My mum just went mad

She just cursed that she hopes I will run down by a car.

Get hit when I am on a bike.

Get strike by thunder.

She says she will disown me.

She says she is going to jump down.

She says she will call up the newspaper and television to tell people what I did to her(???), like seriously? All because she is sore cos SHE THINKS I treat the maid better than her.

She says she is going to my office tomorrow to tell the whole world I am useless, lazy, dirty, and irresponsible mum.

Er, though I don’t know how she does that all the same time.

Anyway.

She went into a rage I find so familiar. It seems like I am 16 all over again, the very reason why I know I cannot live with her.

And. She did it in front of my child, something I cannot accept.

I went into my room, and called my auntie, her sister, for help.

I let years of grievances out and let her hear the side of story of what she used to tell people, where she conveniently left out how I was abused by her.

She also used to tell people how useless and naughty I am, when I was a child, the only thing I did was actually, to be never good enough.

Today is the day I regret ever letting her taking care of Minibean. And I am going to change it, at this moment.

And I did what I didn’t do in the past. I broke down and cried, and not let defiance take over.

Strangely, I am smiling and singing to my daughter at the same time to keep her occupied.

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5 Responses to “My mum just went mad”

  1. Sparky says:

    that sucks… hang in there! u’re a great mom don’t worry.

  2. elyn says:

    Ignore your mum and just put your attention on minibean..

  3. kepo says:

    the history will repeat itself, u do this to ur mum, minibean will do it to u…and so on. If u r so capable, at the beginning, u should have taken care of minibean urself or have her sent to someone u can trust (if u cannot trust ur own mum). Don’t come now to say that u r so regretful that u let her take care of minibean, as if u have a choice, try to think for ur mum for a moment, wht u have brought her into? i dunno, for those who think u r a great mum, r they a mother themselves to understand wht takes to be a mum? And poor minibean, u brought her to the world and wht can u provide her if it’s not your parents to be there all this while?

  4. kepo, of course, everything from you makes perfect sense :)

    makes so much sense that i am considering of quitting my job tomorrow. makes so much sense that, i do not understand why locking myself in a room when she is abusive to my dad first(who was watching television), then because i was ignoring her curses, she started it.

    of course, it makes perfect sense if minibean does that to me, of what i do to my mother (??).

    of course, it makes perfect sense that all working couples are pretty useless, cos when they bring their children into the world, all they rely on is help and their parents.

    of course, of course.

  5. angel says:

    kepo, u should just stfu really. u don’t know anything and u are nobody to make comments on ting. and for ur question, on whether we are a mom ourselves to understand what it takes to be a mum? well we don’t. but do you really have to be a mum to judge whether others are a good mother?

    who are we to judge in the first place?

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