is, I didn’t open it until today cos I didn’t have the time to, and it’s so preeeeeettttttty!

Because it is so thoughtful, I cannot NOT do a shout out about it.

DARK CHOCOLATE KIT KAT Otonano Amasa! I lllllllllooooovvveeee dark chocolate, if you hadn’t already knew.

Apparently it is only available in the Japanese market and is limited edition. I feel kinda special now in my mediocre life.

And awesome news is, now it is actually available in the local market!

Normally we know how expensive to get a taste of Japan, but the pricing is very much reasonable. For a sharebag of 13 pieces, it’s retailing at $6.75, and for a box of 3, only $2.95!

But it’s only available for this month of October and exclusively at NTUC Fairprice, so don’t miss the opportunity to miss this.

And it’s not the only flavour that sets a new experience for our taste buds, cos there is also Pumpkin Cheesecake which I wish they will have a permanent release for this too cos it’s so delicious.

How to lose weight like that?!

As you can see, it’s also perfect for the tricks or treats this Halloween season!

Thank you for a dose of comfort just when I needed one, Christine :)

***

I am utterly sorry that I haven’t been giving updates on the Olay Project 360! I can’t believe how much I have missed while being trying to learn the ropes at work.

Here is episode 4 of the series which we learn about elasticity and see how we sweat it out and get on all fours for a stretching session!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RDVQyoGTl94

Sorry that my embedding issues are STILL not sorted out! :(

I remember how it was raining so heavily and we were all drenched before filming and had to take a cab back even though we were just across the road. We told the uncle to make an U-turn and thankfully he was one of those nice ones who didn’t even complain about the short distance.

We actually managed to finish a 3 course lunch despite only having half an hour, and Wendy had a plastic bag on her head to protect her beautifully styled mane. I was only glad I was in singlet and shorts, so that means mininum drench factor!

I haven’t realised how work has been eating me up and I totally to update you guys the most fun episode of the Olay Project 360 of all – episode 5 – which we learn about luminance to the skin, and achieving and maintaining that healthy, vibrant glow to the face.

It is also a very special episode for me because I got to know a new friend who’s everything I wish I am. AND we get to raid the LoveBonito.com warehouse with the gorgeous Viola as special guest.

We had a mini-makeover, and this is our before:

Me with Valerie, this year’s Miss Singapore Universe.

And then after we headed to LoveBonito warehouse, where everyone had plenty of fun:

Waiting for filming to start and the raiding of the entire wardrobe from first collection of LoveBonito to begin.

And then we are all ready!

Nobody can outpose Qiuting, and this is Team Oh Yeah.

Me trying something different… and LoveBonito’s stuff all out of stock damn fast and I managed to try on this petal skirt before its launch and everyone liked the skirt, before I knew it, sold out already.

Yes, that’s Amanda’s ass.

Supermodel of the group!

See! Even though I stood further away, I am still so much bigger than her!

Can we send her to US and take part in ANTM huh?

Qiuting me and Amanda!

I keep thinking about the song “Bu zhi dao wei le shen me… you chou ta wei rao zhe wo…” don’t know why.

One of my favourite participants in the project, Daphne, who has such incredible wits, and an amazing mother I have lots to learn from.

Wanna see the results of it all? Here’s the link and see the gorgeous Viola dispensing tips on dressing up and all and being an amazing host to us as we made a mess out of the warehouse!

Episode 5 of Olay Project 360:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ix30Xolr5r4

Okay, time to hang the laundry up and back to my reality! My washing machine moved 4 inches while doing its wash today cos there’s too much for it. :|

Hopefully I have time to update before flying off, and that I might end up getting really lucky and not blocked from all the sites when I am in Shanghai!

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My precious babe is sick again

September 25th, 2011 by admin

It is the time of the year when F1 season is clogging up the streets, and something bizarre happened when I was rushing to attend Eileen’s and Mono’s wedding last evening.

I was driving and then right next to my lane was an escorted sedan, nothing fanciful, but it looks like the chartered transport from a hotel, but got traffic police escorting, so must be some big f… fry or something.

Then as we stopped at the junction, the driver of the car turned to look at me, and shot me dirty looks. Then he turned around to the 2 guys sitting at the back, one Caucasian and a black man with dreadlocks, and then started making some kind of jokes (I suspect is sexist one), and then pointed at me and laughed. I saw the guy trying to get a glimpse of me, as I stared back, giving the most hurt-ed “why you all look at me like that?!” look.

EH NEVER SEE FEMALE DRIVER BEFORE IS IT?!

Then I shot them a look before driving away.

I have been really, really tired the past week, the screw up I screwed up was sorted and I closed my first deal, and hope my screwed up case will show some light at the end of the tunnel and be my 2nd.

Doesn’t matter, cos I do somewhat enjoy what I am doing, though I am just slightly apprehensive of where it will eventually lead me.

While juggling all of the above, there is a very sick Minibean in the picture, when one of the nights I was rushing my proposals, I felt a warm body snuggling up to me to tell me how cold she is.

She was really hot. Not figuratively here, I’m talking about my daughter.

So every work night became one I had to stay up, measure her temperature every hour, fed med every 3, because it refused to go down.

Till today, despite a trip to KK, and an X-ray showed one of her lungs is bigger than the other, it was diagnosed as bronchitis, common in adults but it worries me sick when it is her in the picture. It warranted 5 days of MC and a follow up check up in 6 weeks’ time.

I mean, her temperature still hovers around 38 despite 3 hours of Nurofen followed by 3 hours of Paracetemol.

I ended up have to put a gel patch on my forehead one night cos she was so warm and she insisted she didn’t want to put it cos her friends “will laugh at her”. Funny cos no way she was going to school, and it was only us.

So I told her how cool it is, and then as if to prove a point, she had me put one to look cool like her.

When at work, it was every hour of phone call to see if she had taken her meds, eaten her meals, drank her fluids, checked her temperature, or gotten out of bed to pee.. and honestly, there was hardly a peace of mind with so much things going on.

Putting on jacket in the middle of the night cos too cold, then had to remove it cos she felt too hot.

It doesn’t matter what age she is, I get the rush of tears when I had to see her crying and struggling to take med/put cold patch/sponging when I held her down and forced her to do so. But someone had to do it for the best of her… but still, it is just heartbreaking to see her suffer and her begging us not to do so.

But she was an angel when I went to work and I made her hook her lil finger with me that she would wake up to drink her med like a “clever girl” would, or that she would not cry in the middle night when I wake her.

She kept to her promise. That brings great comfort to me.

Our plans to the zoo tomorrow have to be scrapped cos even with the strongest antibiotics, her temperature is still 38.

Some nights I had 2 hours of sleep, some nights if I were lucky, 4. Then it was back to office, some days had to rush back to cook, then do proposals and then this and that this and that.. I think I need a break from my reality.

There’s Gears of War 3. I am thankful the weekend is here.

I think the fatigue caught up with me with a brilliant Friday night (sorry darling, it’s my good friend’s wedding, I had to be there!), and I fell asleep halfway over CSI.

Yes, I am just glad the new season of shows are sprouting up everywhere! Awesome!

And guess what. I slept. And slept. And slept. And slept.

Maybe I was just fell unconscious for a really long time.

Now, dammit, I cannot sleep.

And finally have time for my updates to Olay Project 360! Episode 3 is up, and it is about.. hydration!

Watch it here if you haven’t and this challenge was damn funny!

We had Dr Leslie Tay, whom I had went to for my cervical cancer jab, as a guest on the show telling us about the importance of diet for our skin, and we had to concoct our own smoothie. I want to say I am quite ignorant cos I didn’t know the peaches were canned.

So anyway, thankfully they didn’t show how I stuffed the fruits into my mouth to mix the flavours to decide how much portion to add, cos it was super unglam can?!

And this is also the episode that scare me into drinking water religiously.

In fact, Minibean was in KK right, the doctor said she was dehydrated and her skin very dry. See how important water is?! And moisturiser too!

And when one doctor asked another doctor who was monitoring her, apparently the doctor laughed and was amused how active she was despite her temperature.

I always find Minibean getting more active than usual whenever she has fever… but I’d rather that than delirium.

Okay okay, why am I straying from the topic?! Go and watch episode 3! It can be found on the direct youtube link here: http://youtu.be/x7HB-nldlME

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Olay Project 360 Episode 2 is up!

September 19th, 2011 by admin

*WAILS*

My Monday was introduced with some bad news and I am now keeping my fingers crossed and constantly bugging the One Up There with my prayers so He will be annoyed enough by me and give in to my beggings…

… But what’s undone can’t be done (in the context of today hurhur), so okay I am over it and now I am just thrilled because……

…. I AM GOING TO SHANGHAI IN 3 WEEKS’ TIME!

I have never been to China, so it’s all exciting and new for me. And it’s Shanghai! Super atas city… maybe I can sneak out and go cheong so I will bump into celebrities at MUSE or something. But since I’m there for work, I will be a good girl, ahem.

I can’t wait to get away from the hot and humid weather.

London, how I miss you so now… *sniffs*

In other news, Gears of War 3 is launching right at this moment as we speak, and I am uber excited can? I was there for the GOW2′s launch and it was the game that really overcame my handicap when it comes to the Xbox, so I do feel something special towards it, and it makes me miss my ex-colleagues aplenty and I wish them success on this launch.. the queue at Funan pretty much sums up their efforts and the success they are getting.

Wanted to pop by there but had to head down to Olay at Science Park to do a skin test to see the results of the transformation of my skin over these 6 weeks’ of usage, and I can’t wait to find out how my skin has improved or any changes over these 6 weeks.

Speaking of which, the episode 2 is out! It is the episode where we all were scared stiff because we had to remove our make up and then do our make up under the sun with Rachel Kum’s make up line… and it was an important lesson we had about combating pigmentation with skincare and makeup.

You know ah.. auntie me last time used to go diving and suntan without sunblock and now I am gonna regret for the rest of my life after hearing what the expert got to say about sun damage. BOOHOO. So go see the video and learn from the experts how to care for your skin and see all of us without makeup and scare yourself hahaha!

Sorry my video embedding is still not working, so you have to go here and watch!

http://www.nuffnang.com.sg/olay-transformation/

Sorry excuse me, while I need to go put on some whitening skin care… aging is so scary. I wonder when is the next time I will be carded again. By the way, the last time was few months ago, so NOT SO BAD RIGHT? Maybe now I use Regenerist products I can have the hope to be picked up by 18 years old?

*Delusional*

Anyway. By the time I finished with the skin check, AYE was like a warzone and it wouldn’t make much sense for me to squeeze through the jam to head back to town. Every time I had to take on the peak hour traffic on AYE, it drains me like as if I went on the battleground or something. BAH.

So I am obviously not at the Gears of War 3 launch today, bummer.

So I am now obviously home and trying to write some nonsense, do some work, and maybe edit some pictures, and probably pray harder for my clients’ answer tomorrow.

Oh well, my week can only get better from here, right?

Totally, random.

Minibean was bought a built-a-bear for $182 freaking buckeroos. She has decided to name it “Scarlettie“. And then she has a birthday bear wearing a tee-shirt that says “Happy birthday Charissa”, and she has named it… “Scarlett Ting“.

I am slightly weirded out.

I… have.. no… words.

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Transform me into a lady, can?

September 15th, 2011 by admin

Just before I left for my London-Amsterdam-Germany-Prague-Paris trip (for those who had asked me where exactly did I go hiao and end up camwhoring until like that), I was invited to be part of this little project (which I had hinted about here and there), and honestly, I was slightly apprehensive to commit to it.

And with everything falling into place and the project has finally taken its form, I can finally lift the suspense and show you Part I of the project! *Super excited*

The Olay Project 360! A campaign initiative by Olay to involve an ikan bili blogger like me with the hilarious Daphne (who happens to be Jean’s sister-in-law), who puts the witty in Mother Inc, the 1.79m jar of poise – Valerie, yes, THE Miss Singapore Universe 2011, and I-am-so-sorry-I-used-to-think-you-are-someone-like-”those”-but-I-want-to-say-you-have-one-of-the-most-beautiful-hearts-ever Qiuting.. uh something unbalanced about the equation here..? *twiddles thumbs nervously*

It was the first of such kind of project for me, so I was naturally scared and traumatised lah.

I mean, yes, all of us have some kind of attention seeking genes in us, and it will be hypocritical to say that a camwhore like me doesn’t crave some form of attention. But then, to be in a video?!?! I am freaking video-cam shy can?! It will like magnify my natural awkwardness x one zero zero zero to the world.

In fact this was the one thing that made me cringe so badly as I mentioned previously.

So much so that…. I probably will ostrich myself somewhere after this video is aired. I AM SO AWKWARD THAT I MAKE MYSELF AWKWARDER AFTER WATCHING IT.

Okay. Nevermind. Despite all those discomfort and a severe bout of stage fright during self-introduction that there were one too many retakes, cleverly masked by brilliant editing (whoever edited it was definitely kind, bless his heart).

And er, I was very worried about bitchiness setting in when you have 11 girls (4 bloggers, 4 contestants, Huiwen and Melissa overseeing the project, and regendaly Wendy Cheng as host!), but my fear was pretty unfounded lah, obviously, because everyone of them turned out to be so nice (and there’s lovely Amanda, Mint Leong, Candy, and Joanna!) and hilarious, dispensing beauty tips and gossips to tide the long wait in between filming.

The project 360 aims to transform us from head to toe, skin deep to internally deep deep, and we have to put what we learn every week to good use, and then applying our new knowledge almost immediately as we are given challenges to overcome every week.

You can watch the pilot episode here, where we were taught General Skincare, and they scared me shitless with lotsa facts I regret knowing too late, and then tame my frail heart by telling me I still got hope.

Somehow my video embedding decides to give me problem, so in the meantime, hop over to : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OhnCqiKMQl0&feature=youtu.be to watch the video!

That’s how I was put to the test with Olay Regenerist, which is scientifically proven can help me delay the signs of aging.

But since I lag by so many years, maybe it means I can’t look 16 now that I am 30, I can HOPE that when I 50 I can look 36. Mai hiam buey pai.

WAH LAU IN HD SOMEMORE, now you see why I am so in need of a transformation. Especially after Janise recently met me for lunch and commented I really did let myself go after seeing how I have faltered into the role of a frumpy mum.

So yes, I was not anyhow-ly invited, but I guess takes a lot of courage for one to fit the bill, and admit myself to be a *cough* mature *ahem* blogger.I never kup telephone when they say they looking for mature blogger, in my bid to age gracefully.

And then with my age plastered for everyone to see, it also takes away the privilege that should I ever wanna hide my age and try to bluff everyone and try to act 20 when I turn 40. Let me try to find a recent picture of me giving doe eyes and gives innocent pout, throwing in a kawaii peace sign, I am sure I can find one somewhere.

But really, it was a lot of good fun and I think part of the transformation for me, is forcing myself out of my comfort zone, and seeing things from a new perspective and as cliche as it sounds, knowing people on a deeper level regardless how the mass might see them.

And I realise I do consciously take better care of my skin cos the way they scare us worked magic on me, though the trip made me complacent again, but watching the video jolted the fear in me again so I am now faithfully applying my Olay Regenerist serum and night cream as I type (I am so obedient that since the day they passed me the sample, I have not used any other products, even when I was in Europe. Cos we have a skin test to see results and I want to see if it really works! Skin test next week!).

Another of my transformation is me taking more chances with some parts of my life.. and experimenting.. not something that can be seen from the videos, but something I actually noticed after the series end. Will reveal more as the web series progress!

I was teamed together with Valerie, Candy and Mint, and our team name was.. “Toink Toink” but in fact we thought it was “Do-ing do-ing” all along.

Thankfully they edited a lot of the unglam charade scenes, with one involving me sitting on the floor and attempting to do a mermaid… to “sound like” melanin (HOW DO YOU EVEN TRY TO FREAKING MIME MELANIN?!).

It took me more than an hour to finish watching the 8 minute webisode, because I cringed so badly seeing myself on video that I paused and try not to think about it and then continued watching it. Sompah.

So er, go see how I make a fool of myself, learn some valuable skincare tips from experts, and see the awesome girls in action and then find out if Olay really worked for us at the end of the web series!

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Got too many

September 14th, 2011 by admin

I haven’t had any rest since I got back till now.

Got back home, unpacked, did chores and laundry, fetched Minibean, headed back to airport to fetch SBB, open pressies with Minibean.. rushed back home to rest.

Woke up the next day and went back to airport to fetch my parents, spent the day with Minibean, V Lynn’s surprise Hen’s Party at Ku De Ta and bumped into an old friend!

I didn’t go Casino at all! Not when I was overseas, nor when I was at MBS, such a good girl I am, deserve a good pat on shoulder you know?!

Spent Sunday doing handicraft and reading stories to Minibean, her last day of holiday ya know? Though she tried to smoke us that her holidays is “September, October, November and December.“

Nice try, darling.

She should be very happy. Her paternal grans went to UK and returned 3 weeks ago. Then we returned. Then my parents returned from China. I think her pressies can buy me a trip to London again, or maybe further.

Before I knew it, Minibean’s school reopens. I am back at work. And then back at pole studio tonight.

*DEEP BREATH OUT*

GOT MORE TIRING OR NOT?!

Sustaining on adrenalin.. so actually quite shiok, like everything breezes by and can be done like that *snaps fingers*. Which explains the way I type sounds like I am thinking and speaking very fast, which by the way, yes I am at the moment, so you probably have to fast forward your reading speed to get a feel of what I am feeling now.

I didn’t have the time to even resize the pictures, because I thought I didn’t take much, but my computer disagree with me. My hard disk also disagrees with me. I think got 10GB, but I blame it on the fact that I used my DSLR predominantly, so it’s not like I took like 10, 000 x 1MB pictures or something.

Cos I counted, it was maybe only 2, 000 or something.

Saw something that made me cringe badly, so I ain’t gonna share. Shall you see it, you shall see it.

*Burrows somewhere and hide* And yes, my Scarlett got 2 Ts. Heh.

Managed to upload a fraction of the pictures of the trip on Facebook, and for the rest.. I xin you yu er li bu zu (translates: got the heart but not the energy!).

So I doubt they would make their ways here anytime soon.

Don’t say already, last year’s London trip also haven’t posted. Nor Perth trip. So must wait very long.

So a couple of glimpses of what I was up to.

Shopping at Bicester on Day 4 of trip. Damage was considerably lesser than ever, but still, I was adamant about not spending, but I did succumb. Damn you Prada, why did you have to open a store there now?!

Natural History Museum.. I cannot believe this is my first trip there. I am like the dinosaur. But it is the cast of my favourite dino behind me.

Natural History Museum. Made me all excited. Day 2.

Day 5 of trip.. we ended up in Amsterdam!

A friend asked, “So you go Amsterdam ah? You got go Holland or not?” Why am I still friend to him ah?!

Looks super emo I know, sitting by the window of the hotel room in Amsterdam after a day out in the pouring rain. I enjoyed the peace and simplicity of this trip, which explains why I didn’t venture out too often during night time, often opting for a quiet night in of reading, and just finding out more about the cities I was in.

Hopefully I get to write more. I think it is always hard to catch up with a trip on this space, cos too much thoughts, too much reflections.

And of course, too many pictures.

Camwhore! What to do!

Oh, did I mention I nearly got pickpocketed when I was traveling? And the first thing I wanted to do? Hold my camera up to take a picture of the perp. Tsk.

Says plenty, doesn’t it?

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Snippets of London

August 25th, 2011 by admin

Day 1 had an unexpected surprise for me.

I have flown to London countless times, but what greeted me was a sky of pretty blue, and the sun (OH MY, SUN!) was out to greet, and I don’t remember ever touching down at the airport seeing such a magnificent sight.

And, the temperature dipped a little, so it was chilled to a temperature I would have preferred (anything above 20 will warrant a sneer from me).

But the sun makes London looked so vibrant, and pretty, like a side of personality I didn’t quite see.

A clear view of River Thames 15 minutes before touching down…

Fabulous skies welcomed me. Almost can’t believe this is London… made me skip my way down the plane, and all the way out of the airport. beams*

As I walked out for dinner in the evening, the sky was a hue of bright pink, the colour was much more intense than I could capture. It’s a beautiful start when I landed yesterday.. and hopefully will keep up like this for the days to come!

I am still in my frumpy PJs and wondering where to go next.. loving the feeling of doing totally random things and see where they take me.

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When curiosity supersedes fear

August 25th, 2011 by admin

Day 1 had an unexpected surprise for me.

I have flown to London countless times, but what greeted me was a sky of pretty blue, and the sun (OH MY, SUN!) was out to greet, and I don’t remember ever touching down at the airport seeing such a magnificent sight.

And, the temperature dipped a little, so it was chilled to a temperature I would have preferred (anything above 20 will warrant a sneer from me).

But the sun makes London looked so vibrant, and pretty, like a side of personality I didn’t quite see.

A clear view of River Thames 15 minutes before touching down…

Fabulous skies welcomed me. Almost can’t believe this is London… made me skip my way down the plane, and all the way out of the airport. beams*

As I walked out for dinner in the evening, the sky was a hue of bright pink, the colour was much more intense than I could capture. It’s a beautiful start when I landed yesterday.. and hopefully will keep up like this for the days to come!

I am still in my frumpy PJs and wondering where to go next.. loving the feeling of doing totally random things and see where they take me.

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How vast is out there?

August 23rd, 2011 by admin

A question I have no answer to..

Been busy with new work and all, and it has exposed me to a world I never knew in-depth of. Keeping my fingers crossed that this will bring upon good things to come.

Been extremely busy, and many things have slipped my mind, thus a need to catch up with everything before I am embarking on a break.

SUPER EXCITED ABOUT THIS BREAK, I TELL YOU!

It seems like an almost impossible feat, but somehow with the “commitments” of all the bookings, I pray my darnest that everything will go on smoothly (and safely for that matter), cos even if I am tired and wanna back out also cannot, laughs.

I HAVE NOT EVEN STARTED PACKING!

Because I cannot think of what I wanna pack.

Come to think of it… it is quite a short holiday compared to a lot of the long breaks people around me take, but I didn’t realise that it will be the longest trip I ever took, even though it is a mere 2 weeks’ time.

Revisiting my comfort zone, meet up with people who mean much to me, exploring new territories and new horizons in a way I never imagined.. and this is what spontaneity can bring you.

Everything planned is impromptu, in fact I am still not confirmed with some of the bookings, so let’s see where that will lead me.

Tsk tsk.

At this moment, I seem to be doing more planning for others, than for myself.

Not exactly conventional, but the elements I had hoped to pack in are nothing short of mind-blowing.

Or at least if the pictures are real portrayal of what I think they are…. if not I will come back grumpy and a perpetual grouch.

Now I am also fretting of what am I gonna wear. Tsk. But I am on a tight budget, so shopping overseas is out of the equation, though I am known to always come up with formulas to keep myself in denial.

Also have to express ample gratitude to someone who helped me plan my wardrobe, so I get to try different stuff this time round!

I will miss Minibean lots lots lots.. don’t start guilt-fill me how I am not bringing her… I hope to take super lots of pictures this time round, so I hope I get enough rest so I don’t look super chui.

I don’t know about you.. I always get excited doing the planning and trying to think up of something different for my trips, but then when the date draws near, I always get a little lazy and apprehensive, like it is almost a dread to get out of my comfort zone.

It does sound ironic for someone with a severe case of wanderlust.

MUST. psyche. myself. up.

Decadence. Comfort. Fairytale. Thrills and frills, hereeeee I commmeeeeeeee!

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