On Sunday night, I thought I max out a side of me.

So.

I was going to stop trying.

Strangest thing was, while I stopped trying in one aspect, I was trying to walk closer in another.

However, whenever I took one step forward, I will turn around and take another 2 steps.

So come to think of it, I am heading nowhere.

***

A total redundant piece of information.

I caused someone to have a hard on. Without touching/flirting/doing anything.

It was freaking funny I tell ya.

And apparently, it wasn’t the first time it happened.

Muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

***

I am pretty much tired since I was trying my darnest best to complete this post. I wasn’t even half way through when I did fall asleep.

I woke up yesterday morning to more shoutings, and I didn’t grab much rest either.

Mum was cooking lunch(oh wow. A first in a long while) and I went to the kitchen to make myself a tea.

I started telling her in the nicest possible way(I can be sweet sometimes you know?) that she should try to tame her shoutings cos it will just make Minibean learn all the wrong things.

The little one?

She just sat down on the floor next to the bathroom and watched as I brushed my teeth. Quietly.

I turned and looked at her, and she flashed me the brightest grin to start my day.

After lunch, I probably made her hate me very much with a trip to the PD for 2 vaccination jabs.

I decided to bring Mum along so she could be the “baddie” this time round. Heh heh heh.

***

20th January 2008

If I have to start my recap backdated to so far back, it is not going to be a very short post.

Anyway, it was the day when we mistakenly headed to Balestier when it was actually at another location. Such a big boo boo and the 20 minutes trip turned into an almost 2 hours trip with the to and fro, plus the errands-running.

But Minibean had a field day.

13 months old Minibean loves combing her hair.

And she pooped in the toilet.

It was her time over with grandma in tow.

So the best part was when grandma was no longer around.

Yay!

Hmm Mummy, something’s not quite right. I think we are supposed to head to Auntie FF’s…

On our way to Balestier.

Gasp! I have a rude baby!

Over at Effy’s, when she relentlessly dug for stuff from my bag, when she wasn’t ogling at Effy’s German housemate. Yes yes, I know how badly she needs a proper haircut. I heard from my mum she did go for a proper haircut and the hairdresser even took a picture with Minibean.

Finally ending the night, with Mama taking Minibean for a walk and packing dinner for grandma. Chilling by the pool wasn’t quite a good idea if you don’t want to become mozzy’s supper.

***

21st January 2008

Well, who can forget the day when I made an enemy in the estate?

Did I mention how I was going out yesterday afternoon and I saw the same note returning again?

Nonetheless, I had spent some time with Minibean before Uncle Keith picked me up and then picked FF up nearby.

Suddenly I realise our expressions are pretty matching in the pictures we took.

We are both smiley.

Grin, baby!

Pout, baby, pout.

And baby in the adorable Ralph Lauren gear Mummy bought.

I think she looks gorgeous in white.

It was FF’s blind date night and we all had dinner at Millenia Walk.

Mahjong. Supper. Home.

***

22nd January 2008

Minibean is happy to pose for camera.

I was having supper near my place after watching Dan in real life(not too bad a show, really) when I bumped into.. surprise surprise… my daughter, who was coincidentally having supper with her grandparents.

Yah, I do look kinda scary without makeup and I wonder how she looks gorgeous despite being her natural, sweaty self. Heh.

***

23rd January 2008

My baby just before she headed back to Malaysia with my parents.

I think she doesn’t like Mummy that much.

So, Mambo didn’t happen after we shopped much of Great World City and we ended up playing mahjong again. Heh.

Supper of Bak Kut Teh. It was off to home.

***

27th January 2008

Baby was back again!

She now loves to strut around the house with a bag. Very hiao.

I was up early to have lunch with the girlies at Novena Square before we went to visit poor Sherry who broke her arm.

We walked out of the ward before we headed back in again for photo-taking. We are pretty hardcore, and we are well aware of it.

Get well soon, babe!

I went back home by train to pick up Minibean, and I think she has eyes for this particular male model…

Nice choice, baby.

We then headed down to Plaza Singapura by train(whee! It was drizzling somemore!).

The many expressions of Minibean on the train, in her pram.

She entertained herself pretty well on the train, kicking other train-users, and I had to smile and apologise profusely to the very nice people who would smile and assure me it was okay(maybe they were having mental bubbles with rude words but I really didn’t have to know that).

And the cheeky on decided to get her hands on some smelly recruit’s backpack.

I nearly flipped her pram over whilst she was still in it when I finally got to the right floor at Dhoby Ghaut station (considering how I once dropped a wheelchair down the escalator….)

Eventually, I had to ask a passer-by to help as I pivoted the pram with my legs(lovely blue-blacks they make!) after 3 thousand people walked past without lending a hand.

I headed up the escalator with her in my arms and made it to the mall! Yay.

Auntie JD doing her nails.

And we went to look for her.

Uncle Keith pampering her.

And Auntie FF and Uncle Keith put her on a leash.

It would be the first time I walked her around the mall. So excited!

She was so happy can? I held her hand and we shopped!

I took a couple of videos of her and she was just total cuteness.

As she roamed in the mall, “walked” by Auntie FF, that was when, she was being picked up by Donavan Lee.

Who appeared out of nowhere to give her a tight, sweet hug.

I went Awwwwww at the sight and he was such a pretty boy(trust me, this picture doesn’t do him justice!). So charming, and looks a little Eurasian in person.

Minibean just smiled and smiled, and leaned on his tall shoulder.

Their Mills and Boon moment.

Yes, that’s the leash Auntie FF got from Japan for her.

Thanks Auntie Effy!

After Minibean had her fun, she turned her back and leave.

What can I say? It’s all in the genes baby.

We headed to Crystal Jade for dinner thought most of them didn’t eat.

But Minibean was one happy baby who was fed by Auntie JD.

That Cheshire cat grin. Heh heh heh.

We ended up at FF’s place for mahjong again, before I sent baby back for bedtime and met Jeremy for supper with Uncle Keith.

***

31st January 2008

Baby napping with me.

Stayed home with baby and spent lotsa quality time together without the parents around.

Until they were back around midnight.

And I snuck out for a little topless ride.

It was a pretty night and we ended up at East Coast before we had breakfast at Taman Jurong.

We were cruising along until we saw the ferris wheel with pretty lights(why the colours so gay?).

It was fascinating nonetheless.

Maybe I should finally get my arse moving and get my driving license and terrorise other roadusers.

Marina Bay.

***

1st February 2008

It was a nice Friday where I travelled all over Singapore.

My baby and I before I headed out to meet my ex-schoolmate Felicia.It was a pretty nice day

I even met up with Auntie JD and the gorgeous Bella.

And I bumped into Peishan. And I bumped into her again on New Year’s Eve. I bumped into her everywhere! Balaclava, Zouk, Velvet, and even Live Impact.

It was such a chilly night.

I watched The Mist and I was one angry person.

***

2nd February 2008

Just spending time with the impish one.

Who loves to wear my clothes.Fights for my phone.
And tussles for my wallet.

Of course, she pulls my heartstrings too.

***

5th February 2008

It was girls’ night out!

It was pretty Vivocity where we had Hoggies and caught a movie together!

They didn’t want to take pictures with me!

I wanted to take pictures to show off my very straight hair.

And of the night view.

With Thomas, who probably is the coolest housemate around(sorry Thomas, Max takes the hottest housemate award).Camwhore.

My Maria with very big boobs.

And I am very inferior about mine.

If we ever get stranded on an island…. her one boob can last me for 3 days and I could probably not even last her a meal.

My loveliest girlies.

And us being really silly.

We caught 27 dresses and now I wish all my friends are gonna get married and make me the bridesmaid!

I started having really warped ideas of being bridesmaid for guys I had dated before, but I really doubt they are keen on that idea.

I went “Awww…” in the cinema so loudly that my girlies disowned me as friend.

It was an early conclusion to the evening as baby was coming back the next morning and it was a nice night out with good food.

Though my steak was really too rare for me.

But whee, we got discount.

***

6th February 2008

And then, it was reunion dinner day.

The morning started positively with Minibean back!

And then I dressed her up to go out visiting.

I just thought she looks so cute trying to stand up while pretending to talk on the phone.

And how she loves exploring what’s inside my bag. Sometimes I thought how she would fit into the bag nicely too.She is becoming so active that it is almost hard to make her sit still.
Remember what I said about her expressions matching mine?

My cutie.

Who fell asleep when we were out after running about the entire afternoon.

I brought her back to my parents who took her to the reunion dinner I managed to opt out of.

I spent the night munching pineapple tarts, love letters, and stayed very starved.

I was so freaking bored that I…. I… I…

… ended up at Mambo!

Woohoo! My first Mambo since last May.

With Jeremy and his friends before we headed in.

Alan and I. Listening to his stories was pretty hilarious.

I see boobs! She is one hellava interesting lady.Charlene and I.

Daisy!

Melvin.

Daisy, Melvin and I.

The night crawled to a slow start. I bumped into Kiat whom I knew on my first trip to Zouk in 1999. November.

I also bumped into Joyce, my secondary school classmate.

And many other people I haven’t seen for ages.

My all-time favourite bouncer

Hot babe Evie.

Another hot babe, Linna.

Uncle Keith, who left early in search of his Thai beauty queens.

Finally heading home after a long night of partying(or rather, catching up with friends).

Whee.. It was finally Chinese New Year, and it was really nothing to shout about.

Damn. My keyboard is freaking cranky now and I wonder if I had typed too much.

***

7th February 2008

The first day of Chinese New Year started with me greeting my parents, and giving my baby a big hug.

We sat down for a meal together, and it was nice that Mum was cooking.

I can’t remember the last time we sat down to have a home-cooked meal together, and it was much missed.

I had a long nap when parents were out visiting, and only woken up to head out for a small gambling session which saw our pulses racing when our pot went up to $1500 playing “In between”.

It was cool, though they decided they WILL ban me from the gambling table next year. I didn’t win, but I guess it was no fun having someone who “predicted” cards too well. Like, you wish your rivals get Ace, and they really do get an Ace. It happened once too often that they had branded me “not a human”.

So unkind on New Year’s Day!

I got home and stayed up till Minibean and parents were heading out of home for my mum’s hometown at around 5.30am.

I laid down next to a sleeping Minibean and just kissed her before I woke her up and gave her milk.

I made coffee for my parents, chatted to them a little, before sending them out.

The house was back to its quietness again.

***
8th February 2008

I didn’t wake till it was in the evening.

In fact, for Friday and Saturday, I slept for 12 hours each day.

It was good rest. I finally finished my 3rd season of Sex and the City.

After some really boring attempt to gamble on Friday night(no one dared to take another risk like the night before!), we ended up catching PS I love you.

I cried and cried and cried from beginning even though it was pretty much nothing too emotionally overwhelming.

I am such a wuss.

It was a nice show, and don’t write it off as a chick-flick.

Now, I really want to find myself a cool, sweet Irish man.

*Sniff*

***

9th February 2008

Was utterly bored and slept till late.

I left home for Sherry’s to teach the girlies how to play mahjong.

We didn’t really play much cos they were too engross with Edison Chen’s scandalous pictures(What’s wrong with HK girls? Do they ever shave/trim/wax?).

And since I was heading out thereafter, Sherry had kindly loaned her dress to me.

The back of it.

And ahem, yes, that’s the front of it.

Anyway.

Jasmine very nicely dropped me off at Tanglin where I joined the guys for poker for a while before Joce asked me along to Zouk for Above and Beyond.

Woohoo! It was so much fun that night and everyone was pretty high.

The music was awesome man.

And of course, the company was better

And I was sober throughout.

Sharon was there too, and we danced together most of the night.

The very gorgeous Sonia with Evangeline. They both disappeared after a while…

Sara Ann.

Ian.

Jeremy.

Evie.

Joanne.

The crowd.

And of course, Daisy who as usual, wouldn’t miss Zouk on such a night.

Ben. He is NOT gay.

Paikia Leo!

Gerald and Leo.

All thanks to Gerald, we had a Lychee Martini each. The amazing part is, I actually downed the entire drink and I didn’t get sloshed!

It was 5.30am when the lights came on.

I received a lengthy call which I wish I didn’t.

Sometimes, I just don’t… understand.

***

10th February 2008

I got home and it wasn’t too long before it was daylight again.

I slept for only an hour before I was woken up and fed Minibean.

She didn’t want to go back to sleep and it was incredibly funny watching her.

She was sitting in her cot and she started dozing off, while still sitting up, holding her pillow!

Absolute cuteness can?

Finally she succumbed to the snoozebug after trying to keep her balance whilst sitting, and ended up falling over with her head on her baby pillow.

The sweetest sight ever.

Woke up and brought her to IMM for lunch, where I was chasing her around the mall, just to make sure she didn’t rob the shops.

She was very happy.

So was I It was a nice day out. Just us.

She nearly had a ladder falling on her when she grabbed it and the realisation how fast my reflexes CAN BE surprised me. And she loves searching for power switches to flick, and my reaction time has been pretty much record-breaking.

When we reached home, Mum was back at the same time.

Mahjong session was cancelled, and I stayed home trying to finish this entry, which.. I am still struggling to do so.

***

11th February 2008

Brought her to NUH for her checkup.

She wailed badly when she had a jab on each arm. Poor cutie pie

She was happy before she was heading out with Mummy dressing her up and putting her in her new shoes which she hasn’t quite gotten used to.

In fact, she had preferred them in her mouth than on her feet.

Nonetheless, she looked absolutely cute in them(The pair on her feet and the one in her hands are her new shoes!).

The doctor was measuring her weight and height, and she is slightly below the lower percentile, but is of good proportions. Though the doctor did mention something about her head being a little bigger.

I turned to baby and started saying “Gee baby! You are like a lollipop!”

She charmed everyone at the hospital, and was staring at some ang mor for the longest time(some Daddy who took his daughter to the PD), with a smile and looking totally mesmerised.

She even went up to boys who were sitting down to grin and smile at them, trying to befriend them by putting her hands on their knees.

She even stroked this little girl’s face affectionately, surprising me even cos I had expected her to be really clueless and might end up hurting someone else.

She tried reaching out for the hands of other kids, and I just hope it is her way of showing love and she will continue to love the world as she grows.

Be kind, baby, Mummy is proud of you.

She even walked around the hospital on her own, only stopped to walk back when I was out of sight. She thought I was playing hide and seek with her and it thrilled her whenever she managed to find where I was.

She unwittingly walked into the jab room by herself, and I bet it was her greatest regret of the day.

I was tormenting my own flesh and blood and it was cool that she was smiling and making friends in the hospital with two plasters on her arms briefly after.

Mum and I left the hospital to head for home, and I didn’t manage to blog much before I was activated for mahjong session at JD’s.

FF and I headed down by train, before JD picked us up from Novena.

It was great seeing the girlies again and the session ended early at 1 plus, before we chilled around for a bit till 2 plus.

Supper. Yak. Yak. Yak.

Home.

And then trying my darnest best to finish this entry.

And I am hungry!

I guess this entry drains me enough.

And you know what to do whenever I make the effort to post more pictures. Heh.

And Happy Chinese New Year everyone. As much as its significance to me has diminished this much over the past couple of years, I think a part of me still… believes.

And gee, isn’t it scary to think what is in 2 days’ time?