Archive for November 12th, 2008

Airless

November 12th, 2008 by admin

I need oxygen.

I feel lightheaded from the lack of air.

I want to breathe.. yet I am gasping.

It started with lotsa sun. Then came the clouds. Then came the thunder. Then came the rain.

I stood in the rain for a while.

I went to this floor where I could overlook the streets, still feeling the raindrops coming down. Lots, lots, lots of morbid thoughts, as I stood a step up to the little platform where I could see the world down there a little closer.

The vision of it was blurred by the rain.

I was there just moments earlier.

I still couldn’t breathe.

Are we really given choices when people want us to make a choice?

I am drained. I am exhausted, really.

The pain crept up the back of my head again.

I think, it is even possible to betray my soul just to find momentary peace.

Well, no one wants to spare a thought, no one wants to give a little space, right?

Of course, they never think about giving that bit of respect.

Not even on a weekday. A busy weekday.

Maybe, misery loves company.

They can’t be happy, so can’t you.

It’s okay. I can deal with being unhappy.

I can deal with that little air.

Let the life seeps away from you, and you don’t need that much to begin with.

And the aching in the chest? It won’t happen anymore once you stop giving life to it.

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Love of my life

November 12th, 2008 by admin

There are days when going gets tough.

And there are days when it gets a little dark, a little bleak.

And there are days when you get angry with the world. Like how I was trying to compose a quick post during lunch time but the internet connection gave me shite.

I haven’t been doing this for the longest time, but this is one picture I really love, and I am beaming with excitement when I want to post this up.

The love of my life.

She was snuggled up in bed with me last night, quietly. I thought she had fallen asleep.

I stroked her hair, touched her smooth skin, and caressed her face.

I didn’t manage to kiss her though, cos she was lying on my tummy, a place she must have been darn familiar with.

And man, it has almost been 2 years.

And yes, she is turning 2, -gasp!-, soon.

And then I keep remembering the people, the faces, the help…

Some of you are still here, some of you no longer so, some of you.. shrugs.

But all in all, everytime I see her, I can’t help but feel amazed.

And you wonder how is it ever possible for one’s heart to melt everytime he/she sees someone. I didn’t know it is possible, you know.

No matter who you are, where you are. Thank you. For this gorgeous, wonderful chick will not be possible, if not for you.

Hello, from Minibean.

Running in the garden, playing with her favourite – Bubbles.

And yes, it has been a while :)

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