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P-word

January 30th, 2009 by admin

I am PMSsy, I think.

I munched on the new year goodies ceaselessly last night, and I sulked most of the evening away, except for the time I found my calm through Funtown Mahjong.  

I am feeling destructive today, and thus I am bringing Grand Theft Auto IV and Burnout Revenge home for some major venting session on the Xbox 360.

I… just need… to throw a BIG bitch fit.

Like seriously.

I want to throw a petty, prissy, pmssy tantrum that will drive everyone away.

Then I will bite bite bite bite bite bite bite bite bite!

ROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR…………..

Okie. Rant over.

I am cool now. *blinks and gives the sweetest smile possible* :)

Back to being a slave.

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Lunar New Year 2009

January 28th, 2009 by Scarlett Ting

There is no need to wish everyone a happy chinese new year, nor a need to say too much of “wealth-wishing” greetings.

If they are really recession-proof, then there would have been no recession. Duh.

Maybe I should be saying, “Happy Chinese new year, may the year of the ox be one you don’t lose your job!”

I think I wished someone to have the stamina of an ox(ahem), though I later realised an ox is a castrated bull, and it doesn’t make sense either.

I got tired from all the obligations on new year, though I should make a mental note of I was pretty lucky to receive ang pows for myself(I received more than 10 ang pows and less than 20 I think), as well as baby(30+).

I shall not mention how my gambling luck is at an all time low, but I think of it as a good way to gamble my bad luck away so my mahjong luck will be shining brightly for the coming year.

But new year is a good excuse to take a break, indulge abundantly, and just… I don’t know, rest for a while before we have to wait till December before all the festive feeling will overwhelm us again, and we get all morose over the events over the year.

I am becoming a real good cynic.

I played Scene It? Box Office Smash on the Xbox 360, mostly in between the bare me-time I had.

I need my me-time man.

But my little one had so much fun and attention over the festive season that I didn’t want to deprive her of all those despite my allergy to family gatherings.

Oh well.

Back to work today and I have so much things on my mind and so much things to complete that I dreamt of work for the night, and thought about work throughout the new year.

Most people are still on holiday and it is no use for a holiday when time is running short.

So. I am looking forward to March weekends.

Though it is scary.

I am turning 28 soon.

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Unknown

January 23rd, 2009 by admin

Okay.

The first sign of trouble was in the midst of all the planning, I was sending out reports and such yesterday(too busy to even blog, and stayed in office till 8pm)…

… and my boss turned to me to ask me where is the attachment.

I went with my signature “OH!”(or Oops), and trailed it off with giggles.

It wasn’t the first time apparently.

He shook his hair and laughed, “Ting! Are you going blonde?”

I sighed and gave a hurt look, saying without turning my head, “Actually I am a natural blonde. I dyed my hair. I cheated so I can keep my job.”

I think he didn’t expect the usual bimbo to reply so randomly(I am so quirky that I think he is slowly learning to live with it), and he gave me an “impossible” look and don’t know to laugh or cry.

I think it was more of “what kind of monster have I employed” look.

***

Timely.

The news is officially out, just before a nice Chinese New Year lunch at Fullerton, and the jokes started in the office.

Yeap, my company is letting go staff.

Shit always come when my financial is rock bottom, despite the tightening of budget, but for whatever reason it is, I should have seen it coming knowing the situational factors and and the signs were there.

Strangely I will feel at ease with the uncertainties, and the unknown, cos it has always been me to take things as they come.

Though obviously some stuff still bugs me no end, but you know, like how I say it best, I will manage. And it is pleasant to think I have made the best of it, and I enjoyed the process.

I have grown. I have learnt. That’s the most important.

Just like in the past, I have loved, I have lived, I have believed. And I see no point being sore nor bitter.

A colleague came back to his chair, and went something like(since I have my headphones on most of the time), “Who took my chair? You mean it is that fast?!” when he found his chair missing.

We laughed. My boss joked that it is actually a good idea to use it as an indicator, to inform who has been laid off.

He turned serious and looked at me and my other colleague, “Erm, you guys heard the news right? I don’t know what is going to happen, but if anything, I will definitely let you guys know first.”

“Just make sure you don’t tell me by taking my chair away.”

I was thinking to sit on my chair and not move. Haha.

And to be on the safe side….

“By the way, boss, just so you know, I am not a blonde like I said I was. Really!”

Sometimes I wonder if I am trying to keep my job, or lose it.

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Basic courtesy

January 23rd, 2009 by admin

I am flooded with so much planning today it was hardly funny.

It was basic courtesy, but like I was told, the notoriety kinda show itself up pretty quickly, and unfortunately, prove what they said, is right.

Of course, we shan’t go into part b) of the matter.

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Trying my Lips

January 21st, 2009 by admin

I finally got my paws on the game I so wanted to try.

And man, was I fast to chuck my new-found addiction aside, and took on a new brand of cocaine.

Bye Sudoku, hello Lips.

That explains the late night, and the lack of blogging mojo(amongst other mojos).

And I even forgot about the presentation deck I was to come up with this morning(I didn’t forget, just….. procrastination should be damned!).

Anyway.

I managed to sneak a copy home since the very highly sought after game was seldom available with other colleagues loaning it home, and I didn’t stop singing for the night.

Shouting at time, consciously aware of how horrible I sounded at times, and went to sleep with a dry, bad cough.

And I wondered why the dryness in the throat when I woke up this morning.

Lips is a karaoke style game with 40 old and recent classic songs, that will fulfill the showers-singer, wannabe diva in you.

You could download new songs and refresh your song list from Xbox LIVE Marketplace, which I promptly did so and got “Suddenly I see”, “Over my head(Cable car)” and “Superstar” on top of “Stand by me”, “Survivor”(Can kill me lor!), “Irreplaceable”, “White Flag”, “Mercy”, “Yellow”….. and I butchered “Another one bites the dust” so badly that I didn’t dare to attempt the song again.

It was so awesome that I didn’t even realise time passed so quickly and ended up sleeping with the awesome wireless microphone and controller next to me. Today’s Digital Life gave it a 4 out of 5 stars ratings, and I can’t help but secretly wish that my Chinese karaoke usuals will make their way to the Xbox Marketplace someday.

And I can’t wait to go home to sing somemore before my Korean colleague wanted the copy for the weekend. Bummer.

Maybe I will try Dance dance revolution again. Maybe I have became less clumsy somehow.

***

So. I lost my mojo.

But I found it again through this:

The Arc Mouse, in scarlet, seductive red.

Okay, crystals not included.

But I am just so into how it is curved so sexily(okay, the picture doesn’t really do it justice), looking so classy and graceful.

Like me!

In red! So passionate.

Like me!

With red roller………. uhm, okay I better shuddap.

It is a laser mouse and can be clammed shut coolly(like you would to a clamshell phone) to bring around, and it goes surprisingly easy on the wrist, and is comfortable to use.

Recently it made its way to various fashion magazine(naked, sans crystals) and is damn nice lah! I want oneeee!

***

Another perk of the job is to be cheered up by nice vendors with nice little surprises.

One of our vendors, and a very capable one may I add, sent this to the office yesterday.

Together with the pretty card is a cute moo moo and a box.

 

And in the box is nothing expensive, but just…

Snacks! And I love snacks!

And if you wonder what the cute wooden box is, it is actually angbao holder.

So creative and nice!

***

Today my post is sibei random.

So I am still gonna be random.

I was walking to grab some drinks at the pantry, when I strolled past the newsroom team(I always think they have the coollest job).

I didn’t want to, but I did stop to gawk for a few seconds.

My heart fluttered for a moment, before I walked on.

This, is the sight that greets me whenever I walk past their room, a glass panel with the most recognised faces on it.

These faces, are what make news.

And what caught my eyes, you ask?

Giggles. It is not what is outside the newsroom, but what is inside it.

Still no clue?

I am glad I stopped the palm that was gradually making its way to my heart and the small moan of “Awww…” when I lingered outside their room like a stalker.

I am enough of a weirdo already.

Maybe when they are not around, I will go and tear it down and place it at my cubicle. Hehe.

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Taste of student life

January 20th, 2009 by admin

I have so much on my mind it isn’t funny. Strange thing is I seem to block them off so well when I try to dwell into what I am really thinking, I found….

…. Nothing!

See, that’s what happen when you have newfound responsibility that could possibly mean so much to you, but little to anyone else.

And that’s perhaps why I have not even started on the detailed planning slides I am supposed to come up with.

It was an interesting evening yesterday when I left work with a colleague who was heading out to NUS, and I was given a chance to experience what I missed.. and perhaps, part of what I am missing(not really, but still.. related, you see).

The funny thing happened when we were walking towards his car in Raffles City’s carpark, when suddenly he turned and didn’t see me.

A gasp from a nearby lady was heard.

I was on all fours before I did my usual sweepthehairbackIamfinewhat’snew smile and got back on my feet.

I could hardly feel my ankle and it was a bad twist. Thankfully my ankle is so flexible that even I twisted it and tripped on it with my full body weight collapsing onto it, it took just a few more steps to get it in place again.

Must be a mockery that now I realise what had been missing from my playlist: Dishwalla Angels or Devils and immediately played it. The sentence I heard the moment I plugged in my headphones – “this is the last time I will fall…. into a place that fails us all inside”

Fine. I ain’t the most graceful being around. Maybe I just need to convert to be a vampire or something.

Anyway.

I decided to sit in, and I ended up joining all the youngish looking students(haha, fortunately I was in jeans and my Miss Naughty tee) in the evening lecture.

I was reminded that I kinda enjoyed student life for a different reason, and I didn’t miss the 25-page assignment they were given.

The hour-long session evangelist(haha) session ended and my colleague dropped me off at Dover MRT, before I took the train home.. feeling… that urge to reach out to my dream again.

Oh well.

Some dreams are not meant to be realised, and I kinda remember the fact that I do have other things I wanna do by this year as well.

Bummer.

***

I spent my entire evening sitting in front of the television, without changing out of my gear, thinking.

I watched the bunch of youngsters singing, and I realised I don’t feel any different from them. I am just deluded I think.

When I finally got my arse out of the couch to the shower, my delusion ended when an old, haggard auntie stared me back in the face.

I stayed in bed and sulked. Tried to read and couldn’t.

So….. I downloaded Sudoku on Xbox LIVE Arcade Marketplace onto my Xbox 360 and I spent hours on it.

I am going to find other things that don’t test my coordination skills which I suck so much in to download to unlock the achievements BY MYSELF instead on depending people like Norman who drop by my place to play Xbox and then ended up doubling(okay, fine, maybe more) my achievment points without me knowing. Hahaha.

I am obsessed now; mindless things that get me lost in my thoughts.

Awesome.

I want to go home to play! But today got media event(got beer that I cannot drink) so……. gotta wait.

Hmm, so which game should I next download? Or maybe I should just karaoke on Lips tonight then.

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Keeps getting better

January 19th, 2009 by admin

Edited: Guys, time to ask for a pay raise. And Bill Gates, can I have an affair with you?

Today I complain to the wifey that I have been listening to the same songs for the past 4 months, and I am getting really bored.

I told her to send me some random songs, and I have to say she really does know my taste in music from the 3 songs she sent me.

I think she is subtlely mocking me with the lyrics.

David Cook’s – Light On

Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving
Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I’m leaving

(Chorus)
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

You know we’ve been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don’t know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that I have ever believed in

Christina Aguilera - Keeps getting better

Some days I’m a super bitch
Up to my old tricks
But it won’t last forever
Next day I’m your super girl
Out to save the world
And it keeps gettin’ better

Hold on
Keeps gettin’ better
Hold on
Keeps gettin’ better

Kiss kiss gonna tell you right now
I’ll make it sweet on the lips as it can knock you out
Shut up I don’t care what you say
Cuz when we both in the ring you’re gonna like it my way
Yeah baby there’s a villain in me so sexy sour and sweet
And you’ll be loving it

In the blink of an eye
In the speed of the light
I’ll hold the universe up
And make your planets collide
When I strap on my boots
And I slip on my suit
You see the vixen in me
Becomes an angel for you

Nickelback – Gotta Be Somebody

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I’ll be waiting for the real thing.
I’ll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

I think I just got screwed by Queen of Mindfuck.

Anyway.

It was a gathering last night at Clarke Quay, where the aunties ordered black chicken soup for my recent ailments.

And then, they decided to be adventurous, and by the end of the night, this was what I munched:

Can I just say the “man tou” was really delicious?

The scorpions tasted funky.

I don’t know if I preferred the black ants or the scorpions but I think I kinda like the scorpions better.

Scorpions are supposed to be tonics for the nerves, for bones and joints. These are actually cultured ones.

Same to ants. So hopefully I will feel less like an old woman now.

And today, I finally have my first teh-o-peng in a long, long while, and it was awesome.

Packed week this week. Can’t wait for Chinese New Year for the gambler in me to take over.

***

I was asked why was I hesitant.

What am I afraid of?

I think, I have forgotten how to trust, I don’t remember how to believe, and lost my way in the maze I had built to hide myself.

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Breaking dawn with Breaking Dawn

January 18th, 2009 by admin

Finally.

After spending all those back-breaking hours sitting in front of my monitor over the weekend, ignoring all other temptations of surfing, blogging, MSNing….

…. I finally finished Eclipse and Breaking Dawn in one single breath.

I struggled with Eclipse, as much as I preferred it over New Moon, and I fell asleep again half way through(despite the 14 hours of sleep), and clocking a 2-hour nap along the way.

It was dark when I woke up, in front of the monitor, and I stayed in the same position, with my right hand out-stretched for the only movement I allowed throughout the weekend – Pressing the Page Down key.

I was finally done with Eclipse at midnight, and immediately started with Breaking Dawn(no stocks in the bookstores, so.. ebook again!) with a pending migraine. It was almost breaking dawn when I was finally done with reading, and gave my back a rest.

I like Breaking Dawn, and the 3rd and 4th book are perhaps better than the past 2 books, cos Bella’s clumsiness and stubbornness annoys me no end, and Jacob’s immaturity and emotional manipulativeness pissed me off. And what the hell is wrong with Edward’s intensity?!

Maybe auntie Ting doesn’t believe in fairytales. And when the book finally ended… I was actually hooked cos of all the angst that makes me feel like snarling and growling at everyone.

I guess I found the main draw of the book for me.

I could so imagine myself narrowing my eyes, baring my teeth, seething and letting that one little hiss escape when someone tip my piss-o-meter.

Anyway. It has been a long while since I last stayed up so late without the incentive of mahjong. Impressive!

I woke up at 1pm today and shifted a few inches to right before my monitor again. No surprises that I sat there, did my usual surfing, before I sat through to the end of the book, and headed out for my gathering.

I had 2 scorpions and some ants on top of the “Lo Hei” for dinner, and that is another story all together.

I think the flu is healing, so is the stomach flu. I had lemon juice, red chilli, lotsa meat, chocolate cake, peanut butter, peanuts, creamy stuff, plenty of chinese tea, vinegar and blarblarblar in a single day. I ate like I have been starved for eons.

Of course, I wouldn’t know until tomorrow… if I have been truly, absolutely healed.

For one, I am finally off medication today, and that is off to a good start to my resolution for 2009!

Now.. I wonder what should my next read be. Hmm….

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I have a dream

January 17th, 2009 by admin

I had a dream last night, that was probably triggered by my last memory of reading Eclipse, which is probably the better of the 3 books I have gotten so far.

Anyway.

Without the usual mahjong session on a Friday night, I fell asleep at 10ish, before I could go on further with my reading.

It was 12ish when I woke up today, and I am hoping the good rest would perhaps get me through 2009 with good health.

With my plans to save up this year, I am reluctant to head out anywhere on a Saturday.

***

It was quite a Friday.

I had quite a detailed, yet traumatising medical check up. I could feel myself shivering and tensing up just before my turn.

The doctor was one of the most meticulous I have ever met. Her piercing questions and annoyance at my forgetfulness of bringing my IC kinda pushed my nervousness to a whole new height.

She was sharp when she said “That means you defaulted your follow up?” when I said I last had a pap smear done 5 years ago.

And as most people around me know, I react to hostility the same way it is served. I argued that there was no follow up set up, so it doesn’t mean I defaulted them.

And of course, it was one of the things that scare the shit out of me. Not the process, cos there is no pain. Just plenty of fear. Of what it reminds me of.

I have never met a doctor who is so… particular, yet it brought lotsa peace to me when most of the physical check turned out fine.

Now, it is just the wait for the results.

The last time I did a pap smear, it was a CIN III. Stage 3 precancer.

And somewhat I am in quite a denial over the past 6 years, because what you don’t know, doesn’t hurt.

Still, this time, it is for the insurance policy I wanna get for Minibean, and thus, biting the bullet is absolutely necessary.

I should give myself a pat on the shoulder for not backing out, for I very well would have done so.

And I am quite proud for not bursting out in tears.

Blocking things out of consciousness is something I have well-perfected over the years.

***

I went to a familiar place for a meeting yesterday. An intensive 3+ hour of QBR, which I strangely enjoyed.

I messaged my ex-colleagues only realised the guys I enjoyed either left, or were in KL for product launch.

And I ended up meeting up with Daniel(my designated cough, chauffeur during Toshiba days) to catch up with the goss.

Wah. What a lot of goss it was as we had dinner at the old Ginza plaza, somewhere I hadn’t been to since…. since.. since.. graduation from secondary school, and it was truly nostalgic. And, I bought something for wifey(please collect it from me on our next mahjong orgy).

Wah, really a lot of goss, and I feel ya brudder. Giggles.

Much had happened since 2008. Strangely, I felt my time in my new company is longer than I had stayed in Toshiba, though it isn’t true. But I guess I did “outstay” the estimation of “one, two months only”.

I was thinking to myself, I hope I will be able to change my password more often in my present company(since changing of passwords will signify a 3 month phase). I panicked a little when a colleague told me I don’t have the stamina that they need, and wah lau, knowing how paranoid I am….. Gonna exercise more, pop more vitamins to get there.

Anyway. I even managed to sweep the pack of ang baos from his car hahahahaha.

Eh, come to think of it, I am still eligible to take 2 ang baos for Minibean and myself this year. A privilege leh.

***

As we spoke and catch up, I remember the fact that I still have a dream.

Yet I am scared of realising it, for the fear of failure.

And it isn’t that practical either.

Still, I have a dream.

***

No plans for this weekend except doing some work and a gathering tomorrow evening.

And wanting to see more recent pictures of Minibean?

Stay tuned! :)

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Resolution for 2009

January 15th, 2009 by admin

I don’t usually make resolutions. I feel that they are there to make people feel a sense of failure when another chapter of their lives closes.

And of course, I ain’t a fan of new years. I always feel an urge to cry when I bade the old one goodbye.

But this year, I realise, I do have a resolution. It sprung up on me at almost 6am this morning, when even the help of cough syrup didn’t manage to lull me to sleep.

After the sharp pains to the tummy, the barfing, and a shivering, weak body.

I thought better already?!

I didn’t even eat a proper meal yesterday with the bad appetite, and I guess a bite of prosperity burger proves to be too much. Or maybe it was the small piece of birthday cake?

Anyway, for the first time ever, I am actually well aware of my priorities in life.

2009, to good health. Be safe. Be well.

Same to my family, and that’s all I am asking.

When you come to my age, then you realise, how important health is.

I thought 2008 was a year of bad health, and probably that’s because 2009 had not hit me yet.

I realise I want to be healthy. I used to think I will always recover, or that I can feel well enough to “tahan” through everything without the help of medication, and these days, my reliant on medication is so much stronger than I ever allow myself to be.

It is 2009, and I have been sick since the 1st day of 2009. Half a month have gone, and that means 1/24 of the year wasted by bad health. No good. :(

And perhaps, that’s why the rebel in me, didn’t act up(okay, fine, not that much anyway) when the doctors told me to avoid certain food.

I am exasperated that for one of the few times I do follow instructions, things don’t go my way.

Then again, things don’t usually go my way. :(

But really, God, I pray, that You will bless me with the good health, and good spirits I desire, and that I will be a better person than I could ever be, in 2009.

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