It is finally the last day of the year of the ox.

I think the thing with celebrations is, it always give us a chance to make-belief a new start, or perhaps, bookend and conclude something we hope to mark an end to.

But it is just another day, ya know ya know?

I know I hadn’t been updating as promised, probably with the new stuff I have been doing, and some new stuff I am trying to start, and also, I am down with a fever and getting a new bout of flu.

YES, ALL OVER AGAIN.

I had a serious bout just over the Christmas and new year season lor, and what are the chances I had to rush to the doc’s again today because I am afraid of getting the full bout of it over Lunar New Year?

Well, and I was told in the midst of my grogginess I was having a fever.

*Grumbles grumbles*

Not to mention how I was coughing my way to 6-pecs, and the constant constrictions to my head with the hardcore coughing that I developed a bad migraine last night. My nose started clogging up too.

So I had Tramadol, chlorpheniramine and codeine. TOGETHER.

I had mentioned several times how Tramadol gives me a floaty high. I have someone mentioned to me before how half a tablet of chlorpheniramine knocked him out. And we all know about codeine.

Was it surprising that I was unusually floaty and high for last night?

But what I didn’t expect was when I woke up every single time today, I was in a state of confusion and I was still feeling floaty and found myself not able to find the strength to even sit up?

So back to surreal-land I drifted off to.

I woke up and could feel as if the medicine didn’t even wear off after 15 hours.

I took a small nap and the grogginess was with me, and I was having slight shivers with the weightlessness still bugging me. Same, shallow breaths.

I ended up being a mighty infected tonight. They were right to say I might shoot better being high. I should start asking people out for L4D2 when I am having a migraine next time, and I am high on tramadol.

ROAAARRRRRRR.

Since it is the end of the year of the ox, and with me having so much backlog to clear, I didn’t have the chance to blog about my departure from my company.

Yes, I was officially unemployed on the first day of 2010 and it was quite an awesome way to start the new year with a break.

To complete what I set out to do, though some stuff are still yet to tick off.

I have already quite a bit of plans in mind as we progress into the year of the Tiger, and perhaps, this will be the point of things kicking into motion. I know I have been procrastinating, but yes, many of you already know what my plan is. Though a little hiccup and a little advice here and there are making me rethinking about my options. I am not disillusioned to think that the path I take is gonna be all rosy and glamourous, cos I know how tough it is gonna be, but nonetheless, as much as I am quite a dreamer to say this, moolah is not that important to me in exchange for invaluable experiences.

Of course a balance has to be struck.

Or if I am feeling a bit more generous with giving myself a longer break, I would see if I could postpone my plan past my 29th.

At this moment, it sure is great catching up with Minibean’s growth (sorry hun, it is time to get you onto the academic track), trying to rebuild the relationship with my mum, getting the other things sorted, put my health back on track, getting to know the world a little better, and just chill to do a bit of things at the side which I had always been wanting to do.

As much as I am still very much the melancholic person I am, I have to say I have enjoyed the simply joys and the luxury of feeling lighter.. and the improvements in all aspect I have been trying to do in this timeframe. This comfort and assurance is also perhaps why I hadn’t been blogging much, cos… sometimes too many things and revelations along the way, and the typing/blogging/thoughts can’t catch up with the changes.

Yes, I still think a lot, laughs.

Baby steps, hang on there, baby steps.

I wish that it would be a beautiful end to the year of the ox for everyone, and I don’t know whether to say HUAT AH to everyone or not, cos for all I know, people will be huat-ing from my moolah over Lunar New Year.

Still, wishing everyone plenty of prosperity (order prosperity burger when gambling!!), and ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRING good Tiger year ahead.

Sounds a bit obligatory lah, but isn’t all celebrations about giving hope of a better year ahead?

Yes, hope. Keep it alive.

Someday, I shall be able to be open as I used to be, on this space, again.

I believe.