Edited: Guys, time to ask for a pay raise. And Bill Gates, can I have an affair with you?

Today I complain to the wifey that I have been listening to the same songs for the past 4 months, and I am getting really bored.

I told her to send me some random songs, and I have to say she really does know my taste in music from the 3 songs she sent me.

I think she is subtlely mocking me with the lyrics.

David Cook’s – Light On

Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving
Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I’m leaving

(Chorus)
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

You know we’ve been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don’t know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that I have ever believed in

Christina Aguilera - Keeps getting better

Some days I’m a super bitch
Up to my old tricks
But it won’t last forever
Next day I’m your super girl
Out to save the world
And it keeps gettin’ better

Hold on
Keeps gettin’ better
Hold on
Keeps gettin’ better

Kiss kiss gonna tell you right now
I’ll make it sweet on the lips as it can knock you out
Shut up I don’t care what you say
Cuz when we both in the ring you’re gonna like it my way
Yeah baby there’s a villain in me so sexy sour and sweet
And you’ll be loving it

In the blink of an eye
In the speed of the light
I’ll hold the universe up
And make your planets collide
When I strap on my boots
And I slip on my suit
You see the vixen in me
Becomes an angel for you

Nickelback – Gotta Be Somebody

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I’ll be waiting for the real thing.
I’ll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

I think I just got screwed by Queen of Mindfuck.

Anyway.

It was a gathering last night at Clarke Quay, where the aunties ordered black chicken soup for my recent ailments.

And then, they decided to be adventurous, and by the end of the night, this was what I munched:

Can I just say the “man tou” was really delicious?

The scorpions tasted funky.

I don’t know if I preferred the black ants or the scorpions but I think I kinda like the scorpions better.

Scorpions are supposed to be tonics for the nerves, for bones and joints. These are actually cultured ones.

Same to ants. So hopefully I will feel less like an old woman now.

And today, I finally have my first teh-o-peng in a long, long while, and it was awesome.

Packed week this week. Can’t wait for Chinese New Year for the gambler in me to take over.

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I was asked why was I hesitant.

What am I afraid of?

I think, I have forgotten how to trust, I don’t remember how to believe, and lost my way in the maze I had built to hide myself.