Don’t know they idiots or what. Insisting what they want to think still saying this and that. Then ah, ask me to do something, I do, then they still go on and on and then say I am gone. But I just don’t trust people, and don’t need people like them, anything wrong with that?

And hohoho! The funniest thing must be when it was meant to be in some way, but it must have rubbed them off the wrong way(someone assumed I wrote something to stir personal problems on his side wor!), and they want to assume it to be that way. Too bad, even in the wrath as I tried to put my justification across, the meaning was lost, so -shrugs- too bad then.

So yah, if they insisted it to be that way and the meaning lost on them, and if it did create problems, give me the IPs, thank you, I will block the necessary people out, or maybe just fuck off from this site, cos you will misconstrue anything you want to what. So why the fuck bother?

Why this site is juicy gossip for you to take things out of context huh? So you can have bitching “how fucked up is she” coffee sessions or MSN sessions to dissect my life huh?

So if you cannot see how anything changed or disrupted and insisted I used you, then just fuck off, cos if I still be friends with you, I am just using you only(in your context).

So just fuck off lah. Don’t have such trash in my life means very pitiful meh? Must have them as my saviors to make my life so much more meaningful is it? Oh yeah, must be, cos you are so useful mah that I have to make use of you. Why, hiding secrets from you must be using you is it? Then you have no rights to talk to me about friendship shit cos.. uhm, it is all about measuring how much a person is ‘used’ hor?

Sometimes, really, do, and will you guys believe me if I choose to talk? NoOoOOo.. cos you guys will be kept busy with your own assumptions and denials that whatever I say, is not getting across.

Now I know why she never did let go during arguments cos your assumptions and emotions are just too blinding. And it is just easy to want to retort you using your own medicine to make you see, which you won’t.

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I do see where you guys coming from, but I get tired of explaining myself, or even to search for answers. So I don’t bother to.

This message is for many, not one.

If I tell you I weren’t angry, will you believe? I know you don’t. That’s why you didn’t even bother to talk to me. If I tell you I weren’t angry but I really didn’t want to talk(who the fuck are you to corner me to force me to talk), would you believe? I wasn’t even thinking about it until a friend mentioned “As a friend, why didn’t she warn you first?”. Even if I say I didn’t “use”(fucking biggest joke in the world) you, will you believe? You didn’t, so I don’t see why you would in the future. I told you I didn’t use that post to create bad feelings but to indirectly hope you will get something out of it, but will you believe? I don’t think you will.

So why the fuck you come talk to me for?

You tell me to talk to you when I am not insane. I don’t think I will ever be sane to you as long as you are so… narrow-minded.

So why do I want to bother?

Cos I don’t need friendships in the future that you guys will be thinking in certain ways, and that you guys don’t believe.

I can tell you I do have a very sane set of reasonings and explanations but I can’t be bothered. Why do I need to listen to your reasonings when mine are full of shit.

And I don’t need other people in the same circle to explain on my behalf or make me as a discussion topic which serves no purpose(come on, you want to ask, you guys come to me, not through people around me), and that’s why, I don’t need any friends who are connected to each other, so some of you don’t have to find the same people who have to be caught in the middle of ‘fire’.

So you find X, Y, Z for your woes and how you feel, so why should I burden them with mine?

So that’s self pitying?

You know what is self pitying? I don’t need to state just in case you say I messing things up for you.

Fuck you, really. Fuck you.