It was cosy, it was sweet. It was something I had wanted for her, though it was a shame that the many faces I wished had turned up, didn’t.

But I am just glad many others did and it did mean a lot to me. And I really mean a lot.

I was so tired at the end of it, and I supposed so was she. She slept for 12 straight hours, and I slept for 11. I still haven’t quite utilise my new internet connection fully yet.

I greeted her with a smile and a soft happy birthday when she woke up.

It is almost 3 and I am clueless where I should bring her to, today, since there is a family dinner which I am so not looking forward to.

Happy birthday Charissa. You have been an amazing gift. Though you should really stop fighting over the keyboard with me right now. And no, not the mouse either.

Besides her main party, we had a small, cosy, quiet one later, slightly after twelve midnight… after a little walk in the cold, cold night, a little playtime at the bench, and a little cupcake, which was deprived of a candle.

And when you run out of options, a cotton bud could make quite an interesting substitute. Make it many cotton buds.

I had wanted it to be a just-us thingy.

She was lying on my bed looking for the best positions to sleep but couldn’t find any. She toppled all over, and was burrowing for a tight space to nest herself in.

She was trying to burrow into where she came out from exactly a year ago. Hahaha.

I just leaned back against the wall and watched her. It was a pretty picture that brought much emotions from within.

We played a little before she fed on her milk. She was carried into the cot steadily, and she didn’t fuss.

She refused to sleep thereafter, and was tossing and turning, fighting sleep to keep herself awake for more company.

She finally dozed off at 2.12am.

I nearly teared when the day drew a close. I was so tired. I was.. in a way relieved.

It is just sad her actual birthday I can only give less than yesterday.

My daughter is 1 today. It is almost too overwhelming to think of the incidents a year ago. My pride, definitely.

I even announced at 7pm last night how my water had leaked exactly 365 days ago.

And thank you, for making it possible. To show her how loved she is.

And now, I have 3 bags full of new, pretty clothes for her. I can almost imagine how my mum is going to freak out(“tell your friends don’t buy her any clothes ah!”).

I am hungry and tired. I am just having too much on my mind.

Thank you, really. You have no idea how special you have made it to be.

As it was a rush to put everything together without the help of internet, I am just thankful for those who turned up in such short notice.

There were a few things I couldn’t do because I had work… and I guess it was just a shame.

Charissa, Mummy just want you to be happy always.