I went back to office for meeting and some paperwork today, and it is about time I get back on my feet.

I don’t remember heading out of home since Tuesday.

Yeap, not on Tuesday.

It was a long Tuesday.

I had nowhere to run to on a Wednesday, and it was only good that I stay away from the rest of the world.

I only had 2 hours of sleep before I was jolted awake… and I couldn’t get back to sleep, sustained only by adrenalin.

Until… mahjong was suggested. Mahjong is a game that you can stay quiet, and people would just assume you are planning for your next strategy.

That’s good.

I don’t need to speak.

I didn’t think I would hold through the night, but I did.

Till… it was 5.

I was still awake. Very awake.

I finally slept.

Dazed through Thursday.

Finished with CSI Miami Season 1.

I got out of home… on Friday, and people thought I look radiant.

Hurhurhur.

I finally met my manager today after a long while. His son is gaining weight and recovering well. That’s good news.

Stayed in office till 7 plus to catch up with some work. Left office to have dinner with Dilip with VampTreSS at Plaza Singapura.

It was an enjoyable evening.

Good food, nice company.

Clarke Quay was next. We dropped by Gotham Penthouse. We left for desserts at T.C.C. after a while. Chilled. It was warm. I was growing increasingly uncomfortable.

I retired early for the night whilst they carried on.

It was a long cab ride back, as I got myself lost in the passing streetlights.

It is, back to silence.

***

Dad was home when I got back.

Despite his few words, I knew he was concerned.

I felt a tight squeeze to my heart when he asked if it was hard for me.

“辛苦吗？”

I am not sure if there is any ambiguity to that casual question.

I looked on the floor, trying to make random conversation, and replied that even if it is so, it is something I ought to do anyway.

He asked about my work progress, but I didn’t dare to let him know everything hadn’t been smooth.

“Enough to spend?”

Again, I am not sure if there is any ambiguity to it.

I didn’t want him to worry, and I just washed my feet in the bathroom, as he stood and looked on. I am not sure if he was observing me, or not.

He then asked if I have discovery channel in my room since I had subscribed to cable years ago.

I smiled and asked if he was asking about Steve Irwin’s programs, and switched on the television.

Suddenly, I felt overwhelmed.

I had been so selfish back then, simply because he and my mum were never around much since we don’t stay together, and refused to put the cable box in the hall.

I want to add an additional box to the hall’s television soon.

And we can watch, as a family.