So what now?
I cut off all ties with everyone I know.
I stopped talking to everyone I know.
I stayed home and not head anywhere.
And now you called me to “accuse” me. And that’s the only reason why you would call me for.
Please. I don’t leech to you and I stayed away. And now? Do I really need all these humiliations?
Really.
You made your choice and it is like my “fault” for them not to believe in you.
And that has something to do with me? Or that I have spoken to them?
Maybe it is not about what I want.
It is now about what YOU want, and what THEY WANT.
So now, whatever I do is not enough, apparently.
Stop that. Really. Stop that.
So what more do you guys want? WHAT MORE?!?!
Can you just spare me with whatever bare traces of dignity?
Because, with all these coming down, I am just not sure how much more I can take.
And it will come to a point that I will not give the respect to everyone which I ain’t getting.
Hi Ting,
Wanted to let you know that the playpen which was offered to you ages ago has been given away to another person along with the baby walker, tub, etc etc.
Hang in there, for minibean’s sake too cuz’ she will look up to a nice mommy like you for many years (maybe forever).
AK
people have a tendency to judge. especially average singaporeans.
and they may not judge based on their own experiences, but rather of their own opinions, based on their own personal tolerance level. the self-righteousness and arrogance is astounding in many.
people say: “i’ve been in your shoes before. i know what you mean.”
but have they walked the same distance as you? tread the exact same journey?
well-meaning intentions aside, people can only offer advice and possible solutions. but no one can ever tell you what you should or should not do. that is up to you to decide.
i don’t know you personally, nor doubt if i’d ever get to know you beyond your blog, but to folks who put you down, and/or give you shitte, i can only share with you this, sling the shitte back at them, or if you cannot find it within you to do that, consider annexing them out of your life. too extreme perhaps, but it sure as heck beats hurting your brains over these. Just a suggestion
take care
thanks toysrevil. maybe thats precisely wad i have been doing. sometimes struggling to do, but doing. a struggle btw slinging shitte back or just annexing them out. slowly. but surely.