Okay.

The first sign of trouble was in the midst of all the planning, I was sending out reports and such yesterday(too busy to even blog, and stayed in office till 8pm)…

… and my boss turned to me to ask me where is the attachment.

I went with my signature “OH!”(or Oops), and trailed it off with giggles.

It wasn’t the first time apparently.

He shook his hair and laughed, “Ting! Are you going blonde?”

I sighed and gave a hurt look, saying without turning my head, “Actually I am a natural blonde. I dyed my hair. I cheated so I can keep my job.”

I think he didn’t expect the usual bimbo to reply so randomly(I am so quirky that I think he is slowly learning to live with it), and he gave me an “impossible” look and don’t know to laugh or cry.

I think it was more of “what kind of monster have I employed” look.

***

Timely.

The news is officially out, just before a nice Chinese New Year lunch at Fullerton, and the jokes started in the office.

Yeap, my company is letting go staff.

Shit always come when my financial is rock bottom, despite the tightening of budget, but for whatever reason it is, I should have seen it coming knowing the situational factors and and the signs were there.

Strangely I will feel at ease with the uncertainties, and the unknown, cos it has always been me to take things as they come.

Though obviously some stuff still bugs me no end, but you know, like how I say it best, I will manage. And it is pleasant to think I have made the best of it, and I enjoyed the process.

I have grown. I have learnt. That’s the most important.

Just like in the past, I have loved, I have lived, I have believed. And I see no point being sore nor bitter.

A colleague came back to his chair, and went something like(since I have my headphones on most of the time), “Who took my chair? You mean it is that fast?!” when he found his chair missing.

We laughed. My boss joked that it is actually a good idea to use it as an indicator, to inform who has been laid off.

He turned serious and looked at me and my other colleague, “Erm, you guys heard the news right? I don’t know what is going to happen, but if anything, I will definitely let you guys know first.”

“Just make sure you don’t tell me by taking my chair away.”

I was thinking to sit on my chair and not move. Haha.

And to be on the safe side….

“By the way, boss, just so you know, I am not a blonde like I said I was. Really!”

Sometimes I wonder if I am trying to keep my job, or lose it.