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CHAP SAR YIO!

March 9th, 2008 by admin

Remember what I was saying, about how a lot of things are not fated?

The strangest thing happened when I was playing mahjong at Viwawa.

The person sat next to me is nicknamed ‘Letfatebe’.

Tsk tsk. And I was going to blog about how my birthday “chap sar yio” and I are really not fated. But that’s another story for another day.

Anyway.. OH OH OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My first chap sar yio! Sadly, not in real life lah. Don’t ask me why it is 15 not 16 doubles.

Thrown by ‘letfatebe’.

Must be a sign, I tell you.

I was waiting for bai ban when it all happened. I was so excited when I was waiting for my winning tile that I told FF that I was short of 2(9 wan and bai ban), and then 1. And finally ‘letfatebe’ threw the bai ban.

2 of the players promptly left the table without saying anything.

My voice was too hoarse for me to yell in absolute glee, woooohoooo!

My hands were so wet and sweaty that I scared I couldn’t click to win.

Yay!

Gee. If only they could be eaten.

At least the weekend ain’t too bad now.

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Mahjong, oh mahjong

February 20th, 2008 by admin

I categorised this under Mahjong Inspirational for a very good reason.

I hit out my 3rd Chap Sar Yio(wah piang, darn shooter man) to JD last night, and lost badly(I conveniently forgot my theory of whoever buys dinner will end up losing badly).

I hit out many other 5 tais and 4 tais, and I am very surprised that the damage was only 60 bucks – one chap sar yio’s cost.

I had too much on my mind to sleep. Stress. Which made me wake up with another slight fever and a sorer throat. And to top it off, a persistent cough. Bleah. I was staring at the screen and was seeing double vision that I could hardly concentrate.

And I finished my antibiotics last night so it seemed like I had to make another trip to the doc’s.

Not cheap. And not nice. Mum bans me from getting close to Minibean(yes, sigh, she is still very much around).

Tell me it is not a coincidence that today was the 2nd time she cooked for me, and on both occasions I had the runs. Kidding.

Anyway.

Woke up at 9 yesterday and headed out for the entire day in the blazing sun.

Was in town, at a casting, at a meeting, and in cloud 9 as I squealed in the middle of Orchard Road.

Lunch time. Tea time. Dinner time. I am a very fair person. Minibean joined us for mahjong therapy. :)

I am pretty delirious with happiness.

Reason being so is…..

I met some very nice people. What can I say? I am blardy thankful to them. As in really blardy so.

And a boo boo made by me yesterday means that I had a pleasant surprise today.

And a boo boo made by me some time ago means that I had a pleasant surprise yesterday.

The boo boo about naming mahjong as my favourite hobby?

Mahjong does bring me luck :)   (Okay, Poker shares the credits too)

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Simplicity

January 17th, 2008 by admin

It wasn’t once, but thrice, different someones had commented that I am complex in recent days. Too complex, in fact.

I really am simple.

I set myself on auto-pilot mode, and walk as far the distance my legs would bring me. I may be too much of a klutz to look out for the wall right before me,  or the waiting open-drain which I have no doubt plant a leg into.

It happens once too many, you have no idea.

I think I am just lucky I haven’t unwittingly ventured into a minefield. I think I did, but somehow, like what was always said over mahjong table(thank you Uncle Keith for being inspiring once in a blue moon!), “Fortune favours the brave”, and I healed from the scars.

Or maybe, God just has a high tolerance for stupidity.

I didn’t die.

But walking into walls, and well camouflaged glass doors can be tiring, exhausting, and not forgetting the long-term concussion that follows.

I do believe I am having a concussion right now.

And the stupidity that leads me to make choices out of the social norms, is hardly deserving of being termed ‘complex’.

***

I watched the sky changing its hues yesterday morning. Dark. To. Bright. Somewhat, like what Charissa’s Chinese name means.

No sunrise for me since I am staying at the wrong part of the island.

Nonetheless, I was back to a place that holds much of my innocence,  and a reminder of who I once was.

I sat there and watched the glistering waters, seeing the fishes jump, and turtles swim… it brought a sense of serenity I have longed for all these while.

***

By the time I grabbed some sleep, it was already 10 in the morning.

Woke up in the late afternoon, and met up with Uncle Keith and FF for dinner at Marmalade Pantry @ Holland V, before we made our way to FF’s for a threesome.

Almost 8 hours, Uncle Keith’s chips were cleanly wiped out.

And a darn cockroach fucking violated my feet, which made me hyperventilate pretty badly, and I was surprised the high-pitch screams didn’t do much damages.

I remember an ex-boyfriend once commented I have this impossible “gift” of attracting cockroaches. Pests are attracted to me :(

Okay. Heading out.

Bye.

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Comeback queen!

January 13th, 2008 by admin

Was looking forward to stay-in on a rainy late afternoon, which didn’t quite take place after an invitation to go “pitter-pattering”.

But once we were out there on the road, the pitter-pattering stopped. Sigh.

I love the storm out there. And I was glad I could spend an hour of quality time in bed with my smelly pillow with all the fuss going on out there.

It was a cosy lunch at a Thai restaurant 6th Avenue, where my “auntie potential” was at its peak when I saw 2 mothers with their babies.  So cute I tell you.

We sat outside, which was a brilliant move cos I just like how it is after it rains.

We went over to his place to chill for a while before he sent me over to FF’s to play mahjong with JT and PKB.

***

Apparently a friend of mine found my blog(“Your blog is so fucking boring!”) because… someone in Zouk told him that I am a blogger.

Giggle. So nervous.

And who is the one who didn’t say hello? Hello there :)

***

Mahjong ended early.

I was down $150 bucks but managed to win eventually.

PKB sent both JT and I home.

I was already blardy tired lah.

But I didn’t quite manage to sleep early with all the drama.

***

SDB drunk-dialled me last night.

I think it is the first time ever anyone drunk-dialled me and I have decided I do like it when people get drunk.

(He just called like minutes ago and I think he simply doesn’t remember any of it. Like, how he fell asleep while talking to me halfway. AGAIN. Men, aren’t they so charmingly adorable that you just can’t resist wanting to snip their heads off?)

They are so awfully honest that it is amusing.

If only they remember.

And if only, they listen.

***

The danger about having a blog is, people only read what they want themselves to read.

And then, sometimes, people might use it against you by taking things out of context.

I no like that feeling ah.

***

I am teaching PKB how to MSN AND Facebook now. HAHAHAHAHA!

“How do I go facebook?”"Do I have to close the windows(MSN windows) to get to facebook?”"How do I do it? I open another window is it?”"What’s my email?”"What’s my password?”"Erm, so what do I do now?”

I am becoming totally random, since I don’t really feel like blogging anyway.

***

It is the weekend and I haven’t been sleeping really well.

4 hours. 6 hours.

Could have been so much better.

***

“Did you give me a virus? Everything not loading!”

“Your connection drop la!”

“Orh, so what do I do with it?”

*Smacks head*

***

So my Friday was packed. With meeting up with a friend in the earlier part of the day(let me think of a new name soon), before rushing to Sentosa for my interview.

Oh.

When I was contemplating on braving the long walk from the office to Harbourfront(in heels, no less), someone stopped his BMW to give me a lift out of the island(he even said okay when I joked I was heading to East Coast).

So nice, right? Singaporeans are so sweet.

And here’s a confession, this is not the first time I have hitched a ride with a stranger in Singapore.

But it was way back when I was 19 when I last did.

I met up with David and we did a little walking around before he had to go to synagogue, and he gave me a lift to town.

Okay. I had conveniently forgotten it was Friday night, peak hours, and we were trapped in the traffic for the longest time along Shenton Way.

(I was so bored that I went to M.A.C., and the very nice Zayne gave me a new look. Whee!)

Trapped in traffic.


I think the driver behind us was very annoyed by the flashes.

***

I met up with Playworks gang on Friday! It was Marcus’ birthday yet he was the only person I didn’t see around over dinner.

I hope that works.

My favourite darling! Elaine!

Maybelle and Elaine are the two sweetest girls, ever, I tell you.

Over dinner, which I probably scared them with my ‘stories’. Ahem.

Hongxiang whom I haven’t seen for the longest time.

It is amazing how this group still makes time for each other when all of us had ventured on to different places, different phases of life.

Met up with Uncle Keith thereafter for movies and drinks.


And I was back at Vivocity.

The waiter mocked me when I refused a beer at the German bar. It was hilarious.

We watched One Missed Call, which I probably just ended up scaring people around me.

We ended up at Mr Bean chit-chatting, before we spontaneously decided to sing karaoke.

Somebody lost a bet to me, and now now, I have a chance to hone my skills at a higher mahjong league. Cough.

***

Oh.

Pictures from the night I was drunk.

Ashahi! Emptied! I am my own hero, I tell you!


Braving the attempt.

And I think I blend in with the beams behind me pretty well.

Boring Sunday.

Don’t feel like doing anything.

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Be warned

January 2nd, 2008 by admin

There will be tirade of posts coming from me today.

And I mean… really, a lot(if I can squeeze in with more time on hands).

First up, will be loads of pictures I have yet to put up for the longest time. And I mean, a lot. More than Charissa’s first year birthday.

And then, there will be the usual emotional stuff. You have fucking no idea.

And then, there will be about the boys. The sweet boys.  And of course, the bitter bits.

I have been out.. busy dating. Giggles.

And then, out, busy partying.

And then, out, crying.

I then realise, I don’t need cuddles….

… cos shoulders to cry on brought so much more comfort. Or, just a hand to wipe the mascara-stained tears away while telling you everything will be okay.

I am feeling warm and fuzzy.

Very warm and fuzzy.  x 1. x 2. x3.

And then sometimes, I wish the timing could be so much better.

If only.

I left home because I really needed to be out of this rut this evening(or rather, yesterday evening). I woke up late, and the boozy night on New Year’s Eve suddenly became vividly clear to me. It was an immensely miserable feeling, and I just wanted to get out of it.

I took up Uncle Keith’s offer of heading to his auntie’s place for dinner with his Cousin Charlene, though it wasn’t something exactly I would want to do due to my lack of PR skills, but I still went anyway cos I simply needed to get away from some stuff.

I start to wonder how it is to like to have a closely-knitted family.

The 3 of us went to Siglap to meet a friend of Charlene for drinks, and then I got sabotaged to drink a Screwdriver. After 2 sips, I did the unthinkable with Uncle Keith.

-cues dramatic gasps-

I challenged him to a game a pool(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). Throwing in a bimbotic question too. “Are people who are good in snooker good in pool too?”

My questioned garnered rolled eyes, and I got not answer.

I must be crazy. He netted one ball for me, and that was all I netted for the night. Fastest. game. of. pool. I. ever. played.

I sabotaged this guy to play with him before I took the cue over, and the guy walked away while muttering “wah lau eh…” to his friends.

I walked away with exact sentiments as well.

I was going to meet another friend, buttttttttt… FF is on MC today, so we decided to meet for a game of mahjong.

I just finished playing mahjong at 7am in the morning(we started late at 11ish). I put FF(with insistence that she couldn’t go home and sleep) and Keith(with my dagger stares that he cannot game!) through so much agony, though I repaid their sacrifice by losing all my chips to them(and further borrowing more chips when I lost them all).

I have amazing friends.

And I know they were around simply because they knew, I didn’t really want to be alone. Not with so much things up on my mind.

And then, “Daisy” called.

And then, Dad came back.

And then, another call to settle some stuff.

And then, here I am, on the phone again.

I feel like… a comfort woman lah!

I am not going to sleep, cos I am going to have breakfast, and get something done. Something I should have done a long time ago, but never did.

And I am supposed to get something else done today. But I doubt I would be left with any time to do it.

So yeah, I am not going to sleep again today.

And it is no wonder the stress, the haywire bodyclock is doing such amazing things to me right now, by leaving 3 pimples on my face.

And I don’t ever get pimples.

I have only myself to blame, eh?

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Meeting the girlies

December 30th, 2007 by admin

I mishhhh potato so much! She now really looks like potato cos she is covered in pox marks.

I skipped a party(and the chance to meet cuties) to join her and the girlies for dinner, before we ended up at JD’s place for mahjong therapy.

My phone didn’t survive half the night before the battery went died on me.

Luckily beloved JD has Motorola charger.

I am so not going to survive tomorrow judging from the time now, since I probably have to wake up in less than 4 hours time.

Oh.

I feel warm and fuzzy again today.

Which… is not exactly a good thing, you know?

Sometimes, I wonder if I really do enjoy dating. It is such a double-edge sword at times.

Sometimes, maybe all I want, is just a solid friendship, where people bother to find out who I am, which I sorely miss, this year.

This year, has been amazing.

I look back and am glad I found my closure as it draws to a close.

It is nice to be gigglish again, but then again, I am not sure if I am exactly glad where all these are heading.

And then the number 1 sign I ain’t ready for dating – I gave the wrong number again!!!!

And it happened after the last time when I gave someone I had a crush on, the wrong number when he was in Singapore for just a day. Thank God for MSN, or else I would have missed meeting up with him(the previous crush).

And… I DID IT AGAIN?! I was delirious(still semi-sleeping) when I saw the message and I called back, and made an utter embarrassment of myself when I just slurred through the conversation.

I. So. Shouldn’t. Have. Done. That.

His friend called me up to tell me what a booboo I made. But.. it’s just so typical me lah.

Oh. I will be at Punggol tomorrow selling lubricants.

I know what you are thinking but it really isn’t what you are thinking.

Think cars, engines and there you have it.

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Once again… Merry Christmas!

December 25th, 2007 by admin

I have no idea how many Christmases this blog has seen me through, but I am just glad to realise how great this year’s is.

It was just a simple affair of mahjong with the 2 girlies, but somehow, it was good for me.

It is amazing it was one of the earliest night I had reached home in quite a while(with the exceptional of last night when it was over at my place), and yet I am incredibly energetic. I would have made my way to Zouk if not I had felt too insecure in my glasses, slippers, and totally naked face.

I want to wish you a joyous and blessed Christmas. No matter who you are. Especially if I am not there to say it to you personally for one reason or another, this year.

I ventured into the seams of the warzone today, for a last minute shopping spree. I ended buying something for myself, to give myself a pat on the back for surviving this year, in particular.

I felt good buying things for people I adore. And DFS galleria is absolutely evil. Like, seriously.

I didn’t buy much this year, but those were all I needed to buy.

I didn’t get much this year, but those were all I need.

Thank you.  For the speakers. They make me happy. And they are happily blasting away at such early hours. I know this sounds incredibly stupid, but can I put my woofer on my CPU? I mean, you know.. the vibrations…?

Okay. That was so asking for the bimbo police.

Thank you.  For the bag. As much as I know it was your intolerance to my ‘mothering’ bag that prompted the choice. I like it, and thanks for the thought. :)

Thank you. For always been so sweet and thoughtful around us, and that scarlet thingy that matched the colour I adore. The one, that embodies passion. I wish you well.

Thank you. For the personalised “Ting”. I love it. I will make a mental note not to scratch such a lovely piece.

Thank you. “Heavy Petting Allowed” tee, which suits the inner slut in me so aptly. Laughs. :) And thank you, for all the efforts you made just to get me out of my shell.

Thank you.

Thank you, whoever you are, whose present I chose out of the pile under the Christmas tree.

Thank you, God. For always looking after me. For the times I wandered off and stubbornly relied on myself when it is You I should seek.

Thank you girls, for being there, to be the firsts for me to say Merry Christmas to.

And you, Potato. Your present is with me. I had wanted to call if you were home so I could drop it off. But I hope you have a great chickeny poxy Merry Christmas. We missed you badly.

I was deep into my isolation last night, and as I walked down the dazzling Orchard earlier tonight, I felt the sudden dread of being in a sea of people.

I don’t ask for much, really.

And such a quiet day, is closer to the hearts, than so much others I had.

Merry Christmas everyone.

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The eve of Christmas day…

December 24th, 2007 by admin

Last year, I couldn’t wait to head out with Minibean after all those days of being confined to my room. Confinement, is, really, confinement.

This year, I almost didn’t realise it is already Christmas Eve.

And I can’t wait to stay home to watch movies/CSIs, and just chill the night away. Without people.

Isn’t it amazing how fast I am sinking back into my recluse world? After only 3 straight days of constant partyin’.

Maybe I just need recharging. Maybe I have chosen the wrong day not to put my heart and soul, and plenty of energy into my thoughts.

No, not that I am feeling down. I feel kinda peaceful and great actually, but I manage to block out so much, and enough to just feel comfortable in my own company without thinking so much.

***

I played mahjong last night. It was only me and FF when it all started.

We started early with some really nice chaps(Ti-En, Melvin and Keith were great company) coming over, bringing lotsa yummy food for us for dinner.

I think we pretty much scare them off, when our mahjong language came out, and our very flowery expressions made some serious impressions.

JD joined us at 10 plus, and it was 3 legged mahjong again. We have another new 4th player to wrap up the night, and it was one of the earliest end to a session of mahjong in a long, long while.

I had some time to myself and I did some cleaning up before just… keeping my computer company. I bet it felt so neglected.

I am pretty much running out of things to say.

Since this post is sorely lack of zest, I shall end it with a very monotonous… Have a great Christmas eve everyone, and bask in the delight of having your loved ones around you.

I love Christmas, I really do.

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Aches that never go away

December 20th, 2007 by admin

I was told, I am all messed up and that I am lost.

I am hardly surprised.  Cos don’t I already know that myself?

And most of the time, I just feel barely good about myself. But I do whatever I need to do to get by.

***

It is 9am and my head hurts like a bitch.

I just got back before it started pouring, and honestly, it is a struggle between absolute delirium and subtle consciousness.

We spent last night playing mahjong and I think we have lost our mojo. It was getting tiring towards the end.

The conclusion to the night, was a bittersweet one.

It is just weird that it turned out to be the exact opposite of what I thought I would do, and what I thought I had convinced myself to do.

Enough, but not enough.

Maybe on my part, I am simply not good enough.

I slept for barely 4 hours after mahjong on Tuesday, and I am still up at 9am, which means, it is really no good.

My backache is killing me, and my migraine suddenly snuck up at me in the midst of mahjong.

Now I can feel it throbbing again after the aspirin worn off.

I wish I have more time to be ready. I wish the world isn’t this small. I wish.

You guys may not believe me but something in my life changed in the past week or so.

There are particular incidents, people, and things that had sifted in and out of my life to shed some light. For that, I thank them.

But it is really hard to be typing an entry when I almost forgot how to spell “hard” and my fingers, brain and eyes don’t seem to be coordinating all that well.

Will blog again, when I am… like…. sober up?

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I have added a new category

December 19th, 2007 by admin

Which I think would find itself a pretty decent footing in this little space.

We are very pride-ful people, and we were trying to see who the pridest of all.

I was bored. It was late. The girls were busy.

Yet. When someone who loves to hole up at home feels an incredible urge to head out, she has to do what she has to do.

Surprisingly, when I asked for coffee everyone wasn’t that busy. And when I suggested ‘coffee’ over at JD’s, Miss FF very eagerly offered to bring coffee over.

But we didn’t need caffeine to dissipate those fatigue. Our stamina very good. So far, we have not yet met any man who could match up to us. Ahem.

JD bought FF coffee instead.

And…. we got down to business pretty swiftly since it wasn’t exactly early.

When it first ended around 1ish, we were making each other to be the least pridest. And after lotsa of provocation, blame-shifting(it was funnier than it was aggressive), daring and stifled smirks(FF’s one especially, when she dropped the chips into the bag to show how disciplined she was), we actually fished out everything again after keeping them.

Never tempt with fate, we decided.

And we have many internal counselling and psychological analysis sessions. So if you think we look tired over the mahjong table, it is just the radio.

And they are bery ebil fwens. Bery bery ebil. They sing horrible songs and make horrible jokes.

***

I am such a scrooge, I snubbed all the ComfortDelgro cabs and took a black taxi(they operate on their own, I think) instead.

It would cost me 4 or 5 dollars more if I had succumbed to otherwise. I made the uncle laugh when I told him I had intentionally waited.

But what I didn’t tell him was, I didn’t quite want to head home either.

***

Enough, but not enough.

How far will you go, when it is enough, and enough?

I don’t know.

I think this hurdle is just mine to cross.

One day, I shall confess.

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