I have yet to try blogging from the phone cos I deem it too much of a hassle, yet I did not fully recognise its full potential… Well, that is until this morning.

I struggled to wake up this morning. Possibly from a dose of medication(yes, I am still popping pills. Arghhh!), or simply, the weather.

A cynical reason might be… I think sleeping is a brilliant way to detach ourselves from reality.

I didn’t wake up seeing things clearer today. I walked to the train station with that same shortness of breath.

I signed a pact with the devil. I might one day live to regret. But for now, for my peace, like I said, hell, I could even betray my soul.

But with the grip loosening, I felt the hands off my neck, and I could… start feeling a charge of oxygen. Just what I need.

Till then, till then.

Like I said, I don’t need to be happy. I can live with unhappiness for the rest of my life for all I care. You can’t make a person who doesn’t want to be happy, happy, try as you might. Even if you might think otherwise.

I think it is a karmic response. For all the glee and giggles I had, there sure is a bigger price to pay. For the extreme highs, the extreme lows will come.

Will you give up a lifetime of happiness for just say, 2 months of possibly the time of your life? People say we live for the experience. But, really? At what price?

Time is not on my side, yet it is all I have.

And strangely, a morning post isn’t supposed to be like this. I had wanted to say how great it is to not to make struggling to keep my balance on the train while yawning away and people-watching my only time-filler in the train.

I went into the tunnel with my radio cut off as I started blogging, and now, I am reaching my office(Hey, I just saw Dick Su! Okay, he was the emcee to a Toshiba event before I left), though I am still typing furiously in the lift. Ahh, I nearly went out one floor short.

Well, that was probably all I could manage from the time I started, reaching my destination stop, and walking in the midst of the horrifying crowd…. till the time I finally reached the door to my office.

I spent 2 train-stops time detangling the headset wire. I then spent some time listening to the radio. I also managed to blog-surf. Then I started blogging as I played MP3 on my phone, just when the train entered the tunnel.

It was so thoroughly occupied that I can’t recall walking the long way to the office-building.

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Such a pretty morning. Such pretty weather.

It is easy to get lost in it.