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February 4th, 2009 by admin

I haven’t been blogging much cos I have been feeling grumpy.

I feel… like I am just trudging on aimlessly in my life at this moment. Neither here nor there is not a good thing.

My PMS theme this month is helplessness, and extreme resentment towards myself. I want to cry but I cannot. Sigh….

I can’t blog cos I don’t even know if I would make sense.

So I shall just cut and paste what I was tagged.  I did some changes cos.. haha, facebook sometimes no privacy!

1. I don’t ever fake orgasms.
2. I am a walking hazard(Clumsy is my middlename), or a walking drama-serial, verified by multiple sources. Some are even surprised I am even alive.
3. I don’t take fish. I am afraid of dead fishes. Something about the skin and smell make my hair stand even at the thought of it. I love sambal stingray though.
4. I wish there is something I like about myself.
5. I have pretty small feet for my height. 4.5 or size 36.
6. I miss crying. The sob-your-hearts-out-uncontrollably kinda crying. I get misty-eyed often… but I don’t seem to be able to cry the way I did. But I don’t miss being hurt.
7. I love my baby pillow. Mine, not Minibean’s. Which I hugged for all my life. It is so tattered that I once said I will marry the guy who gets me a pillow case of exact material.
8. I get different PMS-themes each month. Sometimes angst, sometimes emoness, sometimes hermit-ism. This month, it is helplessness and a great sense of defeat.
9. My defense mechanism is absolute coldness. I just freeze with all seriousness. Have no idea why.
10. I am a person of extremes. If you can find me on one end, you probably will find me on the other. I could be warm, and then cold. Loud and then silenced. And dare I say it, intelligent(ha ha!) and utterly stupid. All glammed up and all auntie.
11. Despite that, I have loved crazily, yet I have never really hated anyone. And I don’t like to use the word “hate” as that’s too much emotions for someone you have contempt for.
12. I miss us. I do.
13. I find very bad skin on the face distracting.. though mine isn’t fantastic.
14. I type with 3 fingers only. Left index, and right index amd middle finger.
15. I took a cab to hospital by myself when my water broke, and it was hilarious.
16. I cannot stand guys who don’t wash their hands after going to the toilet. C.A.N.N.O.T.. And peeing on the toilet seat without lifting it up is absolute no-no. I believe it is a character-defining trait. This rule only applies to shared toilets, not public toilets.
17. Contrary to popular beliefs(people seem to be always sceptical about this) – I don’t drink. I am a terrible drinker. I seldom finish one drink. And recently I have developed an allergy to it. Hives and itch… awesome.
18. Contrary to popular beliefs II — I am not the confident bitch you think I am. I am badly scarred and battered that.. an extra ounce of confidence might actually save my life. And that… makes me an incredibly shy person. Unbelieveable but I am unbelievably shy, which… is often mistaken for arrogance(when you stay quiet) or bimbotism(saying something wrong)
18. I am a cheenah girl at heart, I love the language but am too lazy to type it on the computer cos…
19. .. My thoughts run faster than what I type, and i ended up saying a lot of things that are damn random, or have the exact opposite meaning the way I meant it to be.
20. I didn’t swear, smoke, got pregnant till I was 25(ha! ha! ha!). 25 is the new 15!
21. I have a quirky sense of reasoning… sense of humour. I am quirky. Period.
22. I have the worst short-termed memory. Strangely, my long-termed memory still awes myself and plenty of others.
23. I always give up. Be it relationships, hobbies, life, stuff… because I am afraid of the greater sense of failure and utter incompetency upon feeling the slightest bit of it. Strangely, most of the things people perceived as diffiicult, were perhaps the easiest for me to deal with plenty of resilience. I don’t reason it quite as same as everyone.
24. At my slimmest in adulthood, I was 29-21-30. The guy I was dating then can verify I was a big eater.
25. I naively think there is actually innocence in me that is untainted. I still believe.
And strangely I thought of so much more things to type but I shall keep it at 25. Haha.
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MY WEAKNESS:
A tie between the words “trust me” and my very bad back.

2. MY OVERUSED PHRASE
Recently is “sibei sian”

3. DO YOU SMOKE?
Occasionally.

4. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA
chocolate, baybeh.

5. DO YOU SWEAR
I am a lady. A vuglar one.

6. HAVE YOU BEEN IN LOVE
Thankfully yes.

7. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS
I get along with dad.

8.NUMBER OF PIERCINGS
2.

9. DO YOU THINK YOU’RE ATTRACTIVE
Never.

10. EVER BEEN CALLED A TEASE
Giggles. Always.

11. HOW DO YOU WANT TO DIE
Old and wrinkly… loved and remembered.

12. NUMBER OF TATTOOS
no have yet.

13. FAVORITE SPORT
running. or diving if it is a sport.

14. WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE, YOU USE TO…..
be innocent.

15. FAVORITE CARTOON AS A CHILD.
carebears

16. IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU DRANK ALCOHOL
HAHAHAHA. No.

17. IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU BEEN ON DRUGS
Plenty. Been sick most of Jan.

18. IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU SMOKED
Yes.

19. IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU GONE ON A DATE
Waiting for the invite.

20. FAVORITE CANDY BAR
Milo bar

21. FAVORITE COLOR
Scarlet

22. FAVORITE FLOWER
Red/white roses.

23. MY WEIGHT
49kg

24. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT
Do I even believe in love? Then again, no, I believe love at first sight gives room for comtempt down the road. and your eyes often lie too much.

25. DREAM VACATION
Backpacking in Italy

26. WHAT CAN’T YOU LIVE WITHOUT.
Oxygen.

27. ONCE I GOT DRUNK AND……
I don’t ever get drunk.

Fuck. Fine. I needed a colleague to clean my puke.

28. FAVORITE SCENT
Baby’s smeel.

29. DO YOU LIKE YOURSELF
Been trying.

30. I AM ADDICTED TO…..
mahjong.

31. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON ANYONE
seriously?

32. THE LONGEST YOU’VE GONE WITHOUT SLEEP.
not more than 48 hours.

33. DEFINE YOURSELF IN 3 WORDS.
absolutely no idea.

34. ARE YOU TICKLISH
Giggles. uh huh uh huh.

35. FAVORITE ICE-CREAM
chocolate

36. WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH
a small and soft kkj. Did I say that?

37. WHEN I AM SAD OR DOWN, I …..
become a hermit.

38. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GOD.
Aboslutely.

39. KISSES OR HUGS
Hugs

40. ARE YOU A VERY EMOTIONAL PERSON.
No lah. Not at all. Where got. Don’t believe anyone else who try to convince you otherwise

41. DO YOU GOSSIP
Of course! Hahaha.

42. DO YOU PROCRASTINATE.
If i don’t i wouldn’t be doing this right now.

43. FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK
Friday night, is the night, feeling all right, yeah yeah.

44. DO YOU WHINE
I torture people with it.

45. DO YOU COOK.
If I have to, if I want to.

46. DO YOU FIDGET
All the time.

47. WHO DO YOU MISS MOST.
Too many to name.

48. WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST.
Comfort. Not the cab.

***
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
No… Such cheenah name is just.. bland.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Not something I allow myself to remember

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
It is unruly, unpredictable, wild, antisocial, horrible, unrbirdled. just like me. of cos i hate it. but i like my cheenah handwriting.

4. DO YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND? IF NO, WOULD YOU WANT ONE?
Yes. Li Yen, my lawfully wedded mahjong wife. Seriously singlehood is awesome.

5. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU
Uhm, if I were another weirdo… of course!

6. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Seriously, like I would harm anyone with sarcasm. It is so not me. Like totally.

7. HOW DO YOU WANT YOUR LIFE TO BE IN A COUPLE OF YEARS? (REALISTICALLY PLEASE)
Happy. With goals, with a house for Minibean. And, friends I love to stay around. Oh, and rid of toxic ones.

8. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
I always think I wouldn’t.. but never say never.

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Love the banana nut crunch and frosties!

10. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
I won’t wear shoes with laces. too.

11. WOULD YOU MOVE AGAIN?
Yes. Can’t wait to.

12. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
If they are observer, wallflower, or just soulless.

13. RED OR PINK?
Hello… there’s a reason why the name is Scarlet-t

14. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORlTE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
Everything. The uselessness, the ugreeness.. the… incompetency.. just… for being myself, and does that spell low self esteem too?

15. WHAT DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Innocence.

16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Old me.(wah lau miss 4DL machiam I copy your answer like that)

17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
Doesn’t matter.

18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Blue jeans and rainbow Nikes(which Minibean has a pair too!)

19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Creep fading… and going onto Angels or Devils. Awesome songs lah.

20.WHAT ANNOYS YOU THE MOST?
Selfishness.

21. FAVORITE SMELLS?
You know the way babies always smell powdery?

22. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My mum.

23. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
Bo bian, mus say yes.

24. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Soccer and swimming. Soccer best if LIVE at the stadium ;)

25. HAIR COLOR?
Brown…

26. EYE COLOR?
Black

27. DO YOU HAVE ANY MAJOR REGRETS?
I do. Always do. But I move on.

28. FAVORITE FOOD?
Pasta

29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy Endings

30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED, AND WITH WHOM?
Twilight. Brian.

31. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Pink tee.

32. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter!

33. HUGS OR KISSES?
Hugs

34. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
to others’ spite.

35. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
when reading.

36. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Norwegian Wood

37. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
No have mouse pad.

38. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
Nothing.

39.WHAT LITTLE THING MAKES YOU HAPPY?
Minibean.

40. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Neither.

41. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
London.

42. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Oh… that you have to find out. ;)

Wait a min..i realised i didn’t finish the note

43 WHERE WERE U BORN?
Johor, somewhere in a private clinic that did baby smuggling

44. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
no one.

45. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
Hahahaha in mambo, baybeh!

 

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I am not sure if I should tag anyone, cos am not aware who is even reading.

So let me do something different.

If you are reading this and feel like it, tell me 5 things about me, and 5 things about yourself.

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