It was just a few weeks ago before all these happened and you told me that you stop playing mahjong with us because you feel that it will remind you too much of the past, too much of those emotions you went through at the table, and too much of her when I joked that you have new beau and friends are forgotten.

Or it was even the reason why you didn’t want to see us at one point, and that you were ready to lose us as friends.

From what you said last night, she still does hold a place in your heart.

So stop the fucking double standards if you fucking claim you know what you are saying, that you fucking understand.

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And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We’ll both forget the breeze

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?