Archive for October, 2008

I am a simple girl

Scarlett Ting says:

i just want to be mj wifey and safely tucked away in a small flat in -insert effy’s address-, cooking in the kitchen, feeeding ang moh housemates with durians and play Guitar Hero on the Xbox360 and… a game of mahjong with whoever we chose to bestow the privilege to.while my wifey serve me a glass of iced ribena after a long jog from my place to hers.

 

Hurhurhur.

In a conversation with my colleague, who is someone whom I look upon as a mentor today, the book-reader(he reads people like a book, and I wanted to die when he said he could read me like a book) said, “I am not afraid you make the same mistakes. I don’t think you will cos you are too paranoid.”

I reacted with widened eyes, and sheepish giggles, “Paranoid?! What?! Me?!”

Yah, then it hit me.

I am just a paranoid freak.

I swear I could have cringed and slid down the chair as he evaluated me. Brutal honesty brings me back to planet earth, and I SM-ly like it.

And I have another revelation of the day, and it is just cool to have people whom you can *thumps chest* to.

And then I wonder, am I really like what they say, that I have been left to my own defenses for far too long, and it has become my 2nd nature.

Subconsciously, I might not have wanted it any other way.

Maybe it is the survival instinct kicking in.

Maybe it is the black crayon clenched tightly in my palms(did I mention Minibean took a black crayon and doodled happily recently. 4 pieces of masterpiece came out of it, and she needed a shower thereafter. She was happy).

Maybe it is the Angels and Demons burning inside of us.

We wondered what is wrong with us. And then we cheekily deduced we are… flawed in one way. The way I once blogged that we are.

Mahjong kakis will know. ;)

And isn’t it easy to suddenly.. *poof* and you leave behind a trail of questions you need not give answers for?

Cos sometimes, when I am looking for answers, many people fail to realise I myself, is incapable of giving any.

I wouldn’t be searching, if I can give the answers.

***

Song of the moment:

Come out upon my seas, curse missed opportunities (am I)
A part of the cure, or am I part of the disease (singing)

ASOS dresses!

Just a quick one.

I love online shopping! Maybe because I don’t really enjoy strutting down town and scootering in and out of shops these days.

My ASOS dresses are here(Thanks May!), and I ripped their packaging open when I was in the midst of rushing some stuff, and threw them on.

All fit fine, and I love, love them!

So I am happy.

But er, I don’t really need dresses nowadays, do I? Oh well, I guess it doesn’t really matter, does it? There can always be “feel good” days when I need them.

So I am heading back figuring unfamiliar things out, and try to work some things out.

Why ah? Why am I such an airhead ah? Tsk.

And my baby knows how to use chopsticks! She cries “Mama carry” non-stop today, and is super manja and teyh.

I swear she didn’t get that from me.

She…

I held her in my arms today as she fell asleep, almost reluctant to put her down on the bed, just to cuddle her a little more.

She has grown to such a lady.

She can sing. She can dance. She can speak. She can draw(she is creative!). She laughs. She smiles. She makes everyone happy. She’s athletic. She’s smart. She has good memory. She is everything I can ever hope I am.

She is innocent.

She is beautiful.

Just a tad clumsy.

And looking at her, everything comes to a standstill.

The choosy pill-popper

Since last Wednesday, the start of my trip, I have popped every kind of pills thinkable.

Then ah, on Thursday, I got myself some allergy reaction from possibly one of ‘em pills(I wonder which one huh).

So on Friday, I got prescribed another 2 potent drugs, which I picked up from TTSH over lunchtime.

“One of this will probably be very strong, and you probably will be knocked out.”

“What? But I gotta work! And I am already in too much of a daze. I don’t think I can survive this.”

Thank God I didn’t take that cos I was almost in too much a daze that afternoon during a meeting. And I have felt like I was stoned for the entire week. I couldn’t seem to find my reality.

“And this, is also pretty potent. Uhm… you might find an increase in appetite and you might become somewhat hyper.. and a little looney.”

“WHAT?! Increase in appetite?! Okay, can I skip this then?”

I didn’t. And I have not stopped complaining how hungry I am for the whole of today.

And I stuffed myself silly over dinner, where I ended up being breathless from the ceaseless eating.

I am onto my 6th day of antibiotics, my finger which looked set to heal, apparently decided to be painful today.

Bah!

And it has to be the finger I camwhore with.

Mama Mia!

I love Pierce Brosnan. He’s so freaking hot. So hot that I think he sang so well in Mama Mia(don’t you dare to disagree, I only stared into his pitless blue eyes and wondered how could a man be this cute).

My decade long crush on him says something.

Mama Mia was fabulous.

I felt a slight twitch as Meryl Streep launched into The Winner Takes It All.

***

Finally back in office on Monday, feeling like the world was turning upside down, and the building was swaying. I walked everywhere feeling like I was on a boat.

It was a busy day at work with everything moving at such a great pace I could hardly catch up. It didn’t help I was away for 5 days of bliss and be thrown back at a pace right at the other extreme.

I walked around the building and Raffles Place like a drunk. I was walking into things and doors, simply cos I was feeling as if I was walking on air.

It didn’t help that consistent phone calls came in at around 5ish when I was out there with my boss, checking out our retail front.

I was greatly annoyed. I was having so much peace(well, most of the time, I get to hear myself breathe.. something I haven’t been doing well) from the 5 days that…. all these bugging were starting to get on my nerves.

I can’t wait for the next dive trip already.

My 90 year-old grandmother had a fall, which made all of us worried. And of course, it didn’t help the already very grouchy me.

Did I mention my notebook crashed on me in the morning just before I had a meeting? So basically I couldn’t do my work till it was afternoon. And by then, the amount of catching up, was obscene.

WT picked me up for a quick dinner and we headed to Bishan for Din Tai Fung. I love egg fried rice!!

My finger is still fat from the coral cut, but is making great progress.

You know ah, what is the advantage of having a friend who can prescribe you medication(albeit ANYHOWLY sometimes)?

It is very handy especially when you are a klutz like me, who tends to injure myself, and suddenly the “kiasu” medication pack is no longer a joke but a saviour.

You want painkiller, got painkiller. You want antibiotics, got antibiotics. You want muscle relaxant, got muscle relaxant. You want clarinase, got clarinase. You want for allergy one.. also got!

Which was ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL I took during my Tioman/Dayang trip.

The Dayang trip also saw that my finger was well taken care of, with 2nd, and 3rd opinion, who even followed up post trip (CW messaged WT “How is chio bu’s finger?” Wahahaha of course, chio bu is ME, and it is an internal joke. Hokkien joke. I can speak Hokkien!)

I had conveniently left my pack of Augmentin and Ponstan on the table before I left for work on Monday, when I returned from work, it was nowhere to be found. Trying to ask my mum was like asking for it, and it didn’t turn up anywhere. Not even in my bag(that’s another story altogether).

So. Mystery of the missing pills.

I had to forgo it after my dinner, and missed a day of dosage.

But someone was nice enough to head back to his workplace on his morning off to get me more antibiotics(gasp!), with special delivery to CBD area. Tsk tsk.

Carry on like this, maybe next time in emergency need of Postinor2, can also squeeze a prescription in the middle of the night hor?

All of us(the Tioman dive kakis) then met at OUB centre for lunch before we all went back to work as we split at different junctions at Raffles Place.

***

Got a lift on my way home and we headed to watch Mama Mia at Jurong.

And Pierce Brosnan is so freaking hot. I just have to say it again.

He sings pretty good. Really(I am in denial, seriously).

***

It was all because of a stupid lanyard.

I had reached home at 9 ish and spending time with Minibean when I was informed I had left my access card behind(duh, some busybody decided to have a good look at it and placed it together with his card which we both conveniently forgot).

I was already in the showers and had to rush down to pick it up with dripping wet hair.

And because of that, I am now in a debt of $4. Hurhur.

Tsk tsk.

***

Well, things are returning back to normalcy today. Though I don’t remember leaving my seat till 6pm, which pretty much delayed my trip to the pharmacy.

***

Sometimes, we have to lose some, to gain some.

But when do we know what we should lose, to gain what?

And how do we know, which to lose?

I don’t know all that well anymore.

Back from Tioman and Dayang

I am back after 5 days away from reality.

Come to think of it, it is the longest holiday and break I have had since my return from UK.

And boy, what an enjoyable, awesome trip it was.

I brought along with me lotsa memories, and surviving an incident-filled trip, which proves nothing but the fact that I am indeed a walking disaster.

I finally did what I always wanted to do.

And I love, love it.

I am still a bit woozy from the trip, and I ain’t sure if I have the time to get down to blogging all about it.

And I am glad, as I embarked on a trip to search for that lost part of me, I caught a glimpse of me returning.

I was actually… happy.

I was actually, happy with myself.

What a trip, what a trip.

Love from Tioman

A much needed trip is finally fulfilled.

The sand, the sun, the sea…. and the pool. As I check my work email in the evening breeze, with lazy, yet beautiful music playing in the background… I am just glad I have this break.

Suddenly I can breathe easier.

Maybe this temporary escape is a breath of fresh air, and learning to breath again, is what I need to do.

 

I am loving it. I sometimes resent the thought of having a holiday, cos I thought being away from reality is a hard thing to do.

Maybe, just maybe, it is what I need right now.

Today, the instructor told us we were the best and fastest students she had this year.

I was pretty afraid the usual doofus in me is going to be a mess, but thankfully everything went well.

Can’t wait for tomorrow, when I will finally get my PADI open water diving course completed.

And I am just glad to be here :)