Just a conversation the other day with my colleagues the other day about my shyness with tampons prompted her reply, “Tampon is the best invention for female besides push up bra.”

I laughed, and then cupped my non-existent boobies and said, “Sian, nothing to push up anymore.”

One of them then related this incident of her trying on a dress and the very helpful sales person started raining praises on her, “Wah! Very nice on you! It looks really good! You wear with push up bra will look very, very good!”

My colleague looked at her from the corner of her eyes and gave her a polite smile, thinking to herself, “I am already wearing a push up bra!!! Okay, this dress is really not for me.”

I started preaching about the downside of breastfeeding – You lose your pre-pregnancy boobs, and they gasped at the horror, saying how it is a disincentive to be giving birth.

I am not joking. I was skinny before, I was flat before, BUT, that didn’t stop me from wearing deep-V clothes and all. Push up bras could give me the effect that my little peaches had received comments like, “Are they real?!”

Hurhur, fooled you guys, didn’t they?

Of course, with pregnancy setting in, they ballooned and I had problem walking down the stairs without them bouncing about and giving me too much pain to handle.

And then with childbirth, they were juicy and ripe – literally, with the milk constantly spilling over and wetting my clothes.

If you don’t know anything about lactation, they shoot out, exactly like those supersoaker water guns. Projectile, baybeh.

And then, came the horror when breastfeeding stops.

Can you imagine they deflated to the point of no return, possibly dropping a cup size from your pre-pregnancy boobies?

Woe is me. Sibei sad.

Of course, there are some of you who will never understand. Haha.

I keep no secret of how I wanna gain back somewhat of my past nehs, and am considering surgery. I mean, looks damn nice, wear clothes also more proportionate.

And because of my desire, I actually had an offer to be sponsored for it before.

But I very coward.

And after I see this, I really very tempted to go get them zhng-ed! But don’t know zhng already can still dive or not.

I mean, what you don’t like, fix it, right?

I know guys who say they don’t care about boobs size, blarblarblar, but I touch my boobs more than them, so of course is for myself what!

Everyone says natural is the best, is bullshit lor, people don’t really care about the difference.

All the people I know do already I keep thinking they are hotter than before and I didn’t think less of them just because of what they did.

But I scared I will be bored with them if I get them done (though I don’t know if anyone would be bored with bigger nehs), and then must take out or something.

Hmm.. very tempted. Cos I know how it feels like to burst out of a tight outfit… (see lah, that time bigger nehs make me realise what I am missing out), and seeing some sort of curves and it feels incredibly sexy lah.

How ah?

Maybe since sedated, “by the way” do other modification or something. Hehehe.

Say only lah, not say got any money to do so. Somemore with the kind of money… going diving/travelling seems more worth it.

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I don’t know my back will recover in time for August dive trip or not. -Sulks-