I thought. That was why.
But I was proven otherwise.
Denial. Maybe. Perhaps. Maybe. Just maybe. Even the smallest maybe.
What was my expected reaction? No reaction. I am supposed to be a rag doll to anyone. I am supposed to be void of any reactions. No fuss. No trouble. No… whatever. I am not a barbie doll, I ain’t supposed to have.. you know, a smirk, nor a smile.
I know. I already did.
That’s how the story goes.
Don’t know? Hurhur. Unlikely. Don’t know again. Ah. I see. Blatant to see.
Maybe it was just an underhanded method. I was there. Which? Where? Oh. Careful, not there, you thought. Just in case, you thought.
Lose me.
Maybe to make it easier.
I should just say how happy I am to see everyone being screwed so miserably.
I am, really.
And I know, it is easy for you guys to believe.
Hurhur.
And I am exhilarated to lose friends. Woohoo! It is the greatest feeling in the world. To chuck away friends whose eyes you have no place in.
I am, really.
And I know, you would go “ah ha! I knew it!”.
Cos it is easier to read what you want to read, to know what you want to know, to see what you want to see.
Oh. And there’s the cousin there.
And I am feeling just thrilled to see everyone where they are.
And I am feeling just so satisfied how tormented they are.
And I am so disappointed it didn’t make anyone hate me enough to stab me.
Hurhurhur.
I am happy. I really am.
You know.. those friends you can throw away…? they’re not friends. Otherwise, it won’t be that easy to toss them out. And it’s always good to lose the deadweights. Nobody need those in their life.
that’s why “strangers” are the “best” (*cough*) – even if they expect anything from you, you can laugh it off and chuck them aside like sullied tissue (eeee) … “friends” come with “expections”, and most times tis not what they can offer you, but what they “expect” from you.
“you’ve changed”
“i don’t know who you are anymore”
“you never used to be like that”
- “friends” apparently are not supposed to “change”. no growth. no evolution. no future. all impressions are based on when they first met and get to “know” you. like chinese new year gatherings when aunties all exclaim how short you used to be (aiyoh – just gimme the angpao can? :p)
… but im sure you know alla that already and this stranger here ain’t helping much (:p) … but of coz there are “good friends” but this comment aint about that.