Today had been a rather tedious day.
I didn’t manage to fall asleep till 8am, and by the time I greeted Monday, it was already 4pm.
The sky was overcasted and threatened to pour its bladderful of rain down.
I had to get out of the house at 5 plus, to get to Tanjong Pagar at 6pm.
My Sunday was a mundane one. I stayed home. Watched the lads got into some serious action on the track, and just… read.
I have no idea how my time passed either.
I helped out a friend from 6pm to 10pm today, and I felt pretty miserable about the entire thing.
Problem is, I didn’t know how to say ‘No‘, since it was pretty much true when she brought up the fact that I am pretty much unengaged, and it would be good to pass time.
I realised one very important thing.
You get immensely dissatisfied with your predicament when you are trapped in a situation that shows you how money is never a factor for passion.
It just makes you even more loserish about yourself, that you are doing something you detest lots just because it is an obligation, and you just want to do something to make yourself look useful.
Seriously, to be surrounded by teenagers and to help out for mere 3 hours made me feel more handicapped than before.
I would rather help out VampTreSS as her assistant, free-of-charge and learn the ropes of trade anytime.
But it is also then, did I realise, I would rather do anything else in the world, other than telemarketing.
Oh, did I mention I have a fear for picking up the phone to make a call?
And yes, I have yet to overcome it yet.
Why?
Fear of rejection.
And oh, did I mention telemarketing is all about rejections too?
Nevermind. I shall cheer myself up.
I met up with VampTreSS after I had finished. I walked down the mellowed Shenton Way from Fuji Xerox building down to the MRT station at 10pm, and I was so engaged in my own thoughts that I had not seen a Caucasian lady waiting for cab at the bus stop, and had hailed for one before she did.
I could see her explosive face as the cab passed her, then did I realise what I had done.
No good, no good.
Ting had been a bad girl recently.
Met up with VampTreSS and we went down to Holland Village to chill.
The usual guys-cum-sex talk.
Erm, wait a minute. Guys, and sex talk would seem a better way to put it, eh?
Anyway, we finally left for home at around 1.30am.
Thanks babe, for taking the tension of me. We had a great time doing some filming. Muahahaha.
I have to perk myself up somehow.
This is sounding way too… demoralising.
Anyway… to perk everyone up and not wanting to tinging you guys with my hues of blues, I shall not show a side of me, which people closest to me had been raving about.
And, it has something to do with songs. A song that traumatises my inner group of pals.
Featuring the panda bear, daddy bought for me over his recent trip to China 2 weeks ago.
I came home that day and saw it sitting on the ironing board, and I knew it was for me.
I picked it up maternally, held it preciously in my hands as I migrated it into my room, close to me.
I felt this warm fuzziness within me, and it embodies the love daddy has for me.
I didn’t thank him.
In fact, when he called me up yesterday to join him for some dinner organised by his clan, I turned him down flat cos I had wanted to catch MotoGP.
I resented the thought of going down even more when he told me my half-sister, the eldest one would be there as well.
I doubt I would be welcomed anyway.
I would never how he chucked me aside 4 years ago to sit with them, and I was left alone.
Too awkward for us to be at the same table, you see.
He didn’t know. I was holding back my tears throughout that Chinese New Year reunion dinner, when he took a family photo with her, and my 2nd sister, and their families, without me.
They had their families that night. I didn’t.
Perhaps I never quite healed from it, so I didn’t want to go through that horrid feeling again.
To be denied.
So, I further rejected him when he asked me to join them last night. He sounded annoyed at my stubbornness.
I got more hurt than pissed when he said, ‘Don’t be lazy! Why are you so lazy? Get changed and come down now.‘
Ouch.
Now, this is what he thinks of me. Bravo.
He knows one thing about me. You be tough with me, I will never give in.
The blood of rebels runs deep within me.
‘I.AM.NOT.LAZY.‘
My voice was not raised, but the coldness and strength in my slowed words made him took a step back.
He pleaded.
I felt like giving in, but… the eventual answer was a no.
He hung up the phone, disappointed and slightly pissed.
I am sorry. If only you know.
Ting has been a bad girl.
Another thing?
Was crossing the road from a late night snacks-stocking trip to Esso.
I was crossing the road, on the phone with SBB, when I realised the cashier had charged me 3.50 less.
I was about to venture back into the store, but was feeling more lazy than dishonest. To walk the distance back, or not?
I struggled with the thoughts over what I should do.
‘Oh no, what should I do?‘ I stopped right at the roadside, not knowing what to do.
I didn’t want to be dishonest.
‘If I were you, I would just forget about it,‘ SBB quipped.
‘I don’t know why, but….should I, should I not?‘ the confused one thought out loud.
‘You got a conscience,‘ he said.
‘Really? If I really have conscience, I wouldn’t mind walk the distance back right now, would I?‘ I contested.
‘Go home,‘ he said.
For the first time of my life, when someone had short-charged me, I actually…. cheated, after making sure the workers’ pay would not be docked.
‘Now, I don’t have a conscience,‘ I said, with a tad of guilt, as I continued my walk home.
I still feel that guilt. *bites lower lip and glances at the floor*
Ting has been a bad, bad girl.
Eh? I had thought I would show a different side of me with the clip of the panda bear, and didn’t expect to rattle on this much.
But I supposed these do show a very different side of me.
The disappointing side.
The really awful side.
Anyway.
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE EXCLUSIVE CLIP OF TING
Or
CLICK HERE IF THE ABOVE DOESN’T WORK FOR YOU
If both don’t work. Er, I will email you if you leave your email address. If not? Shoo, and don’t watch it.
Be warned though.
Not for the faint-hearted.
Take a deep breath.
Are you ready for it?
Hurhurhur *evil laughters*
gees, you are not having a good day are you…
i also hate telemarketing and not a big fan of telemarketers…
the cab thing wasn’t your fault – it’s not like you did it on purpose…
i’m sorry it was hard for you that Chinese New Year… *hugz*
it would have been nicer to have gone back to the Esso store to clear up the mistake, but usually when i’m lazy i would just wait till next time i go there to give back the money – but, then it becomes a pain when the person at the counter is a different person or he/she can’t remember – and you have to explain the whole thing to him/her…
hope you have a good week ahead
OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
THE TEYHNESS!!!
Dun Dun Dun Dun Dun ever insist u are not Teyh anymore.
It’s in the blood.
!!! soo teyhh!!! haha, the giggle in the end is really not something everyone can do… im impressed by your teyh powers!
*sits u down*
*looks u in the eyes*
*very serious*
Darling.. U noe I love u dun u?
SO WILL U STOP TRAUMATISING ME???
*cringe at xiao ding dang*
send me send me!
nadnut@gmail.com
omg, i just the video, i don’t know what is more cute your voice or the panda?! i’m serious!
oh and what’s everyone on about with the word – ‘teyh’…?
EEEE YEEER.. Good la good la.. you guys who are closer to me don’t usually leave comments, and suddenly all rubbing it in just because.. just because… sigh. hahaha.
Ramesh: My good was okay. Just the few hours were hard to pass.
Yeah, it would have been nicer. You are nice. I am not. Heh.
FF: Call me Ting will do, really.
Kenny: It’s not teyh! It’s just imitation! My natural voice is not that!
Jan: It’s NOT!!! No!!! I was just doing it for fun. I have a normal voice besides the one i imitate!
Dudette: I have no idea how I threw in the giggle at the end too. But seriously darling, please trust me, I don’t really do that in real life. honest!
VampTreSS: *beady eyes* You love me, but you don’t love all of me.
*sob sob*
Nadnut: Alright darling! Check ya mail! And do share your insight and reviews haha.
ramesh: The panda, really.
It’s a local term we use to describe people who use that baby cutish voice, that kiddish pouts, the act cuteness hahaha like a cat purrrrrrrring to get their way.
damn, why is there never an english term for it.
anyway blogged about it before. haha
oh man. Nearly cough out noodles from my nostrils.
Wide Eyes low jaws. What the hell was that.. !? gawd.. I’m scarred for life..
~Kakashi
Babe, Doraemon is NOT a panda. What did they teach you when you are a kid?
I think your mind is twisted beyond redemption already… Haha.
haha cool, thanks Ting
it is kinda ironic cause when i tried to google for ‘define teyh’ you won’t belive whose website came up first – have a wild guess 
in anycase, i thought your voice is really cute
Victor: Muahaha, I already cautioned you people before viewing! Heh.
Kakashi: Muahahaha. ‘The hell’ was Ting and her panda bear
Sorry I will not be compensating you for your scars.
Guojun: Err.. the lyrics go ‘If I have a toy -mao-, I shall name it Xiao Ding Dang’ isn’t it?
Panda is xiong -mao- isn’t it?
Why never say cute or not?
ramesh: Oh shucks. I think it leads you to the queen of teyhness blog yuh?
Cute is the last thing I want to be. It just seems too wrong a combination. Haha.
Hi babe! I’m dying to watch what has been scarring the other viewers. I mean, entertaining.
But unfortunately, both links don’t work for me!
abyssofinsanity@gmail.com
Send me, please? I hope that works coz’ I’m not teyh. LOL.
wah… super high pitch cute singing! once in a while i still can tahan or fine it amusing and nice but if you talk in that high a tone to me for a long time, I may prob suffer from mental or physical disorder.. haha…
This clip is gonna be on repeat mode on my WMP for the rest of tonite !! (Can help me keep awake!!)
Ting, u sound so different from the Mr strawberry Milk video.
I have a confession to make.
I found myself whistling the tune of this Xiao Ding Dang song twice today, once in the shower, and once again while I was out earlier.
WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME?!?!?!
shiver.
big shiver.
:S
Thanks for sending it over, babe!
& there I was watching it when my arms involuntarily had goosebumps.
EH. Why your voice so baby-ish squeaky-ish cute? Do you really squeak?
Sam:: Glad it is finally working for you, though I am not sure if the feelings are mutual.
I speak, not squeak.
Um, perhaps both.
Muahahaha.
But seriously, I don’t normally speak this way. Yeah.
Tiger: No wonder most of my friends are mad or crazy already.
Zuj: Muahahahaha, I still thought you like it so much. @^#^!%@#
And yes, yes yes. I know how different I sound in the clip.
Chi: You know what’s really cool?
I made SBB hummed to it some weeks ago, and after watching a clip, my friend couldn’t stop humming it last night.
I think it’s contagious, seriously.
*in XDD’s voice* Wo zhen de bu shi gu yi de.
Darren: Does that make you feel closer to home?
hi, please send daddy…cannot download!
thanks
david
mexican1948@yahoo.com
Hey! Not sure if its me but i can’t seem to get the videos! >.<
Could u send it to megumic@gmail.com ? Thanks!
I think its pretty ok for not going back to Esso for 3.50 coz from wat i know, some stores actually jus report the missing amount at the end of the day and thats it, no docking of pay. =)
haha.. but its still cute, the first time i hear it hehe…
so tyeehhhh… when u going kbox?
keep it up yaw’ !!!
i like the voice. keke
cute is an understatement so i’m not going to use it.
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bravewimp!!! u tink u project superstar ah?!?!