Archive for December, 2008

Morning thoughts

December 10th, 2008 by admin

One of the things that scares me, is the peak hour human traffic.

It always overwhelms me, and makes me find it hard to breathe. I get slightly disoriented, and sometimes, like yesterday, I will need to get off at some stop, sit down, before I black out.

Thus, I do things like texting or emailing to get my mind off the fear, looking for solace in my new phone which has serves me really well.

Like how I was actually badly traumatised watching Quarantine with B on Monday evening, and I quickly synch my phone to check work email while ‘listening’ to the movie.

I am such a wuss, I tell you. :(

Today’s train is really packed, perhaps the precise reason why I have my head bowed and typing furiously away.

I don’t know what to write about anymore.

Too many things happened too quickly and thus I can’t blog as fast to catch up.

I need space to blog but my thoughts are often lost in between when I could hardly find more space.

I caught up with CSI after missing out too many episodes this season. I only managed to catch up with CSI:Las Vegas, and had left CSI:Miami and New York untouched. So untypical of me.

Another reason I haven’t been blogging. I have been sleeping early these days. Even on weekends.

Even CSI can’t keep me awake when I dozed off midway through the show, and the only people… who mean enough for me to stay up and awake… are my Wifey, Bern and Lauren(yes you, my hottie).

I digress. I just decided to sit down on the train even though I am just two stops away cos I really find the jam-packed train too overwhelming. Giggles, I lug my new toy with me today! For no reason or whatsoever!

I was saying. I can only stay awake for mahjong.

But my stamina doesn’t bring me far cos my back hurts. I sound like a grumpy old lady now.

And like I said, I slept early over the long weekend, and even increased my weekdays’ usual 5 or 6 hours to 7 or 8 hours of sleep, but still not enough!

Perhaps it’s another infection that got me down again, sigh, but I don’t feel like I am at tip-toe condition, which is what I will need with most of my superiors going on leave soon.

And of course, there are other reasons I ain’t blogging as much. I tend to put more into thoughts these days when I need to blog because I have no idea which could be potentially sensitive, or which could potentially kill.

And that’s just the way it is.

I wish I could blog freely, again.

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My Canon

December 9th, 2008 by admin

Effy the wifey says I am a geek.

I insisted not.

Effy the wifey asks me to blog.

And being the henpecked wuss, I am now doing so, though I have absolutely no idea what to blog about while chomping down my already-chilled carbonara which was packed at 1pm.

I am no geek. I am hardly an IT-savvy person despite in… IT-related field(am I? Oh yeah huh…).

And I am no nerd, no geek.

Really.

Me monopolising her Alpha doesn’t mean anything.

Really.

Cos I have never been a Sony person, cos I think they are exorbitantly priced products, and I know my chemistry has always been with Canon.

Oh you mean you didn’t know?

My first digital camera is an IXUS v3, courtesy of the ex some Christmases ago.

And recently, I received a little surprise IXUS 85IS which has been nothing short of magnificent when we found out more and more of its functions at Prive, Keppel Bay last Saturday.

So imagine my absolute surprise(and utter glee and slight guilt…)…

… when my Christmas present came early this year.

And no, I am not a geek, even though I already been thinking of places to go to get better acquainted with it.

My first, ever, DSLR, which I know I will never have the heart to buy.

Thank you. Really. Thank you. :)

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SIBEI SUEY CHUI

December 5th, 2008 by admin

I must be the most cursed person you ever known, you know?

Anyway, minutes ago, my boss asked if I had picked a name for the mystery gift exchange, I gave him the most confused look ever, before I remember the Christmas luncheon we gonna have in 2 weeks’ time.

We are supposed to pick names out of a small basket, and whoever we pick, we have to buy a gift for. Budget is 20 bucks.

Just before I picked, I joked, “Okay, hopefully I get someone, you know, with not-so-expensive taste, perhaps someone neutral, and hopefully junior level.”

But I am as junior as it can get, so I was hoping for some other newbie, or someone with a sense of humor, you get the drift?

Like that, then people won’t judge you for your taste, you see.

I was telling my Effy wifey, “but you know sometimes people can buy something and u will be like : wow good gift for 20 bucks, very nice”

Scarlett Ting says:

then some people 20 bucks’ gift will be like : err duhhhh
 

 

Most of the time, I am “err duhhhh”.

I picked the most innocuous looking of the lot, sitting prettily in the middle of the basket.

The bright yellow piece of paper was rolled up, wth a pretty gold ribbon tying around it. I tried to tug the tightly-wound ribbon off, and it took a little effort before it finally let loose.

When I opened up the scroll… you could almost hear me curse “Fu…….. !!!”

“Can I change? Like pppuurrrrrrrllllllllllleeeeeeeesssssssssssseeeeeeeeeeee???” I begged the lady with the basket.

After stamping my feet on the ground, manja-ing for a full minute, and sulking really badly(gee, things I learn from Minibean!)…… my attempt was obviously futile.

No surprises, like every other dramatic things in my life, I got the extreme other end of what I wished for.

Almost 30 other people, you know, and my hand got this lucky or not? Last time when I was younger, the 4D numbers I picked for my mum also not so “zun”(accurate).

It was more of the suey chui that got to me than the fact I had to buy gift for said “other extreme”.

Oh well, any idea where to get the cheapest, kinkiest pair of boxers around?

Yes, my budget is 20 bucks, thank you very much.

I could perhaps get some “special vouchers” done for “one time service” only(thank you wifey for the fabulous idea), but sadly, 20 bucks can only buy 1 second of my brilliant service.

Don’t ever underestimate 1 second. Much can happen within a split second, you know?

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Happy 2nd birthday, Minibean

December 2nd, 2008 by admin

At the rate this is going, I could be blogging about how she is fretting which boy’s heart she is gonna break.

Happy 2nd birthday, my little precious one…

You came along, changed my life, in a way I would never imagine.

Yes, they don’t call “terror twos” for nothing, and that shall train my patience a little as I battle with your stubbornness and tantrums.

Sometimes you may look on to me with resentment when I discipline you… and though it pains me lots, but it doesn’t stop me from loving you.

I will love you more everyday, and hopefully, one day, be the mum you can be proud of.

Happy birthday, my child.

For everything that is to come in the future, when you look back, I hope you realise how loved you are.

And you are indeed, blessed.

Sorry that you greeted your birthday with a little smack to the hand.

And I still remember how 2 years ago today… my water broke and I waddled to the hospital in a cab by myself, wondering how you would look like… wondering how I would cope with ya… and with plenty of uncertainties in the path.

And always remember, whatever doubts I had back then, were cleared the moment you this bundle of purple mess popped out of my very sore you-know-where.

You may not know, but you are the very one, who taught me how to live.

You also taught me, to see the beauty in people. Every year this day, without fail, I will remember everyone who has been part of the journey to the time she was born.. to this very day.

Like I had said, some of them are still around, some of them are no longer so, but that doesn’t mean they love you any less. Mummy still would like to say a big thank-you to all of them.

Always remember, Mummy loves you. Very, very, much.

So do many others.

And one day, I hope you will be someone who knows how to love generously and fearlessly.

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December

December 1st, 2008 by admin

I have always loved December.

There is something about the weather, the people, the.. I don’t know.. it just makes me feel all cosy and closer to people.

Maybe people slow their paces, and are more generous and lenient… since it’s the holiday seasons.

And of cos, the fact that Minibean is a December baby, kinda makes the month all the more special.

I was frankly appalled when I realised it is 1st December today.

Somehow, somewhat, I was afraid of this year ending too soon.

And she will be turning 2 tomorrow.

And yes, laughs, no longer a baby, though always one in my eyes.

For the next 30 days + today, I shall live life, since 2008 has held so much meaning, so much memories of affinity and spontaneity…  and so much .. love(?).

It was as if I went on a little adventure of my own, without a destination in mind, and here I am, getting much more than I would ever asked for.

It is a year to remember. Through the pain, the tears, the coldness, the exasperation… I shall not forget how it has been one of most amazing years for me. Maybe not so for some, but in contrast to a depressing 2007, it certainly sparkled.

December… a month of rain and cold, perfect for cuddles.

Alas, this year, I don’t crave for cuddles, but just in need of some quietness and peace, so I can live and breathe for, and on, my own.

***

I was redundant at the dinner yesterday and my evening could have been better spent.

But somehow it was not as bad as I had anticipated it to be, as much as I normally felt out of place at such events.

Nonetheless, I was pretty impressed with how the number of youths involved had increased significantly, for sometimes I do feel what a pity it would be would such cultural clans dwindle and… disappear. And I think to myself, how is it possible to reconcile different generations together to make things work.

Sometimes, it is pretty amazing to sit through the event, just to see, to watch, the comradeship that binds our fathers together, and realise there is so much more, for us, to learn.

Sadly, many of us, never do.

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