Remember how I set out to make 2010 different?

Oh boy, different it has been.

Just a tad more and I would have pretty much what I had wanted to do during this period of time, and it has been pretty awesome, though at times the doubts set in pretty promptly, but faith has pretty much tide me through and brought opportunities I didn’t think possible.

Lack of blogposts were contributed by poor hosting, a lack of motivation since I pretty much wall up quite a bit and doubt this space is still active, an inability to find words… and having major distractions like the yummy men running on the field playing the occasional fabulous games of football, or like how this post was halted in between to make milk, brush Minibean’s teeth, and washing her bum bum after she pooped.

Sometime within the next few minutes, I have to change her and then get my chauffeur duties done, before a lunch date with an old, old chum of mine.

You can say I have arrived at auntiedom, or that I am tai-let right now since there is nowhere I am near full blown taitaidom as savings are depleting faster than my energy level each day handling a toddler who is at her most active and curious stage.

Without concentration to let words flow freely and abundantly, the reflective me-time I used to spend liberally has became a luxury.

Only reminders of those things that happened in the past 7 months have taken forms in scattered drafts just to remind myself I would one day jot them down.

Like.. the many things that happened or came to mind.

Keeping fingers crossed that my ambitious target of 4 blogposts by the end of this week is not too impossible, especially since this month only saw me posting a miserable post, the lowest churn rate since this space kicked into operation 7 years ago.

Now, they say about the 7 year itch. It seems very real now.

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Though I have not ventured onto fulfilling my bucket list during this time, but I thought what would be nice and different is to always pause to put things into another perspective whenever I make a decision.

Like, many people would wanna do what they always set out to do.

This time, I told myself I would do things that I thought I would never do.

Like, public speaking, bungee jumping blarblarblar, things like that, and NOT along the lines of “I would never do John Terry and become a Chelsea fan”.

So an impromptu trip was kicked into motion and though I had an option to go to somewhere cooler and more likely to be somewhere I would go… I immediately stopped to reconsider my other option which I had originally scoffed at.

And all it took was half an hour for me to change my mind and decide to go to a new country, new city to explore a place I never thought I would go.

The excitement and the anticipation is even greater than what I had felt when going to a place of familiarity.

I think plunging into an unknown does bring me thrills. Can’t wait for the surprises (including those that might be unpleasant) await.

Let’s just hope I survive. No land mines. No malaria. No… well, anything that would make this space permanently quiet. Heh.