Archive for September, 2007

The bed shook

Okay, I know this is totally bo liao for me to blog about this, but for the 1st time in my life… I felt the tremors of earthquake!

At around 7.48am this morning. I even double checked the time and then searched websites to see if there was a 2nd earthquake. When I couldn’t find any information, I took it as just a figment of my imagination and that it may be just my body shaking from the insomnia.

I was lying flat on my back, and the bed shook. It kinda felt like something was hiding underneath the bed and then it/he was shaking the bed slightly.

It took me 10 seconds before I suspected it as an earthquake.  By then, I tried to turn to look at the cot mobile to see if it was swaying but then it was too slow a response lah.

Gee finally I felt my first earthquake because the previous time when I was at Citi, everyone complained about it but I obviously missed it.

And I sometimes wonder if my sensory system is all messed up because of my usual clumsiness.

But in all seriousness, I can’t imagine the fear of the people who lost their lives, families, or homes due to the earthquake. My prayers are with them.

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In another news, I finally found out why she has been all grouchy and dependent the week she was with me.

Her front tooth was coming out! She was teething!

And now, it finally popped out yesterday when Mum was washing her mouth.

My baby is growing fast! :D

That Saturday night

Baby lizard didn’t need a fist nor a bottle to eat up baby cockroach. Baby lizard felt indignant that I gave the credit to baby lizard.

Baby lizard claimed he doesn’t do 3DL earlier today after he had woken up to read my blog.

“But I do.” I smirked.

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This post was meant to be blogged much earlier, but then the fatigue from the goings-on just didn’t make it happen.

Anyway, from the erratic posts since mid-August, I am just so amazed, and equally amused, by how much my intuition serves me.

Too well.

***

I was actually too lazy to blog. But after I ran out programs to watch, ran out of emails to reply, ran out of phone calls to make, ran out of blogs to read, ran out of gossips to bitch… ran out of people to run to, I am back to square one.

So yeap. I am going to blog about the 25th and 26th of August… the weekend that I spent with Minibean that I didn’t have the time to blog about.

Dad had sent Minibean back to me on Saturday morning, and I had ample rest before welcoming her at the door in my nightie. Child seat rules!

My mum dressed her up in a pretty white dress, and she flaunted her femininity before Mummy!

Okay, uhm not this.

Slightly better.

She now knows how to play kok-kok(a special skills she had for the longest time.. if you place your forehead to hers, she would knock her forehead against yours), shake hand, and over this week she had been with me, I taught her hi-five(which she picked up instantly with ease!).

She even knows how to flaunt her dimples. Heh.

Only thing I fail to tame is her tongue-sticking habit. What to do? She has been doing that since she was incubating inside me.

So I stop trying, though my mum still relentlessly tries to stop that habit.

I like this though I look like crap.

You have no idea how difficult it is for her to sit still to take a picture these days.


After a long nap in the afternoon where we both tried to catch a little more sleep, we woke up in the evening, to get ready to head out.

She is happy.

Okay… so she is so not a fan of Mummy.

Uncle Roy had asked us to join the rest of the guys at Cafe Del Mar to celebrate Charles’ birthday.

I was hesitant with the decision since I didn’t have transport, and as much as every new year we gambled at Charles’ place, our interactions are still very limited.

Still, Uncle Roy insisted and I brought Minibean to meet him and Mel at Mel’s place, where Max would pick him from Bishan, and pick Mel up, and then he would pick Brian and Ferris up from Carlton Hotel.

Minibean was happy to be out! Uncle Roy and Brian were both stacked at the back of the SUV.


And there were people who were willing to share the load with me when we were in the car. Hehehe.

And ta-dang! Minibean at Cafe Del Mar!

I know, I know, detractors are gonna say how it is not suitable for kids, but mind you, a 3 year-old girl was celebrating her birthday inside with her family!She had lots of attention, and Bikai and Tiffany(she’s like, great. Met her a few times. Looks, intelligence and poise.. and she’s good with Minibean!) were the best with her. Bikai even lent his hat to Minibean.


And I know not what got to her, she actually did a classic pose with the hat.

Baby, as much as you think that is cool, that is sooooo not cool. It’s too 80s. Passe!

But it is amazing to bring her to somewhere where everyone wanted to carry her. Even her. It is just cool cos she enjoys the love and attention everyone showered her.

It wasn’t long before Raiyan took her over and she leaned in comfortably… and fell asleep.

And she just…. succumbed to the zzz monster!

And then it was great to finally put faces to the names like Lawrence(Weipeng and Ferris were being really ‘helpful’ there haha), Raiyan, the hilarious Farmy, and of course the bunch that were deemed the more ‘happening and cooler’ bunch.

All of us were hungry and we left Sentosa in the SUV(Farmy, Ferris, Max, Mel, Roy, Baby and me), and the cool chicks were leaving too.

The guys started mocking at themselves how ‘sia suey’ they were since they were all in one car, whilst the girls each had a car to themselves, and flashy ones, no less.

I do find the girls familiar, since they were from Citi, and the guys started laughing at how they had became uncles, and how in an SUV(Ferris: Wah! They all fast and furious and we all squeeze in a SUV!) with a baby(Ferris: We have a baby somemore!) made them look so uncool. Cough cough.

Uncle Ferris ‘chopped’ Charissa 15 years down the road. Though I believe he would have 3 months in hand to groom her before she turns legal.

I rolled my eyes and joked most probably he wouldn’t have the stamina to keep up, and he spoke confidently… cough.

I think Minibean does fancy Uncle Ferris.. or perhaps it was just the glasses. From the day she first saw him during Chinese New Year, she had never taken her sights off him.

Awww…

We went for supper at River Valley, where Nick joined us.

“Okay, Uncle Ferris, I will be yours if you still have hair 2 decades from now!”

Look at the straws in her hands. She refused to remove them from her hands and when I tried to take it away when she was sleeping in the cab, she jolted awake, look at the straw, snatch it back, and went back to sleep.

!!!!!


And of course, she is very happy in Uncle Ferris’ arms.

And heh, Mummy also had a picture on a vespa when she was a baby!


I bought a new bag that is big enough to put her into. Hehe.

Finally lulled her to sleep since we had a long day ahead on Sunday.

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She pulled my hair to wake me up when I ignored her whimpers, her gurgles.

She did so by putting her hand through the cot’s grills, and I was sleeping very near to the cot.

Still, it was a fabulous way to wake up to greet the day :) With such a smile, it is hard not to melt anyone.

Playing hide and seek with her under the duvet.

And she fell asleep. Love this picture too. :)

When she woke up, we hurried to Raffles Place with Dad sending us, to meet the rest of the BRATS.

On our way out…

Like I said, she’s not exactly a fan of Mummy. Haha.Minibean at Raffles Place!

Since Mummy was going to be really busy, there is still the babysitters’ help!

I was doing fitting at Raffles Place, where the vendor also required pictures to vet the girls since he was overseas.

And that was how you guys saw the pictures I first posted.

So my babysitter number 1.


Trying to lure her with the milk bottle.

Okay.. verdict: Passed.

Cindy and I! Love that babe!

During my break.

I think she seems quite fascinated by the Coke bottle.

What you doing baby?!

No! You don’t do that with Coke bottles!

I will never look at Coke bottles the same way ever again. Especially after yesterday.

See! BAD INFLUENCE!

My baby can roll her tongue!

Nanny number 1 and 2. Look so much like gay couple huh?

I really love how happy she looks in this picture.

I always look at her smiling pictures, and I will have the urge to cry.

All of us then waited for a cab to head back to Sim Lim and Uncle Roy expressed his disbelief that in his words, “This thing can come out from you!”

The obligatory “family picture” with Roy when we were in the lift.

Dad picked us up from Sim Lim and I hugged her and slept all the way to JB.

I adore the times when she would lean on my very flat chest, and just place her little hand on me as she snooze…

Just before saying goodbye to her…

“Look Ma, one hand!”


I wish I could pinch her cheeks right now :)

Like I said, she is REEAAALLLLY not a fan of mine.

My last shot with her before I left for Singapore.

***
Wonder how Minibean is like after 3 shots of vodka?

Damn cute, right?

***
It is yet another rainy night…

I was on the phone with SBB when the wind started to howl, as I enjoyed my supper of McDee’s.

I rushed down to Sim Lim today to check on the part-timer, had a drink and then made sure my sample piece was already on the way.

I went back to office today, and waited for more than an hour without seeing my boss.

Someone new saw me, and she said she find me really familiar.

And then she said she might have seen me on television before, and someone asked if it was ‘SHOOT 3′, and she exclaimed, “Oh! You were the one after Maia Lee.”

I giggled nervously, but her reactions were really genuine and cute. It was nice but I was shy.

I left for Tiong Bahru, and it gets to me that I bought something from Guardian and I saw it seconds later in Watson’s and it costs 10 cents cheaper. I must be a really cheapo cos I was quite annoyed. It is just a quirk of mine.

And the guy on my sofa last night? He was a friend who dropped by to return me some cash and while I was eating the McDee’s he bought for me, he fell asleep, and he left just as I went to the carpark to get SBB up.

And about last night… it was fantastic.

Too fantastic. ROAR!

For the first time in a long while, I heard his snores before he heard mine.

Hero baby lizard

The baby lizard ate the baby cockroach. Yum yum. :)

Slapping myself

I hadn’t been blogging cos Minibean has been with me for most of the week, and I finally sent her back today. :(

And ah, this is so like slapping myself in the face.

SBB is on his way over.

Uhm. Yah. That’s all.

I am so 3DL and I know it.

Oh there’s a man sleeping on my sofa right now. ROARRRR!!! And I can’t seem to chase him home. Laughs.

Now I just have to think of a way to introduce the two of them.. Hmm…

And oh, did I mention how I had 2 booty calls over the weekend?

None of them from SBB. Sometimes I think I should be less of a coward and answer them you know?

Of course, with the little one just next to me, I hardly found anything within me to muster a flirty response.

Tsk. I never quite have the chance to use my “Level 101 of messages-replying skills” yet.

Emotional filler

Sometimes, I feel like this cheap, dirty little emotional filler, time filler, when she is simply out of reach, out of league.

I really wonder how you juggle sometimes.

Maybe, I have to wait till the day when your little tricks work their magic on her, and you decide you have nothing to lose, then would you let the truth out.

Poor little her, she will never know what hit her, would she? Sometimes I would like to see it happen, cos I selfishly would like to think how you would ruin her perfect, pretty life. That would be so damn cool. :D

Today has been an incredibly weird day when all the men in my life, work-wise, otherwise, pissed me no end and I seriously doubt my self-worth. Even more so than ever.

Remember September

My week has been rather mad.

It ended with me rushing some last minute productions over at Mindy’s, and only got home at 8am, in the torrential rain.

With Minibean in tow, no less.

My fingers and wrist are sore, and I feel like a factory worker.

More on it in subsequent posts.

And now, I shall take Minibean’s nap time as a break, and try to shower, wash hair, pack up the house, sort out her laundry, clean her bottles.. and just.. chill and blog since I have the time to.

She is with me for most part of this week, though it is just a shame I still have to be occupied by work stuff with her by my side.

***

I have no idea when I can finally work on my place, cos the budget seems to be a bit high after calculating the total costs.

Ah well.

Tuesday was spent drawing up a report after Brian had said he would come up a report, and the next thing I know when I was doing my grocery trip, he had volunteered to come down to my place to “get my opinion” for the report. I read the couple of sentences and the vast spaces in between and shoo-ed him off the seat.

You all don’t know Brian, that brat will NEVER head to this ‘ulu’ side of the country unless he has to. And he will NEVER take the effort to go the distance, unless of cos, he would get something out of it. So, that statement should be big enough to know that there is no way I could wriggle out of it.

It wasn’t long before Day 1 was finished.. and he refused to let me leave the seat. He pleaded, manja-ed, spoke in the nicest possible way, and offered to buy dinner for me(which of cos, was his ruse to head out so I had no choice but to carry on the report).

Er… the report ended up to be 15 pages long. Muahahaha. But actual words..(I don’t know how much because he added on thereafter),  I only contributed 5(most of the other pages are pictures, you see).

He was so bored that he took the camera and took the picture of Brats at work. Duh.

Haha, brats at work. And yes, that was the sandwich he bribed me with. Of cos being typical Brian, I hardly have any privileges after the report was down. Tsk.

And this was after the report was finished, and he was ‘vetting’ it.

He has an easy job!

Upon completion of the report, he sent me to Roy’s where I met up with Mel and Roy, before he went to pick up Shulin.

Nick, Shulin, Eugene and Mel turned up subsequently, before Brian reached with Shulin, and with Nick pillioning me, the group of us headed into Malaysia.

It was a nice trip, a good break, just what I needed.

***

It was house chores and a day at home on Wednesday, before SBB dropped by with groceries in hand.

On our previous rendevous,  he had adorably bought white bread for me after knowing I would be staying home with Minibean, which would mean that I would hardly have time to eat or walk out to buy. Problem was, he bought white bread and nothing else.

This time, he bought ham. Smart boy.

We sat around and talked a bit before we retired for the night, since we were both tired.

I wanted to use my brr brr but then I asked for a little help which turned out to be not too bad at all since it was more than I asked for. Heh.

***

We woke up to greet Thursday morning together. These days, whenever I have morning meetings, we could wake up together, and he doesn’t have to resort to tugging the blanket, kicking me off the bed just to get me to send him off to the door. Though sleeping in on an afternoon(especially a rainy one) is definitely a treat.

He sent me to my meeting place, where Brian and I were supposed to meet Wenmei.

I took a picture but then Brian and I joked that it might be confidential, so er, since I don’t have photoshop, I just use whatever photoediting software I could to blur the image. Muahaha.

While waiting…

We then headed for Tiong Bahru for lunch with Wenmei and colleague, where I saw a long ago friend.. Lili, who is now married, and a teacher. And it seems like it wasn’t 10 years ago when we graduated from Secondary school.

We sat down for coffee, and the weather was terribly, before I headed home to finish off doing the calculations for commission and part-timers payout for Comex, while Brian headed to Sim Lim for another project.

***

Of course, as usual, I would put the Minibeany posts together in separate entries. So once I gathered the massive collection of her pictures, you will be seeing more of her.

***

Friday hasn’t been all that pleasant, especially after a couple of emails that came in and kinda… I don’t know.

It was just a bad time with all of us rushing and hand-packing all those stuff in Sim Lim.

I think we are somewhat jinxed.

Roy wanted to help to fold the ends of the paper, and he was using the machine. And then!!!!! In absolutely dramatic fashion, the metal lever he was pulling, broke! So have to do it manually.

We couldn’t finish packing in time, so we loaded the stuff up Mork’s van and we headed to Mork and Mindy’s place, to continue the production.

When we reached there, there wasn’t any wireless connection. Gasp!  And it only happened to Brian’s laptop lor!

And then, what was scheduled to finish at 2am, only finished at 7.30am. It was at close to 7 we realised the printer gave us lesser than what we had ordered. %@#^!%*!

I insisted on him going to the bank despite all those fatigue and Mork drove him down to Parkway in the heavy rain. I couldn’t be bothered cos Minibean was with me and I didn’t want her to board and alight so many times especially when it’s raining.

So I passed him my ATM card to help with the transaction.

Then ah! He withdrew the money but he forgot to bring the account details and numbers out to do the transactions.

DUH!!!!!

***

Read this just on plain matter-of-factly tone, and you might just be able to grasp what this really is, instead of what it sounds like.

Sometimes I thought of the humiliation I have to go through, and then I realised, what goes around, comes around, so who am I to complain?

I think, reality, oh no, I mean, he has a way to make a mockery out of me.

I wonder if people do realise, everytime it happens, it just kills and numbs, until I don’t feel it anymore. And then I surprise myself how I could really, start to feel nothing, though I could feel a hollow tugging.

And you function less of a human.

Betrayal might be too strong a word, but people will never understand the mechanics of why do people feel this way. Then again, it is really none of my business, eh?

You may think you know what I am talking about, but darling, honestly, you have no idea.

You are really not to hard to figure, like you think you are.

Maybe they are right, I am indeed stupid.

Then again, my intuition just has a way of making me more aware than I like to be, need to be.

I would like to believe I am just stupid cos I allow myself to be, not because you make me look like a fucking fool.

No, not as words from a lover, but even as a friend. You want to make people around you look stupid, but the one who looks the silliest, is yourself.

Truth is, sometimes I have doubts that you will ever get there, when I do want to get realistic and get critical with what went wrong with you.

There are 2 sides of you I see. One side of it, would lead you there, but one side of it, will kill it. It is just sad to see which side you indulge more in sometimes.

You know, sometimes I suspect why you didn’t make THAT particular move a year ago to go for that girl you so hung up over, is not because your conscience spoke, but simply because, you so know that you are at a disadvantage.

Yes, you told me now you would not think of starting a relationship which I truly believe, and that even if she comes into the picture, you would not be with her, though you wouldn’t mind fucking her.

Of course, fucking her would be so much of a simpler way out. But knowing you, I know you can’t get out of that.

Simple truth is, you can’t match up to her. You can’t catch up with who she is, her lifetstyle, or indulge in ANY of the activities she likes, simply because you are so not there. Do you want to borrow some money so you could have nice meal, go to the same place, or just give excuses of those that are not of yourself? And you will keep trying, and you will just look like an awkward boy feeling out of place, who doesn’t fit… and we know how the cycle works.

Of course, I know, I can NEVER be there, or who she is. So you have to be trapped in this little rut with somebody more inferior than you. That’s the only way you can have control.. no?

The same applies to you and your friends, and that’s why you hang out with people that you know you could put yourself so much higher than them, and shunned those you could never be, of course, that is until you make it big, and your voice gets louder and money gives you the confidence to speak.

And you know, it is sometimes like, there are perfectly painted pictures out there, and sometimes you just have to touch them with grease-stained fingers to destroy them. And you know, some people other there are such pictures.  Yes, it is rules laid down by the start, it is whatever you could say it was, or they were. But you know it very well.

Yah, she is this picture you so adore, and perhaps one of the reason you backed off is also because you know your fingers are grease-stained and you wouldn’t want to taint that little perfect world she is in. Just think back of the perfect little worlds you had destroyed, and perhaps you hold no guilt in that, simply because they mean nothing. She means something, isn’t it, and thus, you would be extra careful.

Maybe you would want to carve something out of your career, just to make up for that inadequency, in however way you want to look at it. To give you the voice you want amongst them, amongst her, and the confidence to just strut out whatever situation you have.

It is exactly a year ago you made me feel this way, and it is funny how it crept up once again. Maybe because, I believe, and I know, it will. The time line matches. And I wouldn’t be surprised if the events and treatment that follow on will match too.

I honestly think it would be so much better if you just think it through what you really want, be yourself, and maybe just try.  Why hold it back? Career is not an excuse. Make up your mind and stop being a coward. You would be so much of a darling friend that way. And it is about time the substitute people be out of the pitch, for you to look for your main players.

I wish she will never grow up like you. In some ways, I hope she will, but definitely not this.

And sometimes, it is just sad that I have consciously thought of it, and think to myself how I wish she would never get to find out how her father is like.

Comex 2007

Yup, it is finally over. Over a month of preparations, just for the burst of 4 days.

With bated breaths, we were most afraid with the beeping of incoming messages, and the haunting ringing of phones.

***

I was hoping for a smooth sailing Tuesday,  so I could just stay home if I could on Wednesday, getting ample rest for Thursday’s big start.

It just simply wasn’t meant to be.

I arranged to meet up with Eva for some help. I went to Sim Lim to meet up with Brian to make sure the printing went on smoothly. I just couldn’t sit there and wonder how was everything, so I just had to be there.

Next up, I met up with Eva, before rushing down to City Plaza, where I had buy comfortable boots for my girlies.

I chose square heels, so their poor legs wouldn’t be tortured.

I am just glad I wasn’t mistaken to be a whore who works at nearby Geylang, cos -gasp- that was what Janise informed the ill-informed me that the place was known for such.

Phew.

I carried boxes of boots back to Sim Lim, where we finally waited for everything to be done, picked up the costumes, and then rushed our ways down to Suntec where the set-ups were being done, to drop off the stock of boots and costumes, so that there wouldn’t be any screw-ups.

I met up with Stella, who met me up to get her 2nd fitting done.

Pretty Vernice was with them, and they just had to remind me how hagged and tired I looked. Hahaha. Yah, stress does magical things to you, you know?

One of my lovelies went MIA, and I went into panic-mode.

My lovely sluts, FF and JD were there drinking, and I didn’t manage to join them cos I was at the booth till 11.30pm, and by then, Dad had came by to pick me up.

We couldn’t help but drop by the lavish Sony set-up to watch a slim, toned 31 year-old lady strutting her stuff with impressive dance moves, and saying hi to Janise who was there doing last minute set up too.

You thought I could rest.. but NOoOOOooOoOo. Email. Email. Email. Planning. Planning. Planning. I even messaged Roy to ask if there was any thing he wanted to add to the list of ground rules we drew up.

Brian had asked me to look for a replacement and I managed to get one, and went to sleep around 2am.

And then an email came in and the horror struck me.

I was really too tired and I needed to unload the stress off my mind before I go crazy.

Show Time. Day 1. 

Woke up at 8 plus(dammit, just too stressed to go back to sleep a little more) and then rushed down with another few sets of costume for the next day.

10.30am, everyone was there on time, reporting.

I got a makeup artiste for my girlies, to make sure they looked tip-top condition, and to touch up.

Uncle Roy requested for bright, vibrant colours.

The first hiccup came when my replacement came down too, but the other model came down as well. Sadly, I had to send the replacement home.

The replacement girl was sweet, and I feel extremely bad. Sigh.

Brian had wanted to replace the original model and kept her on close watch, but we thought of a different perspective, and gave her a try.

But I am glad how it turned out.

We got them changed by 11.50am when all their make up were done, and then briefed them cos the briefing we waited for, didn’t seem to get to us.

The striking quartet marched up with us leading them up.

Sharon’s outfit was a tad too loose, cos that kooky, funny babe had just measured the outfit to her body when she came down for the fitting on Tuesday, and not wore it on.

Masking tape, tube, safety pins were all over her, and the girls joked, “We are covered in makeup and Sharon is covered in tape!”

Me with Lin. I knew this babe for a long while since the biking days. She rides a fierce R1, and she is the most responsible of the lot, bringing makeup kit, tapes, and whatever you need, she has it.

She prepped herself really well, and asked of everything that was needed to be done, double checking dates and timings, and what was required of her.

She was punctual everyday, and despite the last day leaving at 11am, she was still inevitably caught in the silly jam.

Her working attitude was a definite A plus.

The new star… Stella. Her first time working as an event girl, and her pro-activity was impressive. She got really bored just standing around looking pretty, and decided to get her hands busy with sales. After the event at 11pm, a customer actually called to her cos he wanted to buy 2 more laptops, but when we reverted back to my client, they had already closed.

She is a spunky lass, and I absolutely adore her.

I had reminded myself to take pictures with Sharon.. somehow, out of all the girls, I feel for her to most. I mean, I am familiar with Lin, and I love working with her, but for Sharon, it is just.. different.

I am not sure, but beyond her kooky and ditzy-ness, I kinda feel that she is like an insecure little child. I might be wrong, but somehow, it is a kind of empathy and she is someone I would feel like taking care of like a sister, but of course, our communication and interaction was minimal.. but you know, it is just a vibe you have of a person just base on instinct?

She became our teasing target for the rest of the show days, and on the 2nd day, the rest of the girls were trying to plump her up. She was nicknamed ‘Chopstick’, ‘ironing board’… and just about anything and she took everything in her stride.

The BRATs! The Papasan(I asked Wilson for the picture of the girls but he gave me this one instead. DUH), who had to run around to meet clients on the first day, and was a great help ‘taming’ the girls.

So, back to the horror email I received… my company had a full day event at.. you guess it right, Suntec.

So, while rushing up and down, and also scooting to Carrefour to pick up socks and some insoles for the girlies, I snuck into the auditorium.

I was so tired that I fell asleep in there. Power nap man.

While I tried to snuck out during the break, my boss was on a smoke break and then asked if I was going up too. Uh oh! Got caught! So I had to be ushered into the auditorium.

The launch lasted till 7pm!

I actually snuck out to run back to the client’s booth, to meet Brian to make sure things were okay, and finally the 2 of us had our lunch at…. 6 plus.

We had wanted to meet friends for lunch at 12.30…. but of course, it didn’t happen. I was famished. I bought some snacks for the girls and brought them up, before I had to make a move.

We went up to talk to the client, before making some calls, and I left the overly-crowded Suntec for Velvet Dragon.

I was so desperate for a cab when the cab queues everywhere were crazy. I was superbly late and I was even contemplating walking to Havelock Road.

I went on the road, and just anyhow-ly hailed.

And wah, a minibus-styled cab stopped for me!

But unfortunately, I reached only when the entire rehearsal was drawing to a close.

But nonetheless, I had a nice talk over drinks with Meiling.

They waited for a cab with me, before I made the long, tiring journey back home.

***

Day 2 

The dreaded 2nd day of event… came.

I was there early again, but this time, to collect the uniform and gears from both booths, get the girls started on their makeup, and then…. sat down for makeup myself.

Gasp.

I was nervous since the night before, and that I barely slept.

My hands were shaking, and as usual, my self esteem wouldn’t bring me far enough.

I was just scared.

Scared of people. Scared by my self-consciousness. Scared of leaving the running of the show to Brian. Scared of clients’ reviews. Scared of forums’ reviews. Scared. Scared by myself.

And of course, the usual tiredness and jadedness were left for the moments when I could have a break, before the chin high, chest out, stomach in rituals kicked in again, with a little smirk to the face.And here, the 3 Dicota girls, with me being the fattest and shortest!

The smoldering Evangeline, and fabulous Yongyee, who flew in from Thailand just for this show.

I adored working with her, cos she is the nicest, most unassuming babe around, with an air of innocence. She was the most helpful, and client and Roy both sang her praises much.

Weipeng with me. Eh! I know him for so long, this is the first time we take picture together.

The bubbly Xuesha(I tried refraining myself from pinching her cheeks) joined us when she had her 5 minutes break, and finally I not shortest. Hehehehe.


Demure Yongyee, Bubbly Xuesha(she damn cute), Sexy Evangeline, and er.. Auntie Ting!Evangeline and I during lunch break.

My pimp!

Soon, we were walking around the exhibition hall to get ourselves seen, and then we bumped into the other babes from Panasonic. Drusilla, Pauline and Casse.

Casse, Pauline, Drusilla, Evangeline, Ting and Yongyee.

Yongyee actually looks like a combination of Lynn Poh and Ong Ailing on picture!

My favourite picture of the lot, when we paraded around our products and posed for the photographers who stopped us outside the halls.

Yongyee, Xuesha, Stella, Evangeline, Lin, Sharon and a very short me(who asked me to stand beside Sharon one?!).

And then, me doing “an Evangeline” whilst she became smiley!



Photographs courtesy of Simon.

The day went on rather smoothly in my opinion, before we called it a day, and went for dinner at Changing Appetites before Roy and Meiling joined us, and I had to take a dreaded long walk to find a cab.

Cab fare was fucking 20 bucks, without FULL midnight charge.

I was very tired.

***

A little episode during the show, drained me further.

I saw a dear friend, who went through so much phases of my life with me.

She cried, and I was on the verge of crying with her.

Hurt and disappointment. I know. I felt.

Makeupcannotrun.

Too many don’t-knows, like she said.

I am as lost as a puppy.

I held back.

Before I finally couldn’t take it and needed another break far away from the booth.

It was then the entire show’s stress crumbled me, and I just… broke down, nevermind the make up.

Brian thought I was crazy.  Oh well. I just went on and on about how much this show means to me, and yet how scared I was, and yes… I spoke of her tears and hurt, and wondered if I did it right, or perhaps, wrong.

Of course, it was then, breathe, chin up, and a smirk to head out, where I bumped into Linus and April. :)

***

I was quite out of it, and SBB decided to drop by just to offer me some comfort and hear me talk, and the occasional squeezes on the shoulders to relax them.

I fell asleep in his arms after some ahem, hot loving, that put me to sleep with great comfort.

***

I woke up to leave early for Meiling’s big day – her graduation show.

I kissed him on the forehead just before I left, though he had wanted to wake up on a Saturday morning to send me to work.

I just left the spare key for him, so he would have a longer sleep.

I wished I could just sleep a tad longer in his arms.. it was simply too tiring for me to continue the day on.

And since I wouldn’t be able to be at the Comex, I left the entire show into Brian’s hands.

And then… it was hours of preparations before the show starts at 8.30pm.

I was there at 9.40am….  and after almost a couple of hours… the curlers were finally on..

I felt like a cockroach with the amount of hairspray that was sprayed on me for the entire day.

Thank God SBB brought my camera and my shawl for me when he finally woke up, or else I would have really froze to death.

It was a challenge to get changed with the big head. And then it was my turn to do my makeup.

The theme was mannequins. My makeup artiste’s features are so delicate, so pretty right?

I think his looks are like so much more feminine than mine.

And then, my head was so heavy that my neck was aching to much to hold my chin up for him to do my lips.

It was hard on him.

And then, I had that makeup on for hours, as well as the curlers.

We weren’t allowed to go anywhere because we would melt under the sun.

So I became a little kooky with the long waiting.

All in all, it was fun as I had a break from the Comex, though I was terribly worried about how Brian was coping with the girls. I was afraid he would be too harsh with the girls, but thankfully it didn’t happen, though over the phone calls, he kept telling me how he had to babysit them like puppies. Hahaha.

We took the bus to Velvet Dragon(Finally!) at 5.30pm, and then it was waiting, rehearsing and checking of ICs.

Finally it was show-time, and my curlers came off at 8pm, after I had them on for like almost 10 hours!!

My scalp ached as much as my neck.

The final preparations.

I am so proud of Meiling, who won the outstanding student award, as well as coming out as the 5th person getting a special achievement award out of the 20 over batches of students who took up the course.

I had to slouch a little so she could reach my hair :P

3 other mannequins.

Why I no tattoo??

I had dinner with Brian and Roy dropped by briefly, listened to his update for the 3rd day, discussed some stuff, before I hopped on a cab to head home to finish some paperwork, and rested for the night.

Finally, I managed 7 hours of sleep for the last day of Comex.

***

Final Day!

I find it absurd to close the road to Suntec especially when Comex was of its final day.

The jam was not funny at all.

Even Lin who was on bike and had left on at 11am, was not spared.

I had left home to reach the hall early, but was trapped too.

And the fucked up cab driver took it out on me when he got caught in the jam. Hello?! I asked him for a receipt and he ignored my request. Bugger.

I hope he was trapped in the jam for long long.

He dropped me off when his cab was in the middle lane when I asked him to go to the side of the kerb.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And with me engaged in a heated argument with Brian on the phone,  I was just so surprised that I actually breathed in a deep breath, and not scream at the rude uncle.

I reached the booth with the guys thinking I looked tired and sleepy.

I wasn’t. I just didn’t have my makeup done well.

Yongyee helped me with it, and Sunday was a partnership of Yongyee, Cindy and me.

I love working with Cindy!!! Her injuries were still pretty bad, but she wore gloves, which looked kinda stylish.


Us at the booth.

Us pouting up for the camera. :)

Client loved this combination because they were really pro-active, and really helpful. The 2 lasses even involved themselves with sales, or sales process when the booth got too busy with the blooming business.

Simon, Weipeng and me.

I don’t know why he always look so constipated.

Brian on one of his breather breaks from mothering the girls.

He just slumped onto the entire pile of bags, before his phone rang and he mumbled some expletives, fearing for his life that something had went wrong.

He was glad to realise it was a call from a friend. Heh.

Me, slacking, and slumped onto another box.

Russell and Simon.

I actually thought it was immensely fun to work with them!  A passerby was behind and he looked as if he is part of the picture. Haha.

The part-timers. The medicine student, the childcare teacher, and the aerospace student.

Uhm… waaaaaaah. I think I should be so honoured that I had this bunch as part-timers.

Me with lovely Cindy.

And the very nice Yongyee… just before she flew back to Thailand on Monday.

These babes made my day. You wouldn’t believe how all 3 of us didn’t go for a single break since the start of the show, and neither did we even leave the booth to give out flyers, except when it was break time, where Cindy, Brian, and Joo Yau, went to Kenny Rogers.

The 2 cuties, who were hardworking too. Gee. Nicholas and Shawn.

Dicota booth rocks! Acting cute!

Looking all prim and proper.

The girls with the part-timers.

The girls actually stayed on till 9.30pm, just to help with further sales, as they sat on high stools, helping to push the last-minute sales.

Impressive!

In fact, I was mistaken to be fighting for commission when Shawn asked if I was paid commission and that I was pretty aggressive. I laughed and told him how Roy is a personal friend and I know his quotas and figures, and all I was doing was to just help to achieve that.

Roy and Russell were pretty slack with me, and whenever I had sprung up from my break, I would go to the crowd, took a minute or 2 and then went back to Roy with a sale.

I am starting to think that I do have a little gift with selling.

When I wasn’t arranging payment with Brian, and going through the figures and updates with him in the store, I would either help pack the bag, pose for pictures, or just help with the sales. Or, just getting feedback from client.

I ended up selling most of the hard-to-sell models. =D  Happy! Happy!

I am very happy with my 13 sales(I like the number 13 since I was young!) with the minimal amount of time I spent selling. Hehehe.

The synergy between the girls was fabulous, even the client was telling me he was satisfied, and Roy was exceptionally happy with their pro-activeness.

Pictures from Zhiyong.

Don’t mind the tummy, thank you. I should be spared from the scrutiny since I am a mother of one okay.

Yongyee and me.

There are much other pictures, but I guess I will upload them once the photographers send them to me. :)

It was such a great last day.

And the girls asked us out for dinner(more like asking Brian), and we asked the part-timers to join us too.

I had wanted to take pictures with everyone but I guess everyone was too hungry and just to tired.

The most bubbly of the lot, Xuesha and Sharon who brought forth so much laughters and joy. They made us laugh, and made us feel terribly old. Lovely ladies.

Eeee I look ugreee.

I wish I am just back in those days when I am still young, crazy and fresh….

Yes, return to innoncence.

I got back home after another expensive cab ride, and it started raining.. I just embraced the night, and reveled in the cosiness, the heavy load off the shoulders….

***

SBB dropped by after I had finished my shower.

And he demanded the redemption of the little kinky promise I made. A promise to fulfill those upon the completion of Comex since I was too busy over the past few weeks, and too tired. Though the little promise was too tiring for the half-conscious Ting to carry out, and was bestowed to him by installments.

The first installment was made just before we concussed, and then, the 2nd installment was fulfilled after he had woken up early and I had stubbornly refused to greet the day.

But gee, what a way to say ‘Good morning’, on a rainy day.

It was waaaaaaaaayyyy good.

I remember the dream that accompanied the sleep. It was a long dream. And I remember I was dipped right in your chest when I had it.

One that was utterly sweet.

One that had you inside.

Alas, you wasn’t you in the dream.

***

It was a rainy day, as we sat by the table yet again.

We went for lunch together as he sneered at my cute, blue Tare Panda brolly.

We sat around, talked for a while, before we took a walk to the MRT station in the rain for me to draw money.

It was freaking cold, and he had his arm wrapped around my shoulder, tightening his grip, pulling me close to him. I snaked my arm round his waist, and instantly felt warmer.

We walked back in the drizzle with my arm wrung around his… and him smacking/poking/disturbing me with the brolly.

I haven’t breathe this easily for quite a while. I laughed easily.

But it is just the beginning…. not the end.

Few more jobs, and lotsa backlog to clear.

I am starting to wonder if I should too, get a lappy. I am starting to wonder if I should get an assistant or something.

Sigh.

Oh sorry. But I can’t afford one yet. Dammit.

And why am I up so late? Cos I am still rushing…

Breeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaattttttthhhhhhhheeee.

It is over

If you think I could finally heave a sigh of relief after the event draws to a close, you are terribly wrong.

Comex 2007 has been an exceptionally emotional one for me, and I am just glad it is finally over.

Of course, where do I go from here? Have I been doing it right?

It is ironic that circumstances have proven me wrong on so many instances throughout this show.

What was expected tend to take the opposite turn, and when we had put our hearts and souls into one to make sure things go on smoothly and that it took all our priorities(we really did have so much confident about it), and took the other more lightly(perhaps because the not so well received feedbacks prior to the show kinda made us back off for a little), the end results differed on such great scales.

The irony.

When the people-cum-welfare person, and the make-client-happy-and-money-minded person took on different roles this time round,  and we both learnt new things.

The irony.

He should be well-prepared to take flight on his own pretty soon with his PR skills having such immense improvements(Mr Unpopular has became Mr Popular! Gee! The irony!). Hahahaha.

Of course, the occasional emotions set in…

And who can forget the jitters and nerves I always get prior to shows?

The sleepless nights.

My hands shook for the entire day on Friday.

And who can forget how bad I am with people, that I just wanna shy away whenever I could take the chance to. My esteem still doesn’t work fine.

Tears. I saw her tears.

Tears.

I needed a talk, and the himbo listened as I teared.

I didn’t need his matter-of-fact justification that are usually laced icy-toned. Factual. Practical. Emotionless.

Makeupcannotrun. His shirt was conveniently my tissue.

He was babysitting 7 girls at a go.  Me, the biggest baby of all.

I want out.

I am tired.

I slept for long. I woke up. I slept again.

Things aren’t looking rosy.

I worried about my main job.

I worried about my daughter.

I worried.

I didn’t enjoy the event as much as I usually would with everything boggling my mind.

But thanks to the new people I met, new friends I made, new things I learnt, new side of me I discovered… that I found things and people that significantly changed all that, which brought laughters, fun, and joy.

Thanks, you girlies.  You actually make me feel superbly old.

Thank you, Brian. Yes, no matter how or where this partnership is going, thanks. You did a wonderful job. Though you really have to tone down your fakeness. It could be sniffed miles away!!!! Now get going and be prepared for the next show.

SBB. Thanks for er.. the relaxtion and ready hugs when the show took such a toil on me, and he dropped by 2 days to give me good loving. Heh.

Roy, Rusell and Wenmei, for giving us such a chance. I have no way of judging how successful/unsuccessful it was, but the opportunity, is one that is truly well appreciated.

Now, I have my house to worry about, and I shall go get it sorted with Marshall helping out with the works and such.

And yes, the pictures, I will blog about the happenings soon enough.