The past weeks hadn’t been easy.

Much of it had past without any documentation and it is as if I have no memories of it anymore. Like… a lapse in memory..

Lapse. Yeap. Lapse. How quaint is this little word.

Though I have came out of my shell, and smiled on at the world that breezed by.

I have been busy.

And I have been internet-less. While waiting for someone, I am now using the internet at the internet cafe, and I was told to blog.

It is not easy to survive without the internet, but gee, I have coped well. I even think that it will do less destruction to me as I hole myself up at home.

I have been out a plenty. So much so that I don’t even know myself anymore.

I have been getting lucky.

I got myself a new desktop. I made it my own liability.

And then I lugged it home and set it up all by myself. And then it didn’t start up at all. It didn’t help even though I had help to check the monitor for me after I set it up. Grr…

It didn’t work and the staff asked me to bring the entire CPU down.

I didn’t want to book a cab so I carried it all the way to the main road…. the treacherous journey nearly killed me.

And then it turned out the monitor’s pin is not the one featured on the manual. Grr… It was so embarrassing okay?

I nearly growled at the unhelpful Pacific internet staff when I realised the modem they gave me is not compatible with Windows Vista.

Roar.

And I asked if I could sign up some form of contract for a free new modem since I am not under any.

They were unsure.

So, Singnet, here I come.

I queued like mad last Sunday.

Then I signed up wireless for my Dad’s office. I got a new handphone and I got a new iPod shuffle as freebie.

Then I got myself a 5 bucks voucher because of the dip and win. I never believed in such stuff, so I was quite sure it was all vouchers, or you know, pen.

So, I signed up broadband.

I got a free Dell 12 inch laptop.

Then, another lucky dip.

This time, I frowned and whimpered when they were happily telling me that I won myself an all-in-one photo printer.

Not very helpful when we were having a girls’ night out with the JD, and FF’s guy pals.

The 3 of us took turns to lug the not so light thing around, together with the not so light free modem.

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It was a quiet late night out in town. Familiar road. Familiar settings… and everything was just.. oh well. A soothing drink just so I could sleep better.

I bought a gift for Minibean for her first birthday(she is turning one this weekend!), and I proudly showed it off to everyone. I love shopping for her.

It was a chilly night. And a quiet stretch that was buzzing with life just hours before. 

I lugged the freebies up the cab and it was almost daylight when I finally troubleshooted and set it up. I did it in less than half an hour. It is funny how much you can find within yourself to do things you normally would feel helpless with.

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Okay. I didn’t know the stupid internet will only be activated like…. tomorrow. Another week lost just like that.

I ran around like a headless chicken today just so tomorrow can be freed up.

It will be a busy weekend for me, and I am just keeping my fingers crossed that everything will turn out fine.

Oh.

I went for my HP desktop lucky dip redemption today.

Imagine my utter horror when it was my first stop of the day…. and once again, I won myself another all-in-one conventional printer.

And the staff once again tell me how rare it is and it was one of the bigger gifts.

I think I can start a mini-electronic fair soon.

I mean… I am happy that it was the one I had wanted to buy.. but no way in hell was I going to carry it around doing all the errands.

Luckily, my old workplace was just nearby and I conveniently put it there. Hehe.

I met up with JD after I had lunch with my ex-colleagues, and she had to prance around Bugis with me as I rushed my stuff. 

Oh, and I hate cranberry juice. Eeeek.

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I met up with JD yesterday for fruitless shopping too.

I got real tired but managed to brave the train ride back, and had an early night.

I got rude treatment from a client yesterday. Roarrrrrr.

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I think I am looking forward to next week. When I can officially go back into hiding again.

I only managed to get internet at JD’s on Monday night. Where I happily checked my flooded email boxes, and then I realised there wasn’t much for me to do. Mahjong was good.

I dropped off somewhere else, and walked home. I spent the night reading.

Tuesday was slightly busy as I headed out for errands.

I finally caught up with all the lost episodes of CSI…. after watching them all in one go on Tuesday night.

The long trip on the train in the day nearly killed me, and a fulfilling dinner and a drink later, I could run my errands.

Catching up the lapse of those lost episodes, was good.

I miss all those familiar stuff that got my adrenalin pumping.

I didn’t sleep until I saw daylight.

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Love yourself before you love others, I was recently told.

And I think something is really wrong with me.

I broke down and the defenses I built up these days, crumbled.