One of the things that scares me, is the peak hour human traffic.

It always overwhelms me, and makes me find it hard to breathe. I get slightly disoriented, and sometimes, like yesterday, I will need to get off at some stop, sit down, before I black out.

Thus, I do things like texting or emailing to get my mind off the fear, looking for solace in my new phone which has serves me really well.

Like how I was actually badly traumatised watching Quarantine with B on Monday evening, and I quickly synch my phone to check work email while ‘listening’ to the movie.

I am such a wuss, I tell you.

Today’s train is really packed, perhaps the precise reason why I have my head bowed and typing furiously away.

I don’t know what to write about anymore.

Too many things happened too quickly and thus I can’t blog as fast to catch up.

I need space to blog but my thoughts are often lost in between when I could hardly find more space.

I caught up with CSI after missing out too many episodes this season. I only managed to catch up with CSI:Las Vegas, and had left CSI:Miami and New York untouched. So untypical of me.

Another reason I haven’t been blogging. I have been sleeping early these days. Even on weekends.

Even CSI can’t keep me awake when I dozed off midway through the show, and the only people… who mean enough for me to stay up and awake… are my Wifey, Bern and Lauren(yes you, my hottie).

I digress. I just decided to sit down on the train even though I am just two stops away cos I really find the jam-packed train too overwhelming. Giggles, I lug my new toy with me today! For no reason or whatsoever!

I was saying. I can only stay awake for mahjong.

But my stamina doesn’t bring me far cos my back hurts. I sound like a grumpy old lady now.

And like I said, I slept early over the long weekend, and even increased my weekdays’ usual 5 or 6 hours to 7 or 8 hours of sleep, but still not enough!

Perhaps it’s another infection that got me down again, sigh, but I don’t feel like I am at tip-toe condition, which is what I will need with most of my superiors going on leave soon.

And of course, there are other reasons I ain’t blogging as much. I tend to put more into thoughts these days when I need to blog because I have no idea which could be potentially sensitive, or which could potentially kill.

And that’s just the way it is.

I wish I could blog freely, again.