I believe I am coming down with a bug.

Which is really frustrating with the amount of work and appointments packed for the week.. and the rest of the month.

But it doesn’t beat the main frustration of how baby would not be able to be with me.

I sent her back today instead of the original plan of having her around me longer for perhaps a 4-day stretch.

I wouldn’t stop sneezing, and my nose became runny. Then a headache brewed, and my body felt damn uncomfortably warm.

I had a late supper after some rest(I fell asleep when I got too cold and the headache wouldn’t go away) past midnight, and I struggled to walk back without puking out my food.

The tension wound round my head and I seriously hate the feeling. I would love to pop a couple of aspirins again if not for the fact that I try not to be too reliant on medication.

And it is damn sad cos I didn’t manage to take much pictures with her, nor spend much time with her.

Was with her in Malaysia yesterday before I brought her out for the night. I had woken up early to head back to Malaysia with Dad in the afternoon.

She is one fast learner. When she flips over and is on her front, she sometimes gets lazy and guess what does she do?

She would put her hand under her chin and supports herself by her elbow, not unlike an adult doing the same by lazily putting his/her chin on the palm.

I am not sure how she figures it out, but she was darn cute when doing that.

Alas, my battery for camera was flat when I was in JB, so I couldn’t capture that.

We headed out of JB late last night, when it was almost midnight, after Dad and I gotten some rest.

Minibean refused to sleep, till it was almost 2am.

I had to wake her up early to bring her to the doctor today.

I had conveniently forgot my phone again, and Dad was trying to get us on my handphone when he knew I had forgotten my phone. Uh, duh.

When doctor was trying to get her to sit, she stood up again, charming the doctor with her constant excited giggles, and doctor was laughing, saying, ‘Wow, you are trying to stand huh? Can’t wait to stand up huh? You are a happy baby!’

Doctor tried to get her to sit but she toppled to her side, and she started giggling at her apparent clumsiness.

When doctor passed me a brochure, I told her, ‘Baby, come, take the brochure!’, she leaned forward and grabbed the brochure with one hand, and flashed a smile at the doctor.

When I saw many newborns, I was suddenly thinking of the initial days when she was days old, and I had to bring her to do her checkup.. how she was so tiny back then.

Newborns…. it almost stirred the maternal instinct in me again until I was brought back to reality and I shuddered at the thought of it.

Tsk.

The heart-wrenching part was when she had to take her jab. It was almost her nap time and she was starting to get a little cranky cos she was readying herself to sleep.

Then I brought her into the injection room, when she was initially trying hard to smile when the nurse sang her favourite song to her.

She was still smiling when she saw the needles, and then when I grabbed her leg, she started to frown at the restriction.

She was going to cry when the nurse injected her, which broke into a loud wail… that lasted for.. uh… 3 seconds?

When I freed her, and held her up, she was smiling again.

Tsk. Erratic like Mummy.

Sad thing was, doctor told me her height, weight and head circumference is slightly below average, but she is darn proportionate, so it is not a bad thing.

I think I want to bulk her up though doctor told me it is perfectly fine as long as she is proportionate.

Spent the day with her, had lunch with my parents, and it was quick when the day ended, and I had to hug her and leave her in there.

In the evening, she was starting to feel the discomfort from the jab, and nothing seems to be able to please her as she flipped, turned, trying to find a position to feel more comfortable. She was starting to get warm and I just hope she doesn’t get a fever, which fortunately, she didn’t get for the past few jabs.

She is my brave little girl.

Work has been incredibly stressful.

Just hope all the mad rush would mean things will work out.

And now, despite it being 3am, let me just finish up some work and plenty of emailing(after sending out 20 emails, I still have… many to go).. and hopefully set aside some time to chill, before another jam-packed day of work and stress.