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Building sandcastles

I do not even have the time to tame those caterpillars above my eyes. And my armpits have resorted to pricking me serve as a reminder of how I have neglected them.

I have been informed that my previous post is misleading. The dress up is for June not for July, so it’s sooner than I had expected it to be, and now the jitters are really setting in!

Crazy week of work, Minibean (the poor mite was bugged by another bout of fever), annoying pricks (who are trying to exaggerate stories on their ends by creating drama anonymously. and drag their own friends in so those who had stayed quiet would start to back them up. Low, but yeah, funny), excessive pole sessions (my old bones are threatening to give up on me),  squeezing in a laptease class by Eunice in between (it was so much fun!), and we have our first official full-time hire (gasp!), and can you believe it, another couple of new business ventures (*fans self, cannot breathe!*) in the pipeline with friends which explains the loads of time spent on getting the skeletal structure up.

And I managed to do plenty of catch up with the amazing people in my life.

Like the vid-cam session with Jiali last night, and she’s one person who’s able to bring me such peace when I offload whatever’s on my mind.

Funniest part was when I told her almost in a whisper that I have so much to tell her and catch up with her (I used to do that with her when we went for pole sessions together!), and I wanna head to the familiar land to look for her AGAIN.

Then you know what she said? “So how’s everything with what had happened in your blog? How’s your new venture? How’s blarblarblar..?

Then I looked stunned, and said, “Eh, you already named everything I want to tell you, then I say what? And how you knooowwwww?

I had to put on clothes to webcam with her though the initial reluctance and I must say it was all worthwhile. *Beams*

Can I just whine how much I don’t like the mathematical part of running a business? All the bookkeeping and balancing make me sulk no end, it’s not that I am bad at it, but I just don’t like fussing over such especially when excel isn’t my best friend.

Then it dawns on me how it’s just the beginning especially when sandcastles are building up.

Sidenote. 4 more days for the blinging triangles to be rid for good, I am apprehensive of going onto the road without my security blanket.

I need to start taking in a deep breath and prep myself for the roller coaster week to come, despite a holiday is coming up, I am actually hoping that it isn’t a holiday.

Gee, something isn’t right with me, whatever happened to the days I had looked forward to weekdays and weekends? Nowadays I feel nothing is quite done and wish the weekdays are extended so things can be up and running.

Keeping fingers crossed, each step of the way. Approaching every detail delicately, just so the sand doesn’t fall apart in my clumsy hands and slip away between my fingers.

Counting down.. 19 days to go

I never quite do task lists, but for this week, the task list I just done up is packed to the brim, but in the digital age, it would never run out of space especially when they are waiting to be struck off on google tasks.

A quick countdown to 19 days to go!

The wanderlust in me is created yet another ruckus and I feel like going on yet another impromptu trip again, though I just returned from a short one on Thursday.

Then again, is it only me or does going to Batam isn’t really considered as a real holiday?

Now, am counting down to another 19 more days nervously, and I will no longer be the privileged of driving around with a bling bling triangle plate. I feel a sense of loss, a sense of moroseness, you know how the 2 of them had consistently looked after me like angels would, giving me ample excuses to give the doe-eyed-I-am-so-sorry-look to fellow road users when I needed them to give me way…

Much things had taken place at a lightning pace, and had hit me before I even prepped myself for it, or even realised they were happening.

So far, things are looking good, and there’s a good chance the tiny businesses I am sticking my fingers into might need some sort of expansion even though it has been just less than 2 months.

The excitement and adrenalin rush are the things that are like double-edged swords, they kept me going yet they tired me out at the end of the day. I don’t like the restlessness and how every night I bring to me to bed with an overwhelming processor running at full speed.

The funny thing is, I still do not know what I am, the stuff I am doing does not seem so solid or have anything for me to boast about, and I wish I could just tell people, hey you know what, I am an entrepreneur in the fill-in-the-blank industry… and-fill-in-impressive-technical-terms that will make everyone looking at me in reverie.

I sometimes find that calling myself a freelance business owner, because, er, I don’t work the entire month, and in my free time, I dabble with other stuff I am trying to grow (nope, Marina Bay Sands isn’t one of the options, laughs), using what I earn in the business to roll.

And then, in the month to come, I will be trying to get a job (it could end up as an business venture, if it goes REALLY well), while I am letting these 2 sides kicking into momentum on their own.

Somehow, I had wished these ideas and plans come into place earlier, like say, a year ago, because it’s like, “Why didn’t I ever think of that?!” but then again, knowing that all of the above wouldn’t have taken place because of a spark of spontaneity or precious people put into my life.

Put it this way, all of the above were what people suggested to me, identifying skills I never thought I possess, and I was pushed into it by “hey, I could do that, let’s do it NOW.” and turnaround time to get everything ready was 2 weeks for each. That’s where adrenalin and a restless mind really help to get things going.

That reminds me, I have to get the damn CV going tonight, on top of another 1001 things I have to get done tonight.

But everything is going at a pace I enjoy. Fast when I need it, and slow when I need a break. And that is exactly why I am thinking of completing the tasks and taking a freaking break before my next project commerces.

I am glad things are going better than projected or what we had expected mere couple of months back, before Chinese New Year, so no complaints so far (except when you have to deal with irresponsible, incompetent, lying staff which was a story I had meant to write but eventually ranted enough offline to get it off my chest).

This post sounds boring already.

Anyway, I had a dream last night.

Of someone who means a lot to me, and in the dream, that’s what I find myself saying to you, plucking all the courage I could from my invisible nuts.

And then we broke into laughter. And we spent a great deal of time together.

I woke up realising it wasn’t real.

***

One thing is, with all the excitement, I am rearing to go, the only setback is, sometimes I find myself delivering short when being a mum to Minibean. Maybe sometimes is because there are just so many people trying to flock to her and earn her attention, and I just wanna take a step back so whatever I do won’t get criticised.

Maybe sometimes, it is also because of being too excited to build something, I wanna channel the energy to get the immediacy delivered and would put aside her need for the attention.

She has been whining and vocalising how she is lonely and she has no one to play with her, she has an unbridled, young heart, that yearns for the skies and things out there.

Honestly she has been a kiddo who has lotsa activities going to her, but then with everyone having their own views on how to parent her (my mum has her views, even my dad has his “ice-cream” views), I feel like telling all of them to fuck off (such an ingrate, I know!), cos she’s mine. And I always have to hold my tongue trying to explain how I wanna bring up my child because, hey, c’mon, that’s what I set down 5 years ago, and who are you to change it right now?

Alrighty, now I have to get away from all the things clouding my mind, and spend some quality weekend time with the family, bringing my mum and child out for a day out, before the new week of motherhood + worldly challenges awaits.

I wish all of you well, and I wish, you, who appears in my dreams ever so often, very well.

 

A tinytinytiny milestone

With all the things happening, I didn’t even realise how fast everything seems to develop before I could think about what is really happening.

As I get older, it isn’t as easy to sponge up the reality.

Though I believe 14 February is deserved of a tiny celebratory dance on its own, because it had turned out way better than I can ever imagine.

Now I can only keep my fingers crossed that the goodness will stay… and even though I feel there is nothing much to shout about nor a concrete direction, I am just thrilled for the number of opportunities in the flood of possibilities to come…

For now, I am thankful for how I got my own office and a new pet project to see new things happening… which gives me some sort of flexibility with some cash flow.

It sounds cliche, but a part of me just hope that this means I have more free play, to make a difference…

But judging how the anxiety kept me up and I was in an absolute state of trance, I might be getting too old to find it within me to find that energy and zest within me to make that difference.

I can still try.

So I can pass on the grace I received.

Thank you everyone who made it possible.

Of Wednesdays and Windows 7

This post should have came earlier on Thursday, but since it was such an eventful Thursday that I was in too much high.

If fate is anything to be believed, then the past 3 days have shown that I am very fated with my past, thus, the past had relentlessly pursued me to trigger the nostalgia in me.

More of that later.

I need to get this and many more things out of the way!

***

The Wednesday on the 21st October was one we managed to pull through with bated breath. It was an event that the team did a majorly magnificent job, and received quite a bit of positive feedback (depends who you are, really).

We reached early that day to help with the set-up and mall deployment, and as the time drew near, we kept our fingers crossed at all times, unaware what was the response gonna be.

And of course, doing things like sorting out the queue sequence cards, and making sure everything was in order.

After briefing and all, we took our positions.

Brandon (my frequent life-saver), Jess and me!

We squealed excitedly when we saw the queue was forming around the mall early in the evening:

It certainly calmed the nerves by a huge degree.

The queue was served with coffee, and the crowd was patient, ruly, and participative.

And they were mostly nice and kind! That made the job easier :)

I received a call earlier from Eileen that Wendy and Adrian were there queueing at number 21, which means they were there at almost 5+pm.

But the cute duo had mistook the timing to be 7pm, and didn’t know it was a long way. They were tempted to leave but with the queue behind and since they had boarded the “pirate ship” they hung on ALL the way till midnight!

Way to go man :)

The patient wife could go around picking up bargain, and it was a shame they didn’t manage to get the notebook they had wanted during the auction.

Mr Poh also dropped by to give moral support, and it was nice to see him since he had moved on to start out on his own.

The press was amazing to turn up at close to midnight just to attend the media launch. All in all, we had the best help, and best support.

Not to mention the best team, and a very competent Dawn, an impressive Ian Tan, and a team-wower – Hanson Yap.

And various people who were involved to get things in order.

Mr Hanson Yap, we will miss you!

Windows 7 had garnered record sales in the 1st 3 days of launch, outselling the Vista when it was first launch, almost 7 to one (as reported in the papers), and the momentum was followed through with the immense PR effort, and the team’s fabulous event. Of course, it wouldn’t have happened if not for itself being a much stronger, consumer-friendly, quality product that had gathered pretty much decent fan-fare.

The journey to midnight was a long one, and going by the time differences and all, it could well be that we were the world’s first to launch Windows 7.

By then, it was so tiring that, Hanson was all drained, draping over the chair, dripping with exhaustion.

I was still whoring my products.

Yes, Apple is my friend, too :)

The big moment finally arrived, and our first customers were received by blinding flashes and plenty of attention beyond belief.

You probably seen them gracing the front pages of broadsheets, on major news and soon, they will be gracing some of our homes as we were all given one framed article of the launch as a memento for the success.

The back of the queue had to wait further for the transactions, and some of them only finally got their copy after 1am.

I wanna thank all their incredible patience.

And we have a sleeping baby who did not fuss, a heavily pregnant lady who was eventually given priority and an elderly Caucasian in the queue.

Ian and I met the elderly Caucasian as we were carrying some boxes, and a small conversation was struck up.

I like that man. He walked with a hunch and a slow gait that will naturally make you feel for him, and he was dressed in pants, shirt and a formal jacket that made him seemingly out of place together with his age.

When he was in the queue, I was pretty much worried about him and if he could take the wait. He was occupied by a book in hand, and thankfully, was not at the back of the queue, so he didn’t have to wait for another hour or so.

He mentioned in his visible fatigue how his children had wanted to get a copy for him anyway, but since he was in the area, he might as well drop by. It is just queueing and waiting, and no big deal. He casually said this would also show his children how to be frugal.

The man left a very deep impression on me as he spoke. He went off saying matter-of-factly how the team did a great job, and it was a good event.

The man wasn’t overly friendly, and yet there was just some warmth in his voice, that… well, I have no description for that.

***

Tsk! I wish I could get a copy at $77 too!

And now I am kicking myself for not getting the external harddrive 320GB at $77!

Finally, it was time to pack up head for supper with the rest.

And Mr Ian Tan gave a show of public indecency as he changed out of his shirt.

Weet-u-weet!

I was scared stiff when it was past 2am in the morning when my boss gave me a lift to the west. Because he had threatened me with an one-on-one meeting session when our brains were hardly working.

Relieving-ly, it was just a bad joke. -Gulp-

***

The Wednesday that just passed was one that was hilarious.

I went for a free trial class for pole-dancing, and had asked Jiali to join me to spare me the embarrassment.

Before you start to think way off the tracks, let me assure you that it is nothing glamourous, nor dirtttyyy.

When I reached there, the girls were all prim and proper, and a mum even brought her 2 young kids (a boy and a girl) along.

Before our class commenced, there were a group of 10, with majority of them being guys, and a chap was even wearing corporate shirt and pants (like, seriously?!).

Apparently a company was having some team bonding thingy and I am quite sure it was a female’s idea. But the chaps had some real fun and it would be something I would suggest for team building to ANYONE next time round. Everyone being silly and have a good laugh, now, that WAS something!

Ming was really cool and a pretty good coach, though it was just too many people at the trial for anyone to have a good grasp of it.

In the short 45 minutes, there were 3 rounds of rotations for warm ups and for individuals to try their hands on 2 spins.

And to illustrate how it wasn’t that difficult, almost everyone could do the spins at the end of it.

The funniest part was when I tried to wrap my legs around the pole, and I kneed it instead.

I have this massive bruise on the knee, and you thought that was it.

It was more of an uphill task for me cos my sweaty palm was giving me quite a bit of problems.

When I did a slide, it was too wet, and I literally slid from the pole like those cartoon character slipping off the tree after they had ran into it.

And I landed on my knee.

Talk about real grace. Hahahaha!

Then, when the sweat dried up, it was too sticky!

There was this part when I spin, I ended up being in that position like stuck on the pole, instead of a graceful, gradual, sexy slide down the pole.

Jiali was late, so she only managed to see the ending where I also kicked the pole which caused a big swollen bruise on the ankle.

Besides me, I think everyone walked away pretty unscathed.

I think I needed a companion which was probably the wisest choice cos it was only when Jiali was here that I could be less sheepish and go all out and had fun.

There was this girl there who is beautiful, and incredibly graceful.

Jiali was pretty excited after seeing the fun we had and how Ming had spun without using hands or legs, sometimes, and she said, “let’s do it!“.

I laughed at the spontaneity and gamely set myself up for more aches and bruises to come!

***

Jiali and I caught up at Millenia’s Walk Bakerzin after the class, and it was a long, long catch up session since we hadn’t seen each other in months.

Dinner was good and topic was good, as we reminisced the past 12 years and the common people we know.

It was the same Bakerzin I saw Quanbin and Yaocheng last night.

Somehow my phone will go into twilight zone at some places in the area, like Suntec’s Coffee Bean which me and my colleague experienced the same thing, and Millenia Walk’s Bakerzin.

If I get out of the zones by walking a few steps away, the phone will return to its normalcy, and stop its act of shutting down and restarting, which totally crippled its usability.

Strange.

We extended the chat even till way after the eatery’s closing, and she disclosed her desire to further her studies, perhaps in the States.

We both left when it was 11 plus, and on the journey home, an ambulance was seen just at the junction before turning to my place.

A badly mangled Honda RVF was lying on the ground, and a bus was stopped after the junction, with the driver standing there taking pictures of the barely damaged right front of the bus 157.

The injured rider (I would assume he was injured since the bike was so badly smashed) was nowhere to be seen, and I remember tweeting about it and hoping the rider would be alright.

Saw the board appealing for witnesses for the accident yesterday, and it says “Fatal accident”, and a sinking feeling was in the heart, cos I believe that would mean the rider had not make it.

Apparently, he had died on the spot. :(

He was 21 and he had a pillion with him, who was his campmate, who is now seriously injured.

They were rushing back to camp and eye witness accounted that he was rolling towards the red light, and accelerated when the light went green, and the bus which was turning right, hit him.

Shubin was 21 too when he left. It was one junction down from where this had happened, and it is just devastating to another young life lost just like this.

Condolences to the family of the boy, and hopefully his friend will pull through this.

FML

Doofusism knows no boundaries, especially mine.

Was tweeting an episode this morning how FML (a certain Mr Ivan had messaged me through MSN to ask me what is FML – Fuck My Life, darling) is.

So. This morning, I woke up for a meeting I was supposed to attend, so I planned to make an early way to the train station.

The fatigue is taking a toll on me, been having less than 5 hours of sleep every night this week, but today, there was a nagging lethargy in me that refuses to go away.

Alas, the train just went off, and the next train, during peak hour, will take another 4 minutes to reach.

Not wanting to be late, I crossed the overhead bridge, hoping to grab a cab.

You guessed it. None in sight.

So I walked a darn long way to the next street, and that took me, 10 minutes.

ROAR!

But got cab immediately, so, okay, not too bad.

Then of all days, it decided to jam badly today.

Weelllllllll done.

And then I got severely, terribly, horribly, carsick.

Niiiiiiiicccccccccccccceeeeeeeeeee.

24 freaking buckeroos later, I finally reached. I would have been say, 5 minutes late should I take the train, but because of my change of path, I was 15 minutes late.

……………………………………………….

FML.

I went in search of the meeting room, then I wandered around and couldn’t find anyone. No one messaged me on my phone, no one called. So I messaged my colleague.

On MC today, her reply.

As she was quite a major part of it, and I couldn’t locate my boss, I got back to my seat and told my other colleague my boss had gone missing.

So, meeting was cancelled.

All the carsickness and moolah were all for nothing.

FMLLLLLLLLLL.

Okay, fine, back to work. Productive at least, and finished some planning :D

Fingers crossed that everything will run smoothly and safely next week.

***

3 hours later, I saw my boss and gave him the dagger stare for not telling me the meeting was cancelled.

The first thing he said to me was….

….

….

….

Where were you? Why you never turn up for the meeting?

HARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR?

The meeting wasn’t cancelled.

FML!

Flu zone

On Sunday night, I was almost in a trance after I took my medication at almost 1am, yet it was almost 6am when I finally dozed off.

It was an agonising wait for the sleepybug to claim me.

It was only after 2 hours I had to wake up to head back to work, and during the meeting, an email popped up.

Are you still sick? Go home. You are excused.

From my boss.

I kept saying I was fine, and that I would head back once I finished my stuff. I muffled my urge to cough and I am quite certain I sustain quite a fair bit of internal injury already.

Until one point I cannot stand it anymore, I walked out of the boardroom and cough for 5 full minutes before going back into the room.

Over a break, my colleague asked, “You having a flu? You talking louder than usual! Your ears must be blocked.”

Wooops.

Then, they headed out for lunch, and I took the chance to join because I needed to ask a fellow co-worker for some confirmation so I could proceed with my stuff.

So I finally got it over lunch.

But over lunch, someone casually asked, “Have you gotten yourself tested?

Uhm.. nope.

Do you have fever?” my colleague had his hand out to touch me on my forehead. Hohoho. I took 3 fever medication in the morning when I had my temperature taken at 38.

Uh.. yah… but now no more!

You could see everyone at the table curling their shoulders away from me.

Apparently I wasn’t the only one at the table who was having flu, my boss’ boss too.

Then, my boss came up to me after lunch and had a strange grin on his face. “Eh, since everyone so sensitive, go home lah..”

Okok, I go back office, finish up some stuff and I go home.

Then, occasionally when he walked past my workstation, he would be like “Why you haven’t gone home? Go home! Wait my boss scold me you know!

And he would laugh like a hyena, which is his usual style.

At 5pm, he said, “Eh! You still here!

I joked to him to give me half an hour more, and he gave me the very-duh look.

By the time I finally finish everyone, it was 6pm.

I left and didn’t join the rest for dinner and drinks. Sulks. But I seriously didn’t think I would be welcomed, and for the safety concerns of others, I left.

Ended up having Buah Kulak for dinner(very yum!).

I didn’t manage to sleep till it was almost 3 plus am I think. I woke up having a worse cough and a worse sore throat. And I think with the way I was coughing, my colleagues would have called for the ambulance to have me quarantined, so I utilise my MC(I was given MC to cover till today) and stayed home and got some much needed rest.

Did some packing up of my room, ironing, washing up and mini-vacuuming.

Today, received an email from a colleague to announce that he had gotten the flu bug.

Woops.

I think NOT ME!!

Not me right?!

Then again, the flu started from one side of the office, then was passed to everyone and anyone.

Very potent! We got super-carrier in the office.

I think if it still doesn’t get better, I might get cruxified in the office soon, cos I got the worst bout of it.

Seriously huh, I think even if H1N1, people also recovered after so long liao right?!

The things I used to do

It is creeping towards a year since I moved on from my previous company, yet the loveliest people and the fun they injected into my life are what I miss most of my time there.

It was perhaps a twist of fate plus a little grace that brought me to the company, and I am thankful for the opportunity given.

One of the most fun I have had, was when we put together a few launches, and goofed around despite the immense pressure build-up.

I always put off posting pictures because I have always wanted to slowly chew on the days’ events, and then, procrastination will bite me in the ass… until every memory is coated with a thick layer of dust.

Some of us had moved on(though never far from each other, haha!), but there are many, many things they had thought me that stayed.

Tadaaaaaaaaaanngggg, here are some of the wonderful people I used to work with, during a launch at Geek Terminal.

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While setting up, we pretended we were gonna have our personal concert. I even requested for a boa which they sensibly decided to ignore.

As you can see, I was rounder than due to the perpetual quest for good food with this crazy bunch.

Another memorable event was held just a day later, where we were caught between the angel and the devil.

This was a project that reminded me of how many things went wrong before it was put right, and it turned out well despite of the pre-show nerves.

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Wifey was also there, and she bore witness to “my type of guy” and let’s just say all the girlies who were there stared at me in disbelief. He is somewhere in the collages, and I ain’t gonna say who. Shy lah!

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And the night ended with me getting just a little tipsy from a little alcohol, though I doubt I had more than 3 sips.

But what’s new right?

Gee, to think Audrey was pregnant back then, and she had already popped.

The best part of my working experience there was I could be who I was, and as kooky as I can be. And in the company with all the hiao ah lians (don’t quote me!), I was more often underdressed than overdressed (wearing a dress to work these days will get me “WAH, you going party ah?” “No, just hiao today“).

For reasons many might not know, it was where I took my first step in, and in a beautiful way, my first step out.

The announcement

Today, the announcement is out.

I lost my job.

The flip side of it?

I have got new namecards.

And I can finally heave a sigh of relief.

Though, here comes the steep learning curve again.

Redundancy

On a tiring Monday afternoon, the day was wrapped up with a meeting.

And like everything else, my 6th sense served me strong.

My position has just been made redundant.

I am just pretty much, redundant, in all senses of words.

New change, new job, new life. I guess.

*beams*

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

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Okay.

The first sign of trouble was in the midst of all the planning, I was sending out reports and such yesterday(too busy to even blog, and stayed in office till 8pm)…

… and my boss turned to me to ask me where is the attachment.

I went with my signature “OH!”(or Oops), and trailed it off with giggles.

It wasn’t the first time apparently.

He shook his hair and laughed, “Ting! Are you going blonde?”

I sighed and gave a hurt look, saying without turning my head, “Actually I am a natural blonde. I dyed my hair. I cheated so I can keep my job.”

I think he didn’t expect the usual bimbo to reply so randomly(I am so quirky that I think he is slowly learning to live with it), and he gave me an “impossible” look and don’t know to laugh or cry.

I think it was more of “what kind of monster have I employed” look.

***

Timely.

The news is officially out, just before a nice Chinese New Year lunch at Fullerton, and the jokes started in the office.

Yeap, my company is letting go staff.

Shit always come when my financial is rock bottom, despite the tightening of budget, but for whatever reason it is, I should have seen it coming knowing the situational factors and and the signs were there.

Strangely I will feel at ease with the uncertainties, and the unknown, cos it has always been me to take things as they come.

Though obviously some stuff still bugs me no end, but you know, like how I say it best, I will manage. And it is pleasant to think I have made the best of it, and I enjoyed the process.

I have grown. I have learnt. That’s the most important.

Just like in the past, I have loved, I have lived, I have believed. And I see no point being sore nor bitter.

A colleague came back to his chair, and went something like(since I have my headphones on most of the time), “Who took my chair? You mean it is that fast?!” when he found his chair missing.

We laughed. My boss joked that it is actually a good idea to use it as an indicator, to inform who has been laid off.

He turned serious and looked at me and my other colleague, “Erm, you guys heard the news right? I don’t know what is going to happen, but if anything, I will definitely let you guys know first.”

“Just make sure you don’t tell me by taking my chair away.”

I was thinking to sit on my chair and not move. Haha.

And to be on the safe side….

“By the way, boss, just so you know, I am not a blonde like I said I was. Really!”

Sometimes I wonder if I am trying to keep my job, or lose it.